Shaking my head

Well I have been thinking alot this week weather to stay or go here from the household.  Thanks to some people who figure that they are my Husbands best friend here and told me so when I know better since I have talked with my Husbands "Real Best Friend" here within the past 10 days and kind of explained to him in what was going down.  That is where it was brought up to where I was carefull with money and I told him that I was the tight fisted one here and the guy knew that I was right.  I told the guy to go ahead and say now here since I do not know what else to do here totally since I am about ready to leave and have no choice here at all.  I know in what some have said to my Husband here and told him ok 40 and 20 years here compaired to 3 years here with one person and you are in a loss of the 17 years of being married and 20 years of being togeather with her she is done.  I have also came to the fact that I have lost the 7 plus grand that I have lent out to my Husbands friend here and have pretty much moved on.  So when my Husband told me yesterday to not kill myself here on getting the nickles during the week here I about exploded on that part of things here.  I kept my mouth shut and walked away from my Husband on what he told me here.  So after what was told to me yesterday I will do in what I have to here to get money up in alot of ways for myself and the household here to say hey ya do not give a Damn it is ok.  So now at this point in time I do not have to say much to my Husband here totally since he knows that I am tired of the crap that he has put me threw here in the past 18 months.  So the push is on me here to get the money up totally for the household and go from there.  That is part of the reason why I ignored some comments from the person who said to me that since your Husbands my best friend here I have to tell him in what you say along with the other things that I pop off with about you.  The comment about the dumpster hurt since I do not do that part at all here to get the nickles period.  Right then and there some lost my respect period along with his wife for not getting up and helping cook while the last time I was there at the house.  All I could do was shake my head and tell myself that she was lazier than what I thought here totally or did not give a damn about other people period at the time.  The cake topper was when she was handing her husband the plate back after he served her in bed for breakfast and he had to deal with all 3 kids that morning along with his dog.  I had to walk when all things went down that morning and I refused to say much.  So now to get up and move and go from there now it will be all good after this here and see what the heck happends otherwise now.