Making changes

Well I will be making changes this up coming year totally and part of it starts tonight.  Some people thought I was tight before here they have not seen squat so far out of me.  Ok so it took me this long and to get dumped on my toush to get things going also for the household this past year here.  At this point in time I have a long list to check off this year and alot of it will get done this year totally.  Since it was a trial run this month here for the one dollar store for the place that is one of the changes that are coming up along with dumping the storage unit this year even if I have to move the crap out of it myself.  I am tired of people screaming about what has been going on with that part of it.  Also I have been trying to cut things down even more for the household as of late anyway and now I have got to really work at it all this up coming year without a doubt.  With that part being said here I have switched alot of things over totally here in the household and I am about ready to do that part yet again for the place.  The cleaners that are here will be used up and I am switching over to bleach to clean almost everything now while I am at it.  Yes there will be a bottle of cleaner for things like doors, wood work, and the trucks that needs to be cleaned and that is it from now on.  Other wise it will be a bleach bath for everything else in the household.  Of course I will keep the laundry soap around for that part of things here and I will be switching that part over also here for the household.  So now at this time there is just alot of things that some do not get at all and will never get in why I am doing all of this to save money and then some.  With this up coming year also the cooking will get that much cheaper while I am at it for the place.  Some things I have no choice in the matter and some will have to live with what I am doing also this up coming year for alot of things.  There will still be food in the household here nomatter what goes on and I can get alot more done off of 75 dollars for the month at this time.  That includes meat for the table here.  Since I still have a toush full of pasta and rice here along with flour I can make it all work out.  This is what will hurt people totally about me in the long run.  Since the neighborhood is a good one and alot of the people pretty much know in what I do here and have been pinching the money they do not mind it at all except one person.  All I can do is laugh at times since I did the right thing here with what I have bought so far.  One thing is the recliner that I got along with 2 brand new T.V.'s for the place, and 3 windows, 1 door, 2 storm doors, the front end of the little truck fixed, and a lap top computer.  It also goes along with paying one person off here and that is how I pretty much got dumped to the curb.  That is it for my place that was brand spanking new here.  I do not need much to keep me happy at all since most of it will last me for years anyway for the household at this time.  So now here I will do my best to try to keep things going as much as I can here along with cutting even more out of the budget totally from now on.  The bad part is that I will get all of it done this year and do not care in what others will think nor say about me or to me.  I have to shut myself off about that part again here and be done with it all.  Like it really matters in what I do to keep the place going anyway at this time.  I also expect that there will be more money going out of the one pay check that we have coming in so I may as well get things done my way and not the Yahoo's in Washington's way from now on. 

Shaking my head

Well at this time I am figuring out in how I am going to get things done here with more money going to other places out of one pay check here.  At this point in time I am figuring that I will be taking more walks along with the dollar stores to keep the household going also here.  With everything going on at this time alot of things are a jumble in my head on trying to get things done for the place.  Now here since I was out and about somewhat yesterday here I picked up a nickle and that was it for the day.  It is better than nothing at this point in time.  So I will have to look that much harder here and take more walks during the week without some here at all.  Another good thing is that the fire place will be going more times than not for the household here after I got the one gas bill that was cut in half with it going.  So I will start in on that here shortly to get the fire going again.  With alot of things here I have been cutting down alot more and will continue to do so even if it all kills me at this time.  Since I have alot of things here in the household that are left in the back stock here I should be ok on that part for the place.  I am not over flowing like I was about 8 years ago here at all when we had to close up the Outlaws place at this time.  I have enough here without it all being heeped up to the gills.  With that being said here at least I know now in what needs to get done here for the place and I will be using the back stock to cut even more costs at this time.  When I got alot of the things that are here for more than half price off in the one store it worked out better on my part in Febuary here.  Alot of things have stuck around here and that is how I like it also for the place.  It is hard to believe that some people just do not care in what is going on at all.  So as I sit here and think of the many ways that I have done things so far alot of it is coming back in what I did do at the can.  I may as well break out alot of the things that I did there for the household at this time.  That is the nice thing about in all the ways that I did try to cut down at the trailer and thought that I had failed when I did not at all at that point.  The can was not ready to go that cheap at the time and the house here is now.  I guess this is why I can use alot more bleach for cleaning on the main floor instead of other things that are here.  The cleaners that are left will be used up here and I will switch over to the bleach here soon enough.  With that part here bleach is a good cleaner nomatter what and it is one of the cheaper ends of things to get things clean also.  Since I am doing most of the cleaning anyway here in the household I get to use what I want for the place also.  So now with alot of things that have been going wrong here I have learned here in almost a year that some people will cut me down nomatter what is going on with them.  With some people dropped here and away from me I feel that much better in what I do and the stress pain is down also without the worry of being cut down here at all.  It has gave me the chanse to get alot cheaper here for the place also.  Ok so it was the best thing here that was done and the bills came down also while I was at it over the past several months also.  It has gave me the chanse to realize here that I can do other things without being torn nor cut down at all for saying hey I can do all of this myself here in what I need to do for myown pice of mind.  Now to see what I can do for the household here besides hang laundry all flapping day to dry. 

