Wandering

Well since some are just totally out yet around my household here.  I found out on Thursday with a funeral 4 weeks before and some can not even say they did not have phone numbers for some of us at all here over the years since my cell phone number has not changed at all here in about 8 years at all.  That was only part of the cruddy week here and some are going to be out of luck since I have got alot cheaper also while I have been at it here over the past 10 months totally.  Now all I am doing here is trying to catch up with bills here and go from there at this point in time.  I just hope that nobody is going thru in what the Bigen Trucks are going thru at this point in time totally broke and going from there.  The past 4 years have been hard and it just got harder with some of us here at this time.  I am just thankfull that I am somewhat stocked up at this point in time here and some people dropped me to the curb from 10 months ago and then some around here.  I have also learned that life is better without the cut downs and the lies that some will say to and about me at this time here.  The less I know the better and the more I give a rats behind on what some think about me still and it proves a point that I just do not care.  When I am sitting here and my power bill has been under 45 dollars this month here without the dryer going here and all of the lights it tells me something here totally.  Also I have found out that I still have a say in how much I pay around here for alot of things totally.  So the fire place will be going more here for the household to keep it all warm nomatter what goes on here along with the gas bill will not go up that much around here also now with that going when it gets to cold out.  So it makes me wander in what some have been thinking here and others at this point they just do not give a damn period at all.  So no wander I have been trying to get cheaper here and got cut down for what I was trying to do for the household months ago here.  So now it is like I feel alot better after after I got dropped and realized why here totally also after some other people that got lied to also in why I was doing what I was doing or just lied period about me.  Knowing in what I know now I wish sometimes I did not push feallings aside for some people even though they were married to some that were close to me or lived across the street also from the trailer.  SO now at this point in time if some only knew in how much of a tight was that I am now here they would be shocked totally.  Yes I did get everything switched over to the cheaper ways that I have here from the trailer to the household now and some have to deal with it since they wanted to drop me on the curb and take others with them from me here now.  I guess it did not matter in how much pain I was in since it did not matter at all here and I had the feeling more was going down and 2 proved it to me in the past 10 months or so that I had the feeling period at the time.  But then again I am supposadly that damn stupid to some people that I am not suppose to know what the Hell is going on also still to this day when one dropps me and the other ignors me also here.  Oh well at least I know what is going down and let some know also after 4 weeks when I was told here also about a death. 

Knowing why now

At this point in time I now know why I started switching things over and have left everything off in the household at this point.  With a power bill without some here is under 45 dollars and will continue to drop here to say the least it is a good thing.  There has been alot of things going on around here to say the least and free fire wood is always a good thing in my eyes also.  Now here I can say also is that some people may have dropped me to the curb or slammed me one here and that maybe one of the best things they have done for me at this time since I am getting alot cheaper here in the household at this point.  Between the free fire wood along with huge sales at the store that I have hit up in the past 10 months here and getting alot of the bills down on top of it here for the place now I am realizing that I got real lucky in the time frame totally.  Also I am alot calmer while I have been at it all in the past 10 months.  With everything that has been done here in the place at this time it has been alot cleaner along with the place being stocked up on top of it all.  With the one storm that went up the coast here and alot of people are still without power and food here now it makes me wander in what really goes on here in NY State with the heads in the governor's office now.  I will say that he told the Press go away I do not have time for you at this point playing the stupid silly games I have a state to run that is in trouble.  IF that was not a huge middle finger in some faces I do not know what is then.  Pluss on the radio I heard a child say if Romny gets in then he had to go back to the fields here.  I would love to tell the child and the parents here ya now need permits for children in the fields in todays world thanks to Obama here along with the farmers kids in the household also here.  The kids can not even get on the rideing lawnmower at all since that is considdered farm equipment also.  So what does this tell everyone here also about all the laws that have been past that did not get other officials votes on totally since some went over and beyond their heads along with a money grab to pay for all the people that now collect welfare that do not need it still to this day.  All I can say at this point still is that some people that are lazy and have been on welfare for years at this point along with their parents and grand parents that is where we get the baby daddy from also.