Thinking still

Well at least I got to think for about an hour or so yesterday evening.  I had a jabber jaws little one in the back seat when I had seen the accident trying to get her home and had to tell her to hush up for a minute so I could think on another way to do.  So after said and done by the time I got her off and on my way it seemed strange that I was alone also.  With that part said I got to think for awhile and did not mind one bit.  I did get some things plotted out for the household and it all may work out for the best here on the trip out to the office.  The next thing is to just do for what I had thought of for an hour.  Also I know that I have to get out of the house more and go from there.  So with the weather getting better for the most part the baby and I will get out more also and start the walks also togeather so I can get use to that part also and then add another child to the stroler.  Along with out to the park with the girls during the week here in the area.  At least I get something out of it along with the girls also.  With the park it is a cheap way to get the girls out and about to burn some energy off during the day.  Also they will eat supper at their place during the week.  So it will be a win win once I get done on that part of things.  One of the rules that I have here in the household is that the girls have to eat what is on their plates in order to go to the park.  If they do not eat then the park is a no go here totally.  So I will figure some other way to get the girls to eat well also here in the household nomatter what goes on.

Shaking my head

Well yesterday was another good day here in the household.  With that being said at this time another lunch was scarfed up before I could turn around and the child was asking for more.  Now here all I can do is hope for the day today and go from there of course.  There is so much to get done here in the place at this time that it is hurting.  All a friend of mine could do was start laughing and said yeppers you're back to work kiddo.  So now to really get the list back up for the weekend for the household and see where I land up along with picking up my Husband of course.  The nice thing about that part is that I will end up walking in a totally different area and go from there for the weekend.  I may as well here since there is nothing else better for myself to do around the household totally and I am only guessing on that part of it all.  The next thing is that knowing in the laundry that needs to be done before Sunday also from the past 2 weeks.

Shaking my head

Well at least several folks shown up at my place yesterday.  Who I was in the hope of coming over never bothered to show up not say hey we are not gonna make it of course.  So as I sit here and figure that there is the leftovers for part of the week it seems that some are gonna not like it and call me mean again.  All I can do is shake my head here about that part and start laughing since I make the child eat here in my place and will fight tooth and toenails over that part totally.  Also I have figured out that some of the things that have been going on was not me and some folks are scared of the CPS workers here in the area.  Since I refuse to run scared here of anyone for trying to do my job to keep at least one child safe in my household.  I think that is why some have never bothered to call on me here in the area.  There are several other factors in play also on that part with myself also.  When a 4 year old child figures that she can run all over me and say I want to go now even when the cart is half full and I have to shop for the place either way that I go I will not leave right then and there because of the child trying to get what she wants out of me at the time.

Thinking again

Well I am thinking again here for the household and other tricks of the traid of course.  So now at this time at least I can do alot of this on the cheap after all said and done for the coming weeks.  I have no choice in the matter and proved that part to myself along with to my Husband also.  Ok so alot of the times my Husband will ignore in what I have been trying to do here for the place and I finally had it up to the eye balls in what gets undone when he gets home also.  Another thing that I have finally came to the point of here is to take it all day by day since it will not work for what I am trying to do for the household and myself.  So now I will start trying again for the up coming week and go from there.  IF I fail I fail here and when some children hit school they will be in the loss anyway here without me and more tearchers are even more brutal than I am here totally on alot of things.  All I can do is try and teach one child that is in my care all that I can here before school begins.  So with that being said here there is alot of work to be done and I will not mind it so much when the other kids are here totally since they all can help out also.  Another thing is that I keep getting half stories here in what the heck is going on anyway and I can only go on in what happens in my place anyway from now on and have caught alot of things from what the father has said and done at this point in time also.  It means that I have to make sure that the kids eat period before they leave and go from there also again.  Looking back in what was going on at the time when I sat for the kids before is that the father would not dress nor feed the girls when they hit the household period.  The one girl would not eat at all except peanut butter and that was it at the time.  Now the youngest is trying the same thing here and that will not fly with me.  I have also noticed that the youngest will not eat and fruit period nomatter what is going on in my place.  That is where I have to work on here and keep putting it in front of her also untill it clicks that hey wait a dang minute I have to eat this also before I get other goodies.