Came up swinging

Well I got asked something about 3 weeks ago here and now I get to take a huge step at this point in time and it will be at least worth a good flapping try on my part.  If I do not take the chance at this point I will fail here and my danm father was right that I ain't nothing but a failure and always will be.  I asked for his opinion and got told you do not have a chance at all and don't even bother since it is not worth it at all now at this point.  Alot of it stems from when the boys were born and I was told I was nothing after that part totally and got treated like I was nothing since I was a girl.  All I can say is the words and actions from some have stung for 28 years pluss and may sting forever also.  With that part of things I did try things out and fell flat on my face for part of the time growing up and there are times where I still fall flat and I know that I did try to make it in some things here.  Now I am ready to try something again to see what happends here and if I can make a go of what I have been thinking about in alot of ways.  Ok so I ended up the cheap tight wad out of the bunch and not by my choice at all at this point in my life.  I have done alot of jobs totally here and kept others saine thru a graduation party also here over the years.  That is how long I have done some of the jobs also and never lost it at all.  So in the past week I told some where to go and how to do it all with what is going on in todays world.  I am sorry I would rather eat and hold onto my house at this point in time than pay 4 pluss grand for insurance that I will get cut off from within 6 months at this time and into government houseing while I am at it.  I refuse to pay the rates and not eat and set up out in the street.  I am not the person who can't cut the apron strings like one of my baby brothers also at this time since he can not seem to leave home and he is 28 years of age with a good job on top of it all.  I am mad since some can not cut the strings and let some go here at all and are willing to cut me down after making it for 25 years on my own.  This is why I have not asked for money at all from my father nor that side of the family at all along with having it over my head for years even when I did pay it all back and then some here.  So that is why I sent the card back and did not bother with it hardly here since I was cut down so bad that it did not matter anyway here since I am not a boy at all.  When 2 grown men are telling me hey this is what is needed and what is your thoughts on it.  Now I will get down to the nitty gritty and see what I can do cheap or not.  What do I have to loose here and it is nothing at all except a bruised ego for awhile and that is it. 

Now I am mad

When I get told someone lied to me about a phone bill here I tend to get mad and come up swinging totally.  When I get tole my bill will be 230 - 250 a month for a cell phone conection here and it was never EVER uner 300 dollars a month there is a problem then to fix the Damn thing it will cost an extra 30 dollars a month there is a loop hole with AT&T here totally.  I lost my temper more than once today and I refuse to pay that bill totally here and told the last gal I talked to to bite my right hump totally along with you will never see a damn dime out of my flapping pocket ever again.  I have been going broke becuase of AT&T and not eating with the bill that has been over 300 dollars a month why here again????????  I hope the 2 gals I talked to ate a good stake dinner on my flapping dime along with their others in the household totally at this time along with their bosses while I have had shit to eat except rice and that is it here for the place along with my Husband in the past 4 months here also.  It all makes me wander here in what some will do for a flapping dollar even with the plan that we had with the company here at the time.  Oh and I did not say about the blogg here and 3 of them in total for the damn day that is how mad I was at the time.  Not only that they were lucky that I know a good loop hole when I see one since I have to iron out my own contracts here for what I do for a living here also at this point in time with it is cheaper to keep me than pay all the loop holes also with what I have in it.  When I tried to explain to the gal ya broke the contract by letting my Husband talk to ya and charging an extra 30 dollars a month there is a loop hole that I got out of at that point and I got told to basicly to Fuck myself and I still owe the damn money to their asses.

