Shaking my head

Well at this time I hit up just one parking lot this morning and got 20 cents right away.  So I may have a good day here after that part also.  Now to sit back and wait here for the rest of the day along with the appointment for the truck also.  So either way who told my that I have to much time on my hands at one point in time here just does not have a clue as to what gets done during the day and I am not the guys wife at all that makes the kids do everything in the household.  After all said and done here things do get done and that means that I do the main bulk of things for the household totally.  Now here at least I can plot out the day for the most part here along with getting to the truck also.  There is part of the break here for sitting at the shop to wait on that part of things.  What gets to me the most here is that my Husband pretty much realized why I said in what I did the other day to him.  He was still mad but also understood after I told him the person already tried to kill me once and I will not put up with it for the 2nd go around period without swinging this time on the person.  So now at this time when I tried to get the number again my Husband told me that the person will not give him the number period here at all.  Right there it tells me something in what is really going down now.

Shaking my head

Well I did get alot done here yesterday and still got hollered at on top of it here.  Since I did get an appointment for the truck and also called for a book from the insurance company on top of it all while I was at it along with a call coming in.  I told my Husband that with what he said I still do not trust the person that is trying to take over on the butchering also here at this time.  Since I do have a food allergy here and the person who called for the butcher tried to put pepper on my food several times and tried to make me eat other things with peppers in the sauce or food over the past 8 months I do not trust the person at all period still.  There are several other reasons also at this time in the whys on it also.  So now at this point here I asked for the number to call myself and got shot down on that part for today here to make the call.  The last time I got tangled up with any kind of pepper I landed in the hospital for days after.  Anyway now with the day coming up it is another normal cleaning day here for the place.  I may as well since I have nothing better to do here along with the hurry up and wait for tomarrow here also for my walk.  So as I sit here at this time I am plotting out in where to start first for the place and just start again on doing the little things for the day also.  I guess it all could be worse here than what I know it is at this time.  So now here I better get on the move here and get out of the household for a good while here this morning.

Shaking my head

Well at this point I know that my Husband can not see a dang thing period here at this time.  He passed my second walk up totally and figured I would not mind one bit and there went 5 dollars down the drain.  That is what I could see at the side of the dang road also in the area in where we were at yesterday also.  So I will have to bust my toush there totally this week and I have the answer to that also at this time.  Now at this time I just hope that this week will be another good week on me for in what I have to do here for the walks and go from there.  Also my Husband had asked me yesterday to please hide money from him and I know in what is up with that part of things here totally.  Since we are swinging into the colder months and there will be one month to where we are totally broke again without a 5 dollar bill to spare period at all I know in what I will be doing here also.  So maybe it is a good thing that I will be walking more along with do not mind being cold also on top of it day after day here after I get done.  Another thing that I will be doing here for the household will apparently be myown doing from now on and that part totally stinks since I know that my Husband just does not care at all.  With that being said here I guess that I will have to start again going without here in the household to make some happy and I just do not care anymore at all in what goes on after today.  After all here I have been waiting for some things to run out here in the household and it can not come quick enough at this time of course.  Now also I will see in what I can do this afternoon here when I get my Husband off to his truck and walk again here for the day where here is parked at of course.  I have noticed that I do somewhat well in the afternoons at one parking lot here in the area and that is how it goes on any afternoon.  Plus I can walk to the place and pick up nickles and other money off the side of the road while I am at it all.  That is what gets to me the most here about some people in the area that just do not care at all in what they throw out the car, truck, and van windows that they are driving or waiting for the bus also in the one parking lot that I go to here.  Another thing is that we get charged a nickle for soda, water, and beer in NY State.  I have noticed on my Thursday walks here where I am at that I will get about a dollar to about 5 dollars per Thursday every time that I walk here in the neighborhood.  Some folks will claim that they are broke here and do not know where they can get extra money at all.  I have shook my head at the person or persons that tell me this as I am picking things out of the trash or other means infront of them and tell them thanks for the money that ya have thrown out and gave me this morning also.  The people look at me like I have 2 heads, 8 arms, and 4 legs still to this day here for thanking them and not realizing that they just did what they all did.  So this is where I work and go from there since I am always looking for nickles totally at this time.