Shaking my head

Well I can say that I just can not understand some things that have went on in the house at all since Monday period.  Knowing that the 4 year old was hungery and in what her father told her also was not good.  The girl told her mother, dad said not to eat at all and the girl got into trouble for telling the truth.  Since I cooked yesterday here for lunch again and the girl told me that she was sick so she did not have to eat at all.  It was like something clicked and called the girl back to the table to eat here and told her tough you're eating.  That and I told the girl once her daddy started paying my bills here and on top of it be here for lunch also to watch her eat then it was up in the air for what she wanted untill then she has to eat here in my place.  It makes me mad here that when a parent tells a child not to eat then turns around and makes calls to the state on the person that is trying to feed the child when they do not eat.  I sat there with the child untill she ate also and went from there yesterday.  When the child realized that I was pretty mad over it here and will not put up with the B.S. here that she along with her father is trying to pull.  Another thing is that I have been pretty even keel for rules so who knows in what today will bring here.  I keep reminding myself here that yesterday and tomarrow takes care of its self here along with today is another day also for the household also.  So now to see in what I can do for the day here and go from there.

Thinking way to much

Well I have been thinking way to much again here in the household.  Since I know that I need to get some things done here in the household done still, that is where I have been thinking and plotting most of it all out yet again.  With that being said here I know it is going to be another Sunday to where some will not even bother and that is fine by me here totally.  Over the years here it still does not seem real for some of the things that have went on and other things just fell apart.  It is not on my end that things fell apart for some people at all.  So in fairness here I did drop the person totally and moved on knowing that the pain had subsided alot after that.  Now at this point I have to really get down to the dirt on things with myself again and just get out of the household more also while I am at it all.  Plus I have figured out several ways that I can get alot cheaper here in the place without a problem at all.  Since the weather has been about 50 50 here I can still get laundry out along with other things that need to be done here around the place.  Also on top of it there are other things that I will be doing here for the household that some will not be able to stop me on at all and tough on them.

Shaking my head

Well yesterday was another day of not eating with the child.  Of course she realized that dad was coming to pick her up again for the day.  Also a melt down when the childs Mother dropped her off here at my place of course.  I have came to the point of throwing up my hands on the matter and just deal with this part of things totally also.  So as I sit here and wander in what today will bring yet again and knowing that anything may go on for the day again I will take it in stride.  I have no choise in the matter and it is not worth my blood pressure to go up to and pass stroke level on an everyday basis.  Also I will have to swallow alot of things since my Husband does not want to hear it with the kids at all so things will go up even more.  Another thing that I have realized is that I am out of my flipping mind for taking the child to the doctors office with me here come Monday morning.  I have already warned the child that she starts then she will really have to deal with me here after we get done.  I will pull out afew things that I have done with my bunch when I had them and it was not pretty then.

Shaking my head

Now at this time I am wandering about the 4 year olds doctor totally here.  Since I do not know the name of the ADHD drug that the girl is on it is still not a good thing at all.  The child has totally slept for 2 days here in my place along with complaints that her belly hurts, not being hungry, wierd dreams, and her heart raceing out of her chest.  So now at this time I am up in the air in what to do about this child who is just a zombie with the drugs and can hardly get out to pay bills and shop unless it is very early in the morning or when everyplace is closed up for the day.  Not only that the child needs to get outside and play, along with getting fresh air instead of sleeping all dang day.  Alot of the problems in todays world with the kids is that they do not get out like we all did and lets pump them full of drugs here also since they do not get outside to play and run.  Gee nowander in why the kids are hyper totally.  I asked the child yesterday in what is she gonna do when she hits Kindergarden here since the teacher will not let her sleep all dang flipping day at all.  The child told me "I don't know".  I see that I will more than not get a phone call to come pick the child up from school here this next year from just the meds alone that she is on.  Either way my hands are tied here and I will have to think of ways to keep the child up totally while she is at my place totally.  Anyway now also with afew things that have went on I am just tired of it all and gave up on alot of things at this point in time.

Will admit

Well I ran into someone yesterday morning at the store.  I had asked if everything was ok and the person told me no and this is what has been going on and what he had been told.  All I could say is that I will admit that I have not been totally out on the 2 streets since about Febuary with picking up nickles here at all and told the person that.  I have no reason to lie to the guy and about gave up for a good while unless I am on the side of the road here since I was not feeling good and just had another surgery in April on top of it all.  I guess someone had told the guy that I was out last week here on the 2 streets and it was not me since I have been over sleeping on Thursdays anyway.  The first week out of surgery it took me at least 20 minutes to get up to either the bank or to another few places here in the area that should have took me 5 minutes at most on foot.  Then also here I have had at least one child with me during the weekdays and alot of times if it is nice out we will walk up to the dollar store and start spotting nickles or scrap at the side of the road that can be picked up along the way.  So it is not like I get alot of money here in the area anyway on my short walks that I take at this time.  It all makes me wander in what is going down anyway and I am rethinking on where to walk at still that I can get the best bang for what I do.  So now to really think of getting out farther than in where I want to go at to walk and still be safe on the walks with or without the kids.

