Making changes

Well I will be making changes this up coming year totally and part of it starts tonight.  Some people thought I was tight before here they have not seen squat so far out of me.  Ok so it took me this long and to get dumped on my toush to get things going also for the household this past year here.  At this point in time I have a long list to check off this year and alot of it will get done this year totally.  Since it was a trial run this month here for the one dollar store for the place that is one of the changes that are coming up along with dumping the storage unit this year even if I have to move the crap out of it myself.  I am tired of people screaming about what has been going on with that part of it.  Also I have been trying to cut things down even more for the household as of late anyway and now I have got to really work at it all this up coming year without a doubt.  With that part being said here I have switched alot of things over totally here in the household and I am about ready to do that part yet again for the place.  The cleaners that are here will be used up and I am switching over to bleach to clean almost everything now while I am at it.  Yes there will be a bottle of cleaner for things like doors, wood work, and the trucks that needs to be cleaned and that is it from now on.  Other wise it will be a bleach bath for everything else in the household.  Of course I will keep the laundry soap around for that part of things here and I will be switching that part over also here for the household.  So now at this time there is just alot of things that some do not get at all and will never get in why I am doing all of this to save money and then some.  With this up coming year also the cooking will get that much cheaper while I am at it for the place.  Some things I have no choice in the matter and some will have to live with what I am doing also this up coming year for alot of things.  There will still be food in the household here nomatter what goes on and I can get alot more done off of 75 dollars for the month at this time.  That includes meat for the table here.  Since I still have a toush full of pasta and rice here along with flour I can make it all work out.  This is what will hurt people totally about me in the long run.  Since the neighborhood is a good one and alot of the people pretty much know in what I do here and have been pinching the money they do not mind it at all except one person.  All I can do is laugh at times since I did the right thing here with what I have bought so far.  One thing is the recliner that I got along with 2 brand new T.V.'s for the place, and 3 windows, 1 door, 2 storm doors, the front end of the little truck fixed, and a lap top computer.  It also goes along with paying one person off here and that is how I pretty much got dumped to the curb.  That is it for my place that was brand spanking new here.  I do not need much to keep me happy at all since most of it will last me for years anyway for the household at this time.  So now here I will do my best to try to keep things going as much as I can here along with cutting even more out of the budget totally from now on.  The bad part is that I will get all of it done this year and do not care in what others will think nor say about me or to me.  I have to shut myself off about that part again here and be done with it all.  Like it really matters in what I do to keep the place going anyway at this time.  I also expect that there will be more money going out of the one pay check that we have coming in so I may as well get things done my way and not the Yahoo's in Washington's way from now on. 

Shaking my head

Well at this time I am figuring out in how I am going to get things done here with more money going to other places out of one pay check here.  At this point in time I am figuring that I will be taking more walks along with the dollar stores to keep the household going also here.  With everything going on at this time alot of things are a jumble in my head on trying to get things done for the place.  Now here since I was out and about somewhat yesterday here I picked up a nickle and that was it for the day.  It is better than nothing at this point in time.  So I will have to look that much harder here and take more walks during the week without some here at all.  Another good thing is that the fire place will be going more times than not for the household here after I got the one gas bill that was cut in half with it going.  So I will start in on that here shortly to get the fire going again.  With alot of things here I have been cutting down alot more and will continue to do so even if it all kills me at this time.  Since I have alot of things here in the household that are left in the back stock here I should be ok on that part for the place.  I am not over flowing like I was about 8 years ago here at all when we had to close up the Outlaws place at this time.  I have enough here without it all being heeped up to the gills.  With that being said here at least I know now in what needs to get done here for the place and I will be using the back stock to cut even more costs at this time.  When I got alot of the things that are here for more than half price off in the one store it worked out better on my part in Febuary here.  Alot of things have stuck around here and that is how I like it also for the place.  It is hard to believe that some people just do not care in what is going on at all.  So as I sit here and think of the many ways that I have done things so far alot of it is coming back in what I did do at the can.  I may as well break out alot of the things that I did there for the household at this time.  That is the nice thing about in all the ways that I did try to cut down at the trailer and thought that I had failed when I did not at all at that point.  The can was not ready to go that cheap at the time and the house here is now.  I guess this is why I can use alot more bleach for cleaning on the main floor instead of other things that are here.  The cleaners that are left will be used up here and I will switch over to the bleach here soon enough.  With that part here bleach is a good cleaner nomatter what and it is one of the cheaper ends of things to get things clean also.  Since I am doing most of the cleaning anyway here in the household I get to use what I want for the place also.  So now with alot of things that have been going wrong here I have learned here in almost a year that some people will cut me down nomatter what is going on with them.  With some people dropped here and away from me I feel that much better in what I do and the stress pain is down also without the worry of being cut down here at all.  It has gave me the chanse to get alot cheaper here for the place also.  Ok so it was the best thing here that was done and the bills came down also while I was at it over the past several months also.  It has gave me the chanse to realize here that I can do other things without being torn nor cut down at all for saying hey I can do all of this myself here in what I need to do for myown pice of mind.  Now to see what I can do for the household here besides hang laundry all flapping day to dry. 