Shaking my head

Well yesterday was a flop in the household and that is ok by me here.  Even though I ended up using the fire place for the day here.  I only went threw about 4 logs the whole day it was a good thing for the place totally now after all said and done.  With alot of things going on at this time here at least I can say that I do have my Husband somewhat trained still and have put my foot down once again here for the household also.  He was shocked that I just pointed and growled at him about turning off things after he gets done with them here in the place.  So after all said and done maybe there is hope and maybe I do not have to holler as much now nor fight also while I am at it all.  Since yesterday was a huge thinking day on my part here while I did little things around the household I have came up with at least a couple of things that will help out totally in with trying to get cheaper here for the place.  Part of it is the walks that I take here along with the money that I do pick up also while I am at it all.  The other part is having hidden money totally for groceries and other things that are needed for the place.  I am still working on some things here for the time being and that is how it goes also for myself.  It is like the great debate on what to do and how I will do things from now on yet again for the money that I pick up on the walks.  With that being said here knowing in that it is ok for myself to get alot cheaper for the place it will get done again and see where I land up taking baby steps again to get things done.  I also have a good head start here for the place while I am at it and need to get more things cleared out so things can get done.  Now also I have noticed alot of things in the past week here for what was said to me along with my Husband getting somewhat nasty also on top of it also.  All I can do is laugh at this point since some people will keep cutting me down at the ankles and others boost my thoughts on the walks that I take at this time.  So now here I will see in what I can get for the morning here on the first walk and go from there also.  It all works out for the best here and I do not mind that part at all.

Shaking my head

Well I know with this morning I ended up with over 5 dollars in nickles on my walk.  So now at this time it seems strange that I did really well with that part of things already for in what I do.  I was suprized that someone was already up by the time I hit the next street over and she asked me if what I had was for 2 weeks here.  I told her no this is just this morning with the bag that I had and for 2 streets here for the morning walk.  That tells me something also is that some people are just throwing out money here totally in the neighborhood.  All I can do is keep walking here and pick up the nickles as a reward for it all.  Also it helps with alot of the bills also for the household in what I pick up during the month here.  So as I sit here now and start to think of what needs to be done for the day here I hope that I can keep motivated for the rest of the day of course.  Also I did get to think this morning here and get some things straight in my mind here also for the household and myself of course.  Plus I got to think of where else to hit up for more walks to start getting out of the wall for the weight loss also.  Another thing to keep me going here is in what I did this morning here also for my walk.  With that being said here at least I can hide that part in what I do for money here also during the week.  The person that said that I have to much time on my hands during the day does not have a clue as to what I am doing at all anyway from the time he said that part to me.  Since I keep busy during the day while I am alone here it would hurt the person totally to know in what I do.  So either way here at least I keep busy with trying to be cheap here, along with the walks, and taking room by room for cleaning also for the place.  The nice thing about in what I have been doing here is that I am not scared to get caught at all in what I have been doing and still others do not have a clue as to what I am doing also still to this day.

Knowing now

Well next week is another week here for my walks here totally.  I should have known in where to hit up for it and tanked this morning for the nickles totally.  So I will sit around for awhile and get back out for another walk here and hope that tomarrow will be better here also for the nickles.  Now at this time here at least I got out of the house so far already here and I will not complain about it at all in what I have done so far here for the morning.  At least I will say that my ankles are burning at this time and I had a good long walk for the morning already.  Another thing I was thinking of for the place is tomarrow I will try to expand my walk again here for the neighborhood and see in where I land up for the day.  With that being said I just hope that I can get some things full totally and have a good day on that part.  Since I am not scared to do some things here at all and will keep going to prove a point to some people.  Also here since I did get the pep talk last week here with one person and the more that I have thought about what the guy told me the more he is right on the comment that he made to me.  At least I am out there walking and picking up money that others throw out in the area at this time and it is an honest way to get money at this time.  I am sure that I will get blasted for that comment and that is fine by me.  It is work nomatter in how you look at it now in what I do and the guy was right when he said that to me also.  Some of us just make our own hours and do what we can to make it at this time.  So now here I will have to get more done in the household also for today and I just hope that it is on the cheap side again for the day.  Also here I will be on the look out for some things going on and that is how it is also for this early in the morning here in the household.  Not alot of folks are up at this time and that is how I like it.  It gives me time to plot out the day along with getting my walks in for this early in the morning and to think of what to cut again here for the household.  I will figure it all out in my way and will start reading on things again to knock myself in the head on where I should be at still to this day that I gave up on after the move.