Wandering

Well since some are just totally out yet around my household here.  I found out on Thursday with a funeral 4 weeks before and some can not even say they did not have phone numbers for some of us at all here over the years since my cell phone number has not changed at all here in about 8 years at all.  That was only part of the cruddy week here and some are going to be out of luck since I have got alot cheaper also while I have been at it here over the past 10 months totally.  Now all I am doing here is trying to catch up with bills here and go from there at this point in time.  I just hope that nobody is going thru in what the Bigen Trucks are going thru at this point in time totally broke and going from there.  The past 4 years have been hard and it just got harder with some of us here at this time.  I am just thankfull that I am somewhat stocked up at this point in time here and some people dropped me to the curb from 10 months ago and then some around here.  I have also learned that life is better without the cut downs and the lies that some will say to and about me at this time here.  The less I know the better and the more I give a rats behind on what some think about me still and it proves a point that I just do not care.  When I am sitting here and my power bill has been under 45 dollars this month here without the dryer going here and all of the lights it tells me something here totally.  Also I have found out that I still have a say in how much I pay around here for alot of things totally.  So the fire place will be going more here for the household to keep it all warm nomatter what goes on here along with the gas bill will not go up that much around here also now with that going when it gets to cold out.  So it makes me wander in what some have been thinking here and others at this point they just do not give a damn period at all.  So no wander I have been trying to get cheaper here and got cut down for what I was trying to do for the household months ago here.  So now it is like I feel alot better after after I got dropped and realized why here totally also after some other people that got lied to also in why I was doing what I was doing or just lied period about me.  Knowing in what I know now I wish sometimes I did not push feallings aside for some people even though they were married to some that were close to me or lived across the street also from the trailer.  SO now at this point in time if some only knew in how much of a tight was that I am now here they would be shocked totally.  Yes I did get everything switched over to the cheaper ways that I have here from the trailer to the household now and some have to deal with it since they wanted to drop me on the curb and take others with them from me here now.  I guess it did not matter in how much pain I was in since it did not matter at all here and I had the feeling more was going down and 2 proved it to me in the past 10 months or so that I had the feeling period at the time.  But then again I am supposadly that damn stupid to some people that I am not suppose to know what the Hell is going on also still to this day when one dropps me and the other ignors me also here.  Oh well at least I know what is going down and let some know also after 4 weeks when I was told here also about a death. 

Knowing why now

At this point in time I now know why I started switching things over and have left everything off in the household at this point.  With a power bill without some here is under 45 dollars and will continue to drop here to say the least it is a good thing.  There has been alot of things going on around here to say the least and free fire wood is always a good thing in my eyes also.  Now here I can say also is that some people may have dropped me to the curb or slammed me one here and that maybe one of the best things they have done for me at this time since I am getting alot cheaper here in the household at this point.  Between the free fire wood along with huge sales at the store that I have hit up in the past 10 months here and getting alot of the bills down on top of it here for the place now I am realizing that I got real lucky in the time frame totally.  Also I am alot calmer while I have been at it all in the past 10 months.  With everything that has been done here in the place at this time it has been alot cleaner along with the place being stocked up on top of it all.  With the one storm that went up the coast here and alot of people are still without power and food here now it makes me wander in what really goes on here in NY State with the heads in the governor's office now.  I will say that he told the Press go away I do not have time for you at this point playing the stupid silly games I have a state to run that is in trouble.  IF that was not a huge middle finger in some faces I do not know what is then.  Pluss on the radio I heard a child say if Romny gets in then he had to go back to the fields here.  I would love to tell the child and the parents here ya now need permits for children in the fields in todays world thanks to Obama here along with the farmers kids in the household also here.  The kids can not even get on the rideing lawnmower at all since that is considdered farm equipment also.  So what does this tell everyone here also about all the laws that have been past that did not get other officials votes on totally since some went over and beyond their heads along with a money grab to pay for all the people that now collect welfare that do not need it still to this day.  All I can say at this point still is that some people that are lazy and have been on welfare for years at this point along with their parents and grand parents that is where we get the baby daddy from also. 

