Wandering here

Well now it really makes me wander if I hit the nail on the head with some people here in the area totally at this time.  After almost 8 months here without one person I feel better here and even after the text that the gal sent me at the time made me mad of course and that can not be helped at all.  I told my Husband yesterday that he knew after I paid back the gal that the friendship started falling apart right then and there without even a problem.  My poor Husband said that he noticed it and did not want to say anything about it at all untill I said something about it.  What got to me was all the cut downs that were said to me here knowing that I was not feeling good at all at the time and some still would pile into my place without caring at all about what was going on here.  All I know is that after I said what was on my mind and got it out in the open here I felt alot better after that point.  Also I was trying to get the household on track with alot of things and had to give up on it all untill the blow out of that part.  Then I was reminded of where I stood with someone that use to come over with the gal and he did not bother to come in at all here.  I will not stop my Husband from having friends at all and refuse to say nay on people coming over to see him also here still to this day.  Worse comes to worse I get an extra walk in while some are here.  Anyway things have changed so much here in the household in the past 3 months that it is not even funny at all.  I have got back on the waggon totally to get the household cheaper here once again.  None of us will do without anything here at all and somethings are a treat nomatter in what ya do for the household.  Since I do have the back stock in place here for the household that has helped out totally for not spending much at all for that part of the house.  That was the main thing that I was getting cut down for along with hanging the dang laundry for the most part for the household.  So now here since some have dropped me I ended up getting alot of things on the cheap here and did not get torn down on that part of things here.  Now it is full blown in what needs to happen for the place to get the bills that much cheaper here and I will struggle with that part for a good many weeks again for the household.  After all said and done my Husband ended up putting in the umbrella lines with the back yard and that has helped alot here for myself.  Also now there will be alot of laundry done this week here on the good days totally.  This is what some people have not got as of yet in what some of us do to try to cut costs every step that we take here at all.  So at this point in time it feels good that I am not getting cut down for what I do anymore here for the place.  Maybe that was the problem from the get go with myself feeling so bad along with some that just did not give a Damn in what they did at all to use others.  Now also once I think about it also nobody has complained about my cooking within the 8 months niether here it makes me wander totally in what some were up to about that part since she was here twice a week eating alot of the times.  So at this point I am seeing alot more without the pain and I am trying to get alot more done here for the place on the cheap side also while I am at it all.  Now at this time with watching the sales and it has to be a really good one here in order to get out of the household totally unless it is to walk here totally oh well on some people here.  The best part about all of this will be that the bills will come down again for the place and I will meet the goal that I have set up with the household here from now on. 

Shaking my head

Well at this time I will be working on the bills again here for the household.  Since the place is ok in food I am not totally worried about that part at all here.  So now here with alot of things that are going on and knowing that I have to pay more bills around the place I may as well start walking more here to get the nickles totally.  Alot of what I need to do is to cut down even more and be done with it here for the place without any questions at all.  This is what has got alot of people here in the area about me so far since I do get things done here and have cut alot of things out here in the household totally yet again.  Also another thing is that I will be taking my walks later in the day here so I can get more done here in the place.  With alot of things that I have been thinking about here in the past 2 weeks it will all come togeather and will work in what I want to do with it all.  Since I have been going back and fourth with my laptop computer here for the past 6 weeks I have not noticed anything different with the power bill at all on that part of things.  Without the dryer being ran all of the time here it has made a huge dint in the power bill totally over the months.  So now here I will have to get that much more creative on the cheap ways of life here and go from there at this point in time also for the place.  Hanging laundry has helped out here for the main part of things here in the house.  I have noticed that since I put the one cookbook totally away here things have changed alot also in that part of things here.  So I dragged that out here as of Friday and will start using that again for cheaper meals.  I had put that away since some were complaining that the meals were to cheap when she was here also.  Now there are no worries about that part of things since some will not be over at all anymore to the household from now on.  So now is my total chance to get that much cheaper without being cut down for what I do here anymore for the house.  Since I can deal without alot of things here I am willing to give that a try also now for the place.  This means that I will be cutting more off here during the day for longer periods of time here and see how that works out for what I am trying to do here. 

Knowing now

With all the problems I had out of my one Niece here comes to find out that I was right here totally.  I was not asking for myself here at all to go see the person that I had seen 2 weeks ago here at all just give an older woman the happyness to see one of her great grand babies and go from there.  Now I knew the woman was sick 3 weeks before I got down there with blood clots all over her lungs and thought to bring the poor gal some happyness here to take at least one of the kids down with me 2 weeks ago as a thought.  That is when I got burnt from the Niece that did live at the trailer with myself and my Husband here at one time.  But then again thinking on things with the girls other side of the family I was the totally stupid one here and the 89 year old woman did not get to see one of her great grandbabies.  Then again I tought I would be nice to both parties and let them see each other one last time after I threw the girl out almost 2 years ago with the 2 weeks ago that I went down.  And yes I was livid over the girl lieing her toush off to me along with her boyfriend here for years.  The text of what was said back and fourth will be brought up here in another post on the blog totally since I supposadly lied to others also.  It all came out in a phone call that the girl did not want to go at all and can careless about others totally.  That is how it is and at least I have a clear mind over in what I did regardless in how I felt about the girl.  I was trying to do the right thing here and failed totally except to some people that I know here.  At least I did try to do things the right way and got kicked to the curb.  I can say that I could have been harder on the girl and did not do it at all since I was not going to tolorate the B.S. that she wanted and threw her toush out of the trailer and said no to her boyfriend who is a sexual preditor to move into the house with us when we first moved in 21 months ago.  I had to think about the 3 girls on one side of me along with an older woman on the other side also and a new neighborhood at the same time.  That did not include all of the comments that were made in the kitchen of the house here when we first moved in also about the lazy bumb not wanting to do squat here to help out.  Right then I knew I made the right choice by saying no to the low life.  Now this does not include all of the kids in and out of the place drinking at all since some are laxed on it and I was not.  I knew in what I did over the years and it did not settle at all with me in what others thought they could do in my place period.  When my Niece was totally drunk off her toush that is when she called me "Mommy" in the voice mail she left if she left one for me at the time when she was at the trailer 3 years pluss ago.