Shaking my head

Well at this time I will hit up some places tomarrow here for my walk.  What gets to me is that some people are just throwing money out the window and do not care at all.  All I can say about that is one persons loss is another persons gain here for the nickles at this time.  So I will try to get out later on today and see in how much that I can get also for the day here.  With the small walks that I have had since Thursday when I cashed in I almost have a black lawn bag half full already here so far and it is not even a week later at this time now.  With tomarrow along with Thursday for my walks I should be ok after I get done for the week to get alot more of the nickles.  Now I have came to the point of I may as well just get my walks in all week here and see in what I can do.  There will be some days that I will not get out nomatter in what I do for the day in the household also.  Also I have learned that it is ok to hit one parking lot here over the weekend and start picking up the nickles for myself also.  Since I did not take a count for the day today here in how much I did get here for the morning and will find out if I did well on the walks as of Thursday when I get done here in the neighborhood.  With that part said here I was trying to figure out in how much I would have to be out of the place at this time.  I just hope the next couple of days will be good for alot of the walks that I will be doing.  Anyway here since I am trying to get cheaper it is like a block for me at this time also.  I guess that it will take time again in order to get back to where I was at the can for cutting the costs.  I will get it done some how and some way yet again.  So lets see in what I can do for today and go from there at this time along with the rest of the week.  I just hope that it will not drive me up the wall here at this time.

Waiting

Well I am waiting for my walk this morning totally here.  Part of it will be done at about 5 am and see where I land up here.  I know that I ended up with about 70 cents yesterday morning and that was out of one parking lot.  The weird thing is that I will end up doing well here by the middle of the week for my walks and that is fine by me.  At least it is something extra to do for the place since according to some people that I have to much time on my hands.  So now at this time at least I can get some of the meanness out of me when I do walk and be done with it here.  Also I pick up money while I am at it all for myself.  This is why I try to get out Monday's here along with 4 other days for the place.  I have totally found out that the walks do help out here with myself and I do not have to get out to the stores at all to look around to get out of the household also.  It all seems strange that I will be doing on my own again for the week in the place and maybe I will get something done other than what I have been doing.  After I got back yesterday from my walk I did get dinner cooked for the place along with about 3 loads of laundry threw the washer also while I was at it all.  That is why I have walked away from some people at this point when they have started cutting me down for what I apparently do not do in their eyes all day long.  So as I sit here at this time and think of where to hit up this morning here totally for my walk now it all seems like I have to get out more or keep a good eye out on where to hit up from now on.  Knowing that I can get out for a good while here at least I will keep my eyes out for next week also.  Anyway now to start with my list here for the week and I can take some things off of course here while I am at it all.  Also now lets see where I land up for the day and go from there.

Shaking my head

Well I have been thinking alot this week weather to stay or go here from the household.  Thanks to some people who figure that they are my Husbands best friend here and told me so when I know better since I have talked with my Husbands "Real Best Friend" here within the past 10 days and kind of explained to him in what was going down.  That is where it was brought up to where I was carefull with money and I told him that I was the tight fisted one here and the guy knew that I was right.  I told the guy to go ahead and say now here since I do not know what else to do here totally since I am about ready to leave and have no choice here at all.  I know in what some have said to my Husband here and told him ok 40 and 20 years here compaired to 3 years here with one person and you are in a loss of the 17 years of being married and 20 years of being togeather with her she is done.  I have also came to the fact that I have lost the 7 plus grand that I have lent out to my Husbands friend here and have pretty much moved on.  So when my Husband told me yesterday to not kill myself here on getting the nickles during the week here I about exploded on that part of things here.  I kept my mouth shut and walked away from my Husband on what he told me here.  So after what was told to me yesterday I will do in what I have to here to get money up in alot of ways for myself and the household here to say hey ya do not give a Damn it is ok.  So now at this point in time I do not have to say much to my Husband here totally since he knows that I am tired of the crap that he has put me threw here in the past 18 months.  So the push is on me here to get the money up totally for the household and go from there.  That is part of the reason why I ignored some comments from the person who said to me that since your Husbands my best friend here I have to tell him in what you say along with the other things that I pop off with about you.  The comment about the dumpster hurt since I do not do that part at all here to get the nickles period.  Right then and there some lost my respect period along with his wife for not getting up and helping cook while the last time I was there at the house.  All I could do was shake my head and tell myself that she was lazier than what I thought here totally or did not give a damn about other people period at the time.  The cake topper was when she was handing her husband the plate back after he served her in bed for breakfast and he had to deal with all 3 kids that morning along with his dog.  I had to walk when all things went down that morning and I refused to say much.  So now to get up and move and go from there now it will be all good after this here and see what the heck happends otherwise now.