Wandering here

Well now it really makes me wander if I hit the nail on the head with some people here in the area totally at this time.  After almost 8 months here without one person I feel better here and even after the text that the gal sent me at the time made me mad of course and that can not be helped at all.  I told my Husband yesterday that he knew after I paid back the gal that the friendship started falling apart right then and there without even a problem.  My poor Husband said that he noticed it and did not want to say anything about it at all untill I said something about it.  What got to me was all the cut downs that were said to me here knowing that I was not feeling good at all at the time and some still would pile into my place without caring at all about what was going on here.  All I know is that after I said what was on my mind and got it out in the open here I felt alot better after that point.  Also I was trying to get the household on track with alot of things and had to give up on it all untill the blow out of that part.  Then I was reminded of where I stood with someone that use to come over with the gal and he did not bother to come in at all here.  I will not stop my Husband from having friends at all and refuse to say nay on people coming over to see him also here still to this day.  Worse comes to worse I get an extra walk in while some are here.  Anyway things have changed so much here in the household in the past 3 months that it is not even funny at all.  I have got back on the waggon totally to get the household cheaper here once again.  None of us will do without anything here at all and somethings are a treat nomatter in what ya do for the household.  Since I do have the back stock in place here for the household that has helped out totally for not spending much at all for that part of the house.  That was the main thing that I was getting cut down for along with hanging the dang laundry for the most part for the household.  So now here since some have dropped me I ended up getting alot of things on the cheap here and did not get torn down on that part of things here.  Now it is full blown in what needs to happen for the place to get the bills that much cheaper here and I will struggle with that part for a good many weeks again for the household.  After all said and done my Husband ended up putting in the umbrella lines with the back yard and that has helped alot here for myself.  Also now there will be alot of laundry done this week here on the good days totally.  This is what some people have not got as of yet in what some of us do to try to cut costs every step that we take here at all.  So at this point in time it feels good that I am not getting cut down for what I do anymore here for the place.  Maybe that was the problem from the get go with myself feeling so bad along with some that just did not give a Damn in what they did at all to use others.  Now also once I think about it also nobody has complained about my cooking within the 8 months niether here it makes me wander totally in what some were up to about that part since she was here twice a week eating alot of the times.  So at this point I am seeing alot more without the pain and I am trying to get alot more done here for the place on the cheap side also while I am at it all.  Now at this time with watching the sales and it has to be a really good one here in order to get out of the household totally unless it is to walk here totally oh well on some people here.  The best part about all of this will be that the bills will come down again for the place and I will meet the goal that I have set up with the household here from now on. 

Shaking my head

Well at this time I will be working on the bills again here for the household.  Since the place is ok in food I am not totally worried about that part at all here.  So now here with alot of things that are going on and knowing that I have to pay more bills around the place I may as well start walking more here to get the nickles totally.  Alot of what I need to do is to cut down even more and be done with it here for the place without any questions at all.  This is what has got alot of people here in the area about me so far since I do get things done here and have cut alot of things out here in the household totally yet again.  Also another thing is that I will be taking my walks later in the day here so I can get more done here in the place.  With alot of things that I have been thinking about here in the past 2 weeks it will all come togeather and will work in what I want to do with it all.  Since I have been going back and fourth with my laptop computer here for the past 6 weeks I have not noticed anything different with the power bill at all on that part of things.  Without the dryer being ran all of the time here it has made a huge dint in the power bill totally over the months.  So now here I will have to get that much more creative on the cheap ways of life here and go from there at this point in time also for the place.  Hanging laundry has helped out here for the main part of things here in the house.  I have noticed that since I put the one cookbook totally away here things have changed alot also in that part of things here.  So I dragged that out here as of Friday and will start using that again for cheaper meals.  I had put that away since some were complaining that the meals were to cheap when she was here also.  Now there are no worries about that part of things since some will not be over at all anymore to the household from now on.  So now is my total chance to get that much cheaper without being cut down for what I do here anymore for the house.  Since I can deal without alot of things here I am willing to give that a try also now for the place.  This means that I will be cutting more off here during the day for longer periods of time here and see how that works out for what I am trying to do here. 