Almost

Well it was an almost smooth day yesterday.  A two and a half nap on the road since I refuse to leave a 4 year old alone and no tears thru lunch at all.  Well it started on a good note untill I locked myself out of the house and still did not give my Husband his money for the week here also.  So I snaged my Husbands keys and made 2 copies so I can get back into the house.  They are hid to where I can get to them and others do not have a clue at all.  When I told my poor Sister this she was like a flower pot kid and started laughing about it.  So inbetween everything now the 2 a/c units are hooked up upstairs here and I have to teach the 4 year old to close the doors behind her totally when they are running.  Now I know in why I wanted a bigger unit down on the main floor here totally.  It is something to think about here totally and it might happen anyway here since the kids that are coming over are use to a whole house unit at this time.  Oh well at least some will learn here totally in what is going on also this summer.  Anyway I hope that today is a good day also here just like yesterday was and I will be a happy woman after this.

Shaking my head

Well I have finally found out a few things and it is not good at all here.  I asked the 4 year old in why she had lied to her mother.  I got the answer first of "I don't know" along with the shoulder shrug.  I asked again here and she told me that she did not want to hurt everyone.  That is when I told her that she called me a liar and it was not a cool thing to do here at all.  Between that and the child not eating here it all makes me wander in what the father is really saying to her at this time.  The other thing is that I can not stay home all of the time anyway here and have to get out and do for the household along for myself.  Since I needed a composting bucket for the household and being told that I am freaking out over nothing anyway, there will be a huge differance in my Husbands attatude by the time next week is over here.  I figure that the girl wants to waste food here in my place and figures that it is ok and my Husband figures that it is ok also then I will make a huge point by throwing all of what the child does not eat here in the one bucket then to show the both of them that hey it is money going out the door here for not giving a damn.  The other thing is that knowing that the meds are messing up the 4 year old anyway I have almost thrown up my hands and gave up on trying to do for the girl.  Even though I will not even budge on if ya do not eat no goodies before ya leave here at all totally.  That and the rule of do not move from the table untill I wipe off your hands.  Well yesterday here the girl started grunting to get up from my chair and I ignored the grunts in the hope of that she would say something here totally.

Thinking again

Well I did get my walk in yesterday morning here totally and will get one today.  If I only knew in what was to come later on after that I would have got my walk in around 6:30 pm here also.  So now since today is another day here and the same old battle will go down again for lunch it is something to get use to here totally yet again.  Since the child did not want to eat yet again she will get her plate from yesterday here again and will have to eat nomatter what is going down.  As I told my Husband I am tired of the waste of food from the child and knowing that I can feed him better here while he is on the road he realized what was going on.  So I will send him off with better food from now on and there is alot more that will be with that part also here from now on.  I have almost gave up on the child for not eating here period.  What got to me the most is when the childs mother said give the child peanutbutter here for lunch and that is how that part will be cleared up.  That part is not an option here at all in my place.  So I will somewhat try from now on on some parts and start pulling back here for things if the child does not eat.  It seems like the park and freeze pops are not doing the trick at all for the child to eat in my place.  Also now since I will be walking more here without the baby in tow in the mornings here I may get lucky on my walks here totally.  Yesterday morning while I was out the one cop said nothing to me while I walked passed him.  So it maybe a good thing at this time here to really start in the mornings again.  I will see in what all happens here this morning and go from there also and may end up getting out of the household here more.

Shaking my head

Well at least I met the kids mom right smack in the middle for the milk totally and we both agree that if the girls do not eat then they do not feel good and have to lay down period.  Knowing in that hot food is better than the dang over processed foods that some give the baby instead it makes me wander.  So now as I told the child and the mother yesterday the baby is getting what she left on the plate in what I gave her for lunch along with cabbage and potatoes here, the child looked at me funny.  The mother said straight out that is it I am here for lunch totally tomarrow.  All I can do is laugh here and knowing that other folks cooking sometimes tastes better than what the person is cooking also.  Now to figure out in what to do since I will not do for this one in what her sister did to me 2 years ago here.  Nothing but peanutbutter and that is it for lunch.  I still have the we will go to the park or for a walk here if you clean off the plate along with a freeze pop here.  My question is what ever happened to the day when we eather cleaned off the plate or we at it later or the next morning and to avoid that part we ate it up.  Also yesterday I was listening to the radio here and one of the canadates for the one school board asked when in the heck did parents get scared of their children here.  I can say about when and the school system did not help.  So untill then I will be trying again today here for the baby to eat and go from there.  I think in what alot of it is here is that I have the jar of peanutbutter out and that is what the girl wants here in my place and I keep giving her hot food instead of the other.  So I get told by the girl that I do not like that and that everyday here.  Now I have came to the point of not giving in and still throw up my hands here totally on alot of parts and just make the girl eat.  Yesterday I told the girl screw you being the middle man here I will call CPS myself and be done with it myself instead of waiting for them to show back up to the house here again.