Laughing

Well one thing that I have learned over the years is that while on my walks here do not really mess with parts of the fence lines period unless it is in the Winter months so you can see in what is starting to rattle it.  I almost ran into a skunk this morning with a good laugh.  Both mom and the baby must have smelled the wessel on me and wanted no part of it and I wanted no part of them neither here in where I was at.  I have to laugh about it here totally since I know and the tomato juice does not work for skunk at all.  Since I do swear by the brown bottle Lysol here for the household that is the only thing that I have found to work for skunk spray along with cat.  This is also in what happends when there are older children in the household that go hunting also.  Ok so I stick with what really works here and you double what is on the label also with a gallon of water on that part of the cleaner.  So now at this time I did get my walk in for the morning here and worse comes to worse I get back out later on in the day also.  That is one of the good things here since I pretty much can hit up afew areas still in the day light of course.  I guess it all could be worse for the household totally.  Another thing is now since I know in where to get leg warmers for this winter when I get enough money up here to get more pairs of them.  This is another reason of why I have started walking more here for myself.  With the pay checks getting smaller for the household I will pick up the slack in alot of ways to get cheaper for the place.  Plus my Husband finally realized that in what I am doing now here for the household totally and why I am pushing myself for the walks.  At least it is some money coming into the place at this time and that is how it will go from now on.  Another thing is that I will start getting out more since I do need a break from the place while I am at it and if an hour or so picks me back up dang it all to snot I will be doing that part of things more often.  Since I got another push somewhat with some folks and they know that I am somewhat competitive here for things it is all for the best.  All some will say is that it gets me out of the house here and earning money also.  Another thing about it is that I look at things different in how to start getting money also.  Part of it is taking walks and what I get is what I get for the day along with it is work to get the nickles for the place.  Some will say it is honest work since we get out and have to look for the nickles here nomatter what.  And it is honest work in alot of ways in what we all do.  So now the person who told me that is right in alot of ways and I brought up with if more folks would care then we would be out of work here.  Alot of people just do not care in the money that they are throwing out still to this day in the area here and some of us pick up and profit off of them.  On Thursdays I do not drive hardly unless I am going to cash in for the week and get some shopping done also at the same time.  I will walk the neighborhood here along with 2 other streets to see in how much that I get also.  Sometimes I have to drive to a spot here and go from there and it works out for the best on my part.  Just like this morning here I was already out here and hit up 2 parking lots here for the morning.  Alot of it is just knowing in where to hit up and think about the bigger parking lots also.  Where I go it is a huge parking lot and there are 3 eateries along with several trash cans for the drivers and the folks who have RV's also so they can park and not worry about some things.  With that being said not alot of folks know or do not care if they get charged a nickle for water and soda plastic bottles and the soda and beer cans at the stores.  Then others that are here full time in the area some just do not care if the nickles land in parking lots along with the side of the road here also.  That is where some of us come into play and start picking up and make money off of what others cast off as nothing here also.  So now here at least I can get money if I work at it and will from now on here for myself so I can get some of the extras for the household.  Also I am not scared to work for the nickles here for the household at all.  While I am at it I know that it makes some people mad that I will go out and walk for alot of the money that I get at this time.

Shaking my head

Well after yesterday here all I can do is shake my head totally.  All I can do is go for my walks and pinch the nickles as hard as I can here in the household totally.  I am still in shock over not having the cat here totally and still know that I have a few spots to just clean totally without a problem along with taking the food over to a friends house here also for her cats.  Since I had used up the one box of litter for the down stairs box this past week I was not to worried about getting litter for at least acouple of weeks here also for that part of things.  So now I still did not want to save money in this way at all totally for the household.  With that being said here at least I can still work around the household here at this time and keep busy still.  There will be alot more walks to go on here with me and see where I land up for that part of it all.  At least I can get some piece in the walks here totally along with picking up money along the way here also while I am at it all for every time that I go out of the household.  My Husband looked at me yesterday and told me do not breack my toush on getting the extra money and I just looked at him like if you only knew at this point with the bills rolling in along with other things that have to be paid for also.  So I will see in what I can do for the week here totally for that part of things and where I land up for the walks also.  I know that at least 3 days this week I am booked for my morning walks here totally.  Also I had told my Husband do not bother to ask in how much I get anymore for my walks and when I cash in for that part of things here from now on.  I will know in how much is here and that is how it will go from now on.  Also with yesterday I did get and extra 50 cents on where I was at totally and that was only one way from where we were both at.  So now another thing with the walks is that I know in where to hit up and when also in some spots nomatter what goes on at this time.  That was part of the pep talk that I got on Thursday morning here totally.  With the person who gave me the pep talk he knows that I can go farther than he can off of his bike and there are areas that he can not get to also that I go to at this time.  Since I do get out to other areas at times and I will not break my toush getting to places also so I can let my neck and shoulders unwind by getting out of the truck and walking totally.  So now here at least there are still ways that I can get some money up for the household still and that is how I like it at my pace.

