Shaking my head

Well I have to come up with some money this week here for what my Husband wants to do of course.  It makes me almost ill on it all.  So now while we were at it all yesterday there was free wood in the travels along the way to some places and I was getting car sick on top of it all along with a county mounty behind us for the wood.  Now that there is extra wood here and there will be more coming of course for the household also in the coming weeks it amazes me that I will be saving some money for this winter for the gas bill totally once I can see the wood.  Some folks do not blame me on that part of things at all at this point in time.  Now some folks have to start showing me period and that is how it will all go.  As I told one person so rat on me since I am use to it all and that would be on the person here from then on out after I said something since I will not say anymore to the person after that time.  Ok what the bottom line was here is that I had asked about some things and got told that the 2 pieces were not mine to begin with and the person turned around again and told my Husband that I freaked out when I did not at all and that is when I told the person to just keep them then and it does not matter anymore to me.  So I did alot of thinking over the past several weeks and I knew in what I had to do.  Also now at this time since I did not trust the person at all and knew that they ran to my Husband all of the time in what I had supposadly said and twisted it around I was done anyway after the last go around.  Now I can focus on what went on and knowing it was not totally on me since I did bait the person here the last go around and got called a dramma queen along with being nothing since I supposadly do not have a job out of the household besides walking away the weight that I had gained also over the past 4 years along with being a liar.  The person got caught at their own game since I did say a lie and it got back to my Husband anyway.  As one of my Nieces use to say that my guilt trips were worse than anything that her family could come up with I started laughing.  There was nothing in the guilt trips and I just told the truth here totally and have to make up my mind on other things also.  So now I can not say much about that part at all untill I start digging.  Anyway now to start pondering on some things along with getting to the housework also while I am at it for the day.