Came up swinging

Well I got asked something about 3 weeks ago here and now I get to take a huge step at this point in time and it will be at least worth a good flapping try on my part.  If I do not take the chance at this point I will fail here and my danm father was right that I ain't nothing but a failure and always will be.  I asked for his opinion and got told you do not have a chance at all and don't even bother since it is not worth it at all now at this point.  Alot of it stems from when the boys were born and I was told I was nothing after that part totally and got treated like I was nothing since I was a girl.  All I can say is the words and actions from some have stung for 28 years pluss and may sting forever also.  With that part of things I did try things out and fell flat on my face for part of the time growing up and there are times where I still fall flat and I know that I did try to make it in some things here.  Now I am ready to try something again to see what happends here and if I can make a go of what I have been thinking about in alot of ways.  Ok so I ended up the cheap tight wad out of the bunch and not by my choice at all at this point in my life.  I have done alot of jobs totally here and kept others saine thru a graduation party also here over the years.  That is how long I have done some of the jobs also and never lost it at all.  So in the past week I told some where to go and how to do it all with what is going on in todays world.  I am sorry I would rather eat and hold onto my house at this point in time than pay 4 pluss grand for insurance that I will get cut off from within 6 months at this time and into government houseing while I am at it.  I refuse to pay the rates and not eat and set up out in the street.  I am not the person who can't cut the apron strings like one of my baby brothers also at this time since he can not seem to leave home and he is 28 years of age with a good job on top of it all.  I am mad since some can not cut the strings and let some go here at all and are willing to cut me down after making it for 25 years on my own.  This is why I have not asked for money at all from my father nor that side of the family at all along with having it over my head for years even when I did pay it all back and then some here.  So that is why I sent the card back and did not bother with it hardly here since I was cut down so bad that it did not matter anyway here since I am not a boy at all.  When 2 grown men are telling me hey this is what is needed and what is your thoughts on it.  Now I will get down to the nitty gritty and see what I can do cheap or not.  What do I have to loose here and it is nothing at all except a bruised ego for awhile and that is it. 

Now I am mad

When I get told someone lied to me about a phone bill here I tend to get mad and come up swinging totally.  When I get tole my bill will be 230 - 250 a month for a cell phone conection here and it was never EVER uner 300 dollars a month there is a problem then to fix the Damn thing it will cost an extra 30 dollars a month there is a loop hole with AT&T here totally.  I lost my temper more than once today and I refuse to pay that bill totally here and told the last gal I talked to to bite my right hump totally along with you will never see a damn dime out of my flapping pocket ever again.  I have been going broke becuase of AT&T and not eating with the bill that has been over 300 dollars a month why here again????????  I hope the 2 gals I talked to ate a good stake dinner on my flapping dime along with their others in the household totally at this time along with their bosses while I have had shit to eat except rice and that is it here for the place along with my Husband in the past 4 months here also.  It all makes me wander here in what some will do for a flapping dollar even with the plan that we had with the company here at the time.  Oh and I did not say about the blogg here and 3 of them in total for the damn day that is how mad I was at the time.  Not only that they were lucky that I know a good loop hole when I see one since I have to iron out my own contracts here for what I do for a living here also at this point in time with it is cheaper to keep me than pay all the loop holes also with what I have in it.  When I tried to explain to the gal ya broke the contract by letting my Husband talk to ya and charging an extra 30 dollars a month there is a loop hole that I got out of at that point and I got told to basicly to Fuck myself and I still owe the damn money to their asses.