Thinking again

Well I had time to think for the day so far and lost my cat on top of it.  I wanted to save money but not like this or in this way.  So now at this time it will hit me on Monday morning when I sit down in the kitchen and no cat sitting with me here while I watch the neighborhood.  Now I will end up giving out what I have left of the cat food since I had not got to getting the litter at all this week.  At this time as I was saying that I did not want to save money this way and I mean it.  There is nothing left for me to do but to save the money after this today.  Also it will be less work on me in the household and one less spot to clean also at this time here and I will have to clean what is left in some places nomatter what today.  Another thing is that knowing the household here and what was going on that I am not saying also does not help at all along with the one spot that I have to clean like now here also once the washer stops also.  What else can I do about it here but just do untill I give up totally now.  Also I have to move car parts while I am at it all.  I guess the hard work will pay off for the day along with the walks here also while I am at it from now on.  It is not the best way to deal with this but it also works to work untill I drop for a good while.

Shaking my head

Well at least I got in the walk and the time to think on some things this morning already.  And I will get back out for another walk in a different area here for the day.  So it will not be so bad when I start again here for the morning.  The bad part is that I want to get a full bag of nickles before I get home again for the day.  It may just work out for me also since the last time I was at a place I seen 15 cents right away.  So now at this time I may just make it for the week in some of the goals that I have set up for my walks as of Thursday now of course.  Now all I can do is keep quiet in how much that I get during the week here from my walks.  The nice thing is that I will be cashing in once a week here also just to keep the back seat cleared out from now on also.  So I just hope that I can make it worth my while here to go in once a week from now on.  It is worth the shot to do so also once I think of it all.  Another thing is that with the walks I do think of things like this along with trying to get cheaper here for the household.  Some things will work yet again from now on here for the place.  At this point I have no choice in the matter but to get cheaper for the household.  This is what will bother some people at this time once I get started on everything once again for the place.  Ok I have slacked off in alot of areas for the household along with myself here also.  Now to just get myself back into gear to get alot more things done here and put my foot down more often also while I am at it all.  The nice thing about some things that will be done for the household is that I can still deal without things totally to this day here.  Maybe that is part of my problem also here in the household if I think of it long enough at this time.  Since I will keep some batteries on my hands for the radio here also while I am at it, it will also help in keeping the power bill down here for the household.  The dryer will also take a hike here for anyone using it from now on for the place.  There is still alot of things to think about here on my part and I will figure things out and see where I land up here also from now on.

Shaking my head

Well at least I will be able to get out of the household today without a problem at all.  Now my Husband is understanding in what I have been trying to be the tight wad over the past several months also.  So now as I sit here and think of several ways to start yet again on things that my Husband has ignored me on up untill yesterday here I know that I will make it.  At this time I have not made it out of the house as of yet for part of my walk here of course and that is coming soon also.  I may as well get out to one of my normal spots here in the area and walk farther than what I have been doing also now.  At this time also I have been figuring out in how I will make everything work here and that is the next step in the plan of things here for the household.  As I told one person when he asked me if I had a bike and my answer was no and that I needed one to save on the gas in the truck here also.  The guy looked at me in almost shock here when I said that part of things this week.  It all helps when I have a person outside of the house that I can trust here to say what is kind of going on and bounce off ideas also with another person.  So as I sit here now and really think of ways to get things done for the house at this time of course it will hit me totally.  Now here since the real cruddy weather is coming up also I will have to think of more wood for the fire place while I am at it to cut down on the gas bill.  So I will keep a sharp eye out for free fire wood at the side of the road also for a good while here.  Since there are still ways that I can get things done here for the household totally I will try to start in on alot of things that I need to do and pull out the old bag of tricks still in my pocket that have worked way before at the can also.  The half price on the T.P. that I picked up the other day was a good start and the points that I got to go along with it helps out also.  So I will see in what I can do for today on my walk here in the area and go from there this morning.  Also I need to somewhat clean while I am at it for the day here if my Husband figures that I do not need to go with him this morning to the junk yard.  All I can do is shake my head here and try to get things done for the household and tough cookies on some that will cut me down for it all here after this time.