Still thinking

Well it seemed that yesterday morning was the time that nobody had screaming kids with us at the grocery store.  And I got to thinking on that part of it all.  So the total was higher than normal and that is fine by me at this time since I had to pick up fruit and veggies for about 2 weeks here for my place totally so I can be told that a picky 4 year old child "I don't like this".  After all said here and out of the store yesterday morning I got the truck packed up with the groceries and started back to my place.  Well before I left the parking lot I was doing a quick scan of the one edge of the lot that I was in.  Ok so I am bad for looking for the nickles totally here while I am still thinking on things.  Then the 5 dollars in a shopping cart that has been left behind was a good thing totally in my eyes before I left.  Also I did threatin my Husband for the past 2 days that fine ya want to help someone move I will not and that he could drop me off at the store with all the nickles so I could cash in here totally then walk home.  Since the store is not that far way I know that I can make it back here on foot along with get extra nickles along the way here.  All said and done plans change and tough on some also here in the area at this time.  So I have to really think on alot of things still and walk it all off also while I am at it now.

Shaking my head

Well I finally got to thinking about it here and it was standing in the middle of the grocery store in why the girls will not eat their veggies period.  Now I know in why all of our parents forced us to eat them while we were growing up.  So now at this time I loaded up on the veggies and fruits for the household and worse comes to worse here I will say this is lunch here and ya better eat up.  There are ways that I do things here for my place and I make the kids pretty much clean their plates while I am around.  Also at this time I do send things home with the girls also and knowing that it will get ate nomatter what it is a good thing.  With that being said here the cooking has got alot cheaper for my place and that is how it is.  When there is between 2 and 6 mouths to feed it helps to cut the costs way down for at least one bill in the household in todays world.  With fuel prices going back up all over the place and folks have to eat nomatter what goes on every little bit helps.  So now to see in what goes on when Monday comes around and how at least one girl does again for the week.

As I sit here

Well as I sit here at this moment in time as early as it all is it makes me wander in what the heck I am doing most days here anyway.  Yesterday was nothing but a huge battle with a 4 year old not wanting to eat and made her anyway.  I was trying to get done with the little things here and failed on that part of it all and gave up totally.  It has came to the point of where I waste more food on an ungreatfull child and I can start feeding my Husband better on the road with all that I have dumped out in the past 2 weeks from the child.  I was so mad yesterday that I did not even think about doing some things at all and maybe it was a good thing totally at the time.  Then to get a call from my Husband saying that I have to go get him also.  By the time I got done here in the place for the day along with knowing that my plood pressure was totally at stroke level yet again it all makes me wander in what the heck is going down.  After sitting in the truck for about 20 minutes yesterday with the doors locked and the radio going I finally calmed down enough to where I felt better after all was said and done.  Also it got me to thinking about the ways that I have tried here also to get the ungreatfull child to eat and knowing the parents they will not make the child eat if she does not want to anyway so that the effort that I make is gone to waste.  Alot of what it is at this point is that the child wants me to hand feed her so she does not have to lift her hand to do so here to eat.  On top of it I had went to the one spare room and the child seen the one bucket with the chips in it.  The child asked if she could have some and I told her no since it was not lunch time yet and she almost went into melt down mode.  So I did not give in on that part of it and will not since she will not eat luch unless forced to totally and it takes a good 2 hours for her to eat.  So I am guessing that the one bucket for the truck has to be moved this weekend here and I can not lift it still.  The next thing also here is that I will get more fruit and veggies into the household and make the child eat them also while I am at it all.  I never fought my Momma on eating period at all.  And I never would have asked with a plate full of food can I only take 3 more bites.  So now to see in what today brings here and go from there since I have places to go to also for the day.

Wandering

Well the great food battle is on with a very picky 4 year old child.  So I told the child yesterday that this is what she had to eat for lunch and she did not want any part of it at all.  The child figured that if I do not eat everything then the sitter will give in on some things here in her place.  I can say that I won the battle and the popcicle did not come out niether after lunch nor by the time I dropped her off.  Even the childs mother admitted to me that the child just would not eat for her at all niether and did not know in what to do about it at this time.  All I can say is that cold food is just not right at times and that is how it all goes here in the household.  So now here I will get my point across here that some have to eat and that is the end of it at this time.  I refuse to go to jail for not feeding a child period at this time still.  So it all makes me wander in what is going on here with the child.  Also yesterday I kind of got a comment from the child here in the house and she stopped cold in the middle of what she was saying also.  It seemed like that she wanted to say the whole thing but was scared to do so.  There are ways that I can find out in what is going on and that was not the time to push the child niether yesterday on that part of things.