Shaking my head

Well now I know in why I like my walks in the morning and a good rain storm after 7 pm along with it raining on and off during the night.  Since I lost count on how much that I got this morning in nickles here it is ok since I am figuring it is about 3 dollars.  Not alot of the folks that pick up the nickles like I do have been out in the neighborhood and it works out better on me here totally for a Thursday morning.  I can say that I did walk abit farther than what I wanted to this morning and that is ok by me here totally at this time.  Also I feel better mentally somewhat also here.  The bad part is that I know that I will get knocked back down for the day here without a doubt.  So as I sit here at this time of the morning and start thinking of what all needs to be done for the household still at this time it all makes me wander in how long that I can keep all of this up at this point.  I got told last night here from my Husband that he did not cause me anymore work in the place and all I could think of was if you don't then who does.  It all gets piled up on me in what needs to be done along with cooking in the household still at this time.  With that part being said here I ended up over at Kmart for the household before I talked with my Husband for the night here since knowing that there were some things needed anyway he was in shock that I did on my own here totally.  Since I had no choice in the matter here totally to get out for awhile here it all put me into a better place by the time that I got back also.  It just does not make since in alot of ways but then again it does at this point.  So I will have to get out later on today here again and I may as well turn in all the nickles that are in the truck at this time also for the day.  It is one of the things that my Husband does not need to know at all in how much I have ended up with at this time also from the walks that I have went on also.  So lets see in how much that I really have already and go from there for the day.

Shaking my head

Well I did get some things done yesterday here for the household.  It was not enough to see a difference anyway for the place and tough on my part here at this time.  So now at this time I will have to wait untill Friday for the laundry to get ran threw the washer of course.  It will not be so bad once I get all of that done here for the place.  As I sit here and take mental notes here in what needs to be done already here for the day it will not be so bad once I get started again for the place.  With that being said for the day it will be another cheap one of course and some people have to deal with that part of things also over the weekend weather some like it or not.  Also I will get a walk in today while I am at it all here for myself.  I may as wait untill this afternoon to do that part of things.  All I can do is hope with the weather here on that part along with hitting a spot that I should have hit up anyway in the past several months here in the area.  The nice thing about in what I will do for today is that it is very little gas that will be used along with picking up the nickles off the side of the road where I will be at for the day.  May as well then keep that part back from some people in the household while I am at it.  Anyway I better get started on the housework here and get done with it all early if I get threw it all for the day.

Shaking my head

Well at least I know of when to hit the one area up now here for my walks and will do so from now on without a problem.  Also now here I did get some things straight in my mind here along with going cheaper it will not be so bad after I start getting things done.  Another thing is that I will be walking more here since most of the stores are fairly close to the house at this time so I can save the gas in the truck also here.  I may as well start that part up along with hiding money yet again in the household.  The bad part is that I have way to many hiding spots here in the household and it will get done totally without some even knowing about it again.  Also with my walks I will be picking up the nickles here while I am at it all and will turn them in once a week nomatter in how much is collected during the week on my part.  So now here there are ways yet that I can do this part and still be a tight wad totally now.  Plus since the Winter months are coming here it will get better on my part here totally.  It always does on my cold walks totally.  So as I sit here now and totally think in what people will throw out into some things on trash day here in the area along with a slew of nickles on the side of the street here it amazes me still to this day.  I know that some do not pick up from the side of the road anymore here since the person straight out said it to me here about a month ago here I guess this is why I have been finding abit more also in some spots.  There are other means also in what I do to get the nickles also at this time.  I guess this is why I do not mind the cover of darkness here at all in alot of ways when I do take my walks also at this time.  Plus I do not get bothered as much here at all when I get my walks in.  Also I got to think of some ways to really kick it into high gear here for the place in order to jump start in what needs to be done.  Parts will be done as of today and started.  Some of it started yesterday here since I got screamed at on Friday night also here in the household.  Another thing here is that since my Husband refused to do some things so far then threw somethings in my face also on me on Friday I know that I have had to take matters into my own hands here totally.  That is why I had the conversation with someone on Thursday here also.  I kind of brought up in why I said no at the time here for some things and have been kicking myself ever since also here along with the just in case if this happened also on top of it here.  The person said no at the time your van was up and down and I understood in the whys.  Now I am somewhat stuck untill I get some things straight here totally.

Thinking again

Well now I know why I have been getting up fairly early either way that I have went.  At least I get to put my thoughts in order and to think on things while I am alone totally.  As someone told me that I was the tight wad out of the group and to make sure that the bills were paid along with food in the household the person was right on that part of things.  That is why I have been doing alot of thinking in how I will end up doing things with hardly any money at this point in time.  After all said and done this has been why I have kept to my walks now and will have to step up myself to do more here on the very cheap from now on also.  At this time I know in what I have to get done and my Husband is not a part of it since he will not even listen hardly anymore unless I totally put my foot down and hard on alot of things that are going on in the place.  Since I can not really talk to anyone about what is going on at this time and I get told the other night that some were willing to go to others now to talk things threw after I am totally unplugged on alot of things that have been going down with myself and my Husband.  All I can do now is get a tighter handle on things in the household and that is it and keep my mouth shut on more than what I have already done so far.  Now also here I know that in why I have been doing some things here for the household and myself also at this time and that will have to stop also on my part.  So now there is alot more to think about and maybe I can make since of some things on my walk also here this morning in what and how to do all of this totally at this time.

Shaking my head

It always amazes me in how many people throw out the nickles here in the area.  Ok so I got my mile walk in so far this morning here and that is how it goes here in my place for Thursdays here.  Next week should be good since I finally caught another area for when stuff goes out.  With that being said here some have told me here last month that it is ok to start digging around for things at this time.  Heck now according to some people that think they know me out of the blog have said that I have to much time on my hands this week.  I have to laugh now here since the person who said that was yelling at me for taking a walk out at their place for a 24 hour period and got about 5 dollars just on the walk while I was there.  So as I sit here and think of all the things that were said in the past week or so here it does not make me wander in why the person is hiding money and telling lies at this point in time.  And yes I have busted the person wide open several times here myself on the lies to where others have not as of yet.  So all I can really do is not say anything from now on and start laughing when the person gets caught from more than several people that have been lied to that I know of.  At least I kept my mouth shut on alot of things here at this time that I know are going on and to where I have asked for an opinion or anything else here I get ratted on from the person.  That is where I have been tired of getting screamed at along with having things twisted around also over the past month here while I was at it.  As I sit here now and have thought about things on my walks and while I was trying to figure out how to get things cheaper for the place it all hit me in the whats and whys at this time.  It is not all on me at this time and I have to take it for how it is.  Even though I have been blamed for alot of things that have went on.  Now at this time I know in what to expect out of some here and I am back to where I started almost 20 years ago also here for some things.  Another thing is I have been taking my walks here and it seems like the nickles have almost dried up at this time still.  I just hope that it gets better here by next month also here in the area.  Another thing that I have been thinking of here for the place is in what I will have to do from now on to get the cash built back up in both accounts totally.  Since I have a spender now in the household it is all good since I have tried on that part of things also here for the place.  Now the word no will be said more often and my foot will be down hard from now on.

Shaking my head

Well now I know in why I have been keeping my mouth shut more times than not here for the place and out of the household.  After yesterday getting chewed out in the truck for over an hour then re chewed again at another place some have wandered in why I have just said squat in the past several weeks here on my part of course untill this morning when I exploded when it all started again.  Now some do not blame me for not saying what is really on my mind here with others since they would not be able to handle in what I have to say since they are just not able to understand it at all in why I am just tired of the crap.  Where I have came from people do not rat unless it is totally necessary to the fact of what is going down at the time and it all has to build up before anything happends and not for stupid B.S. at all.  Knowing some will not be able to handle if I said something I have kept my mouth shut in alot of things and that is why I am not saying much at all with all of the lies and other things that have went on.  The closest base that I know of is Scott Field and others have totally lied about it to me and I knew better.  So another lie has been busted out here with me and some have alot of explaining to do also here since I know better on alot of things.  I am leaving it all alone since I know in other fights here that have went on with keeping my mouth shut for what happened and being a child to keep the mouth shut and what others have went threw totally finding out in what went on here over the dang years and will let the persons wife deal with all of the crap.  I will be no help and will start laughing here after it all comes down to the wire.  The fight was on untill it all came out with lies and other things that went on in the household.  All I can say is that it all gave out broken hearts here and made me mad also at the time in what went on.  I have a feeling that is all in what some are trying to do at this point and the plastering will not stop untill the truth comes out and the parents can not do a dang thing at all on all parts.  The only reason I can say in what went on now is that it is all said and done and on record now along with common knowledge also.  I will not freak out here at all and I told some the truth on what will go on since the person did raise their hand and stupid enough to say oh not me and I never did here in this time.  Since I am still property of some it makes no since here to me for another 9 months also in what the person is denying also for stupidity reasons.

Shaking my head

Well I have to come up with some money this week here for what my Husband wants to do of course.  It makes me almost ill on it all.  So now while we were at it all yesterday there was free wood in the travels along the way to some places and I was getting car sick on top of it all along with a county mounty behind us for the wood.  Now that there is extra wood here and there will be more coming of course for the household also in the coming weeks it amazes me that I will be saving some money for this winter for the gas bill totally once I can see the wood.  Some folks do not blame me on that part of things at all at this point in time.  Now some folks have to start showing me period and that is how it will all go.  As I told one person so rat on me since I am use to it all and that would be on the person here from then on out after I said something since I will not say anymore to the person after that time.  Ok what the bottom line was here is that I had asked about some things and got told that the 2 pieces were not mine to begin with and the person turned around again and told my Husband that I freaked out when I did not at all and that is when I told the person to just keep them then and it does not matter anymore to me.  So I did alot of thinking over the past several weeks and I knew in what I had to do.  Also now at this time since I did not trust the person at all and knew that they ran to my Husband all of the time in what I had supposadly said and twisted it around I was done anyway after the last go around.  Now I can focus on what went on and knowing it was not totally on me since I did bait the person here the last go around and got called a dramma queen along with being nothing since I supposadly do not have a job out of the household besides walking away the weight that I had gained also over the past 4 years along with being a liar.  The person got caught at their own game since I did say a lie and it got back to my Husband anyway.  As one of my Nieces use to say that my guilt trips were worse than anything that her family could come up with I started laughing.  There was nothing in the guilt trips and I just told the truth here totally and have to make up my mind on other things also.  So now I can not say much about that part at all untill I start digging.  Anyway now to start pondering on some things along with getting to the housework also while I am at it for the day.

Thinking again

Well I have been thinking way to much for the household again.  For this week it was a somewhat bust for things that needed to be done and did not get even looked at.  Also I have been ignoring some texts that have came in and why should I bother now since nomatter in what I do it will never be good enough anyway for one person and I get screamed at from others also while I am at it.  So now after the past week and a half here and noticing some things that were going down with one person I had to think on that part also for what was going on.  I was and still am tired of what was being said and it about put me under for the household here if I just let it go on.  So now since it will be better on myself here after I said what was on my mind here along with it being enough I am done.  With that being said that was somewhat part of what was getting me down and stopping me from just doing for my place.  Now here maybe I will start getting things done here totally for the household.  Of course I will take one room at a time here for the up coming week and see where I land up.  Monday will be a normal cleaning day in the household and it will be a blessing that I will not get bothered at all unless it is my Husband letting me know whats going down on his end.  Another thing that I have realized here is that I have been somewhat faultering on my walks also in the past 2 weeks now.  Since I keep weird hours anyway I got to thinking of that part also.  Now here I will make better use of that part of the weird hours and go from there besides getting cheaper for the household.  Some things will get better here and I have hope for that part.

Shaking my head

Well I did get alittle more done yesterday for the household here and about freaked out with the grocery bill after I seen the total on that part.  I got over to Save A Lot and their prices have almost tripled on 90% of the store.  Once I told my Husband in how much I spent without the soda he also had a fit.  So now at this time I will do from other stores for the household from now on.  Ok granted I know about the fuel prices and in how much my Husband puts in the big truck per day.  That also affects the prices at the stores nomatter in what you do.  So I will be going back to some places here in the area for food items for the household totally from now on.  Plus not only that I could hear it in my Husbands voice still that I had another round of getting chewed out and I will take this one totally.  I have made a promise to myself here that I will ignore my phone for the most part during the day and have done that part and that is why I will get chewed out for one person who has wanted to run to others to say in what I said.  So it all works out since I have been tired of that part of things for the past month and came up with a plan to do something about it this past Monday morning.  At this point in time I have also got use to the fact that I should be alone here nomatter what goes on during the week and I do not mind that part neither here at all.  Since alot of things are totally off during the day here in the place and that cuts down on the power bill totally at this time also.  So now to get my toush on the move here and get more done for the day and go from there of course and wait for the phone call also to go get my Husband here for part of the day.

Shaking my head

Well I ended up out of the house for awhile this morning already and will have to go back out again here within several hours.  At this time I can not tell in how much that I got on the walk since I lost track of it all and figured why bother also now with totals for that part.  It gives me a good reason to start doing in what I did when I first got up to the dang state here almost 20 years ago.  Since I have up untill the 14th anyway to cash in the nickles I may as well not bother to count them untill I get to that point now.  I maybe suprized in what I end up with anyway here for the walks.  With that being said I have hit up another spot this morning and will end up hitting up another tomarrow morning here again.  I may as well just do that part and see in what all that I get here totally for the mornings along with Thursday will be here in the neighborhood.  Ok so I can keep busy for the next several days here and keep up the walks also while I am at it all.  Maybe this is what I needed to clear my mind and think on alot of things here that have went on.  Now some are going to be mad and I just do not care on that part at all here.  Since there will be alot of changes here for the place to come up and tackled totally this week and for the weekend.  I guess what gets to some at this time is that I have left things off for so long that they figure that it is ok to leave things on or going while they are home also along with bringing people over while they are at it.  So now with that also going on here what ever I start cooking or do not cook will be slapped on the table here if I start cooking.  There will be food here to cook when I get to the store today of course.  May as well do some shopping for the household since the meat levels are down yet again with other things also here for the place.  So now I have that plan for the day here along with several other things also it will not be so bad once I get done for the day.