Knowing now

With all the problems I had out of my one Niece here comes to find out that I was right here totally.  I was not asking for myself here at all to go see the person that I had seen 2 weeks ago here at all just give an older woman the happyness to see one of her great grand babies and go from there.  Now I knew the woman was sick 3 weeks before I got down there with blood clots all over her lungs and thought to bring the poor gal some happyness here to take at least one of the kids down with me 2 weeks ago as a thought.  That is when I got burnt from the Niece that did live at the trailer with myself and my Husband here at one time.  But then again thinking on things with the girls other side of the family I was the totally stupid one here and the 89 year old woman did not get to see one of her great grandbabies.  Then again I tought I would be nice to both parties and let them see each other one last time after I threw the girl out almost 2 years ago with the 2 weeks ago that I went down.  And yes I was livid over the girl lieing her toush off to me along with her boyfriend here for years.  The text of what was said back and fourth will be brought up here in another post on the blog totally since I supposadly lied to others also.  It all came out in a phone call that the girl did not want to go at all and can careless about others totally.  That is how it is and at least I have a clear mind over in what I did regardless in how I felt about the girl.  I was trying to do the right thing here and failed totally except to some people that I know here.  At least I did try to do things the right way and got kicked to the curb.  I can say that I could have been harder on the girl and did not do it at all since I was not going to tolorate the B.S. that she wanted and threw her toush out of the trailer and said no to her boyfriend who is a sexual preditor to move into the house with us when we first moved in 21 months ago.  I had to think about the 3 girls on one side of me along with an older woman on the other side also and a new neighborhood at the same time.  That did not include all of the comments that were made in the kitchen of the house here when we first moved in also about the lazy bumb not wanting to do squat here to help out.  Right then I knew I made the right choice by saying no to the low life.  Now this does not include all of the kids in and out of the place drinking at all since some are laxed on it and I was not.  I knew in what I did over the years and it did not settle at all with me in what others thought they could do in my place period.  When my Niece was totally drunk off her toush that is when she called me "Mommy" in the voice mail she left if she left one for me at the time when she was at the trailer 3 years pluss ago. 

Shaking my head

Well at this time I have busted my one Niece in many lies that she told me here over the past 2 weeks totally.  I have took full blame for not putting my foot totally down here with the girl and that is it before I threw her toush out of the trailer.  With that being said I had to think about when her and her boyfriend got togeather at the time and it was a month before I let her move into the trailer.  It is not the 3 days that the girl is claming at all when they got togeather befor I threw her out.  Now I am thankfull I told them no totally on moving into the house here almost 21 months ago here since I had to protect alot of people here in the neighborhood including myself also.  It was one of the things that I knew that could go very wrong if I was not carefull along with alot of other things at the time.  The comments that were made in my kitchen at the time were not good at all along with it did not settle right with me in what was said here.  Since I come and go as I please along with the one comment that the guy said that he would park behind me period and I had to ask for permission to get out of the house period after they moved into the house.  So now at this point in time the bills are mainly on track here for the place and I refuse to let people do as they please here in the household anymore.  It sickens me in how some people figure that it is ok for them to stab others in the back when the person who got stabbed was trying to help them at the time also.  Now at this point in time I am done being the nice person totally to some people and they will find this part out about me here the hard way from now on.  Also now with alot of things that have went on at the trailer I am thankfull that I told both of them no now here since alot of things are sticking around the place.  I do not have to worry about things getting over used and the worry about running out of a months worth of food within a week also while I am at it.  Another worry that I had at the time was the underage drinking along with people in and out of the house if I let my Niece and her boyfriend move in also.  It would not have been worth the trouble at all and still is not worth it. 

Laughing

Well now I can laugh here totally with my one Niece since I busted her wide open for lieing.  The girl is swearing that I threw her out 3 days of her and her supposad boyfriend getting togeather when it was at least 3 months before that when they really got togeather here and 4 weeks before I threw her out when she finally got the balls to tell me she was dateing a sex offender here in the area.  Now it is not on me here and when she owns up to what she has done when I offered to take her down to PA with me almost 2 weeks ago here she lied again on things to me.  This is part of the reasons of why I went back to my walks here yet again along with going cheaper here in the household.  Now I know that I should have put my foot down so hard she wished that I would have thrown her out before the girl said something to me and that was after I found out the word on the streets in what was going on along with what I knew at the time.  I did not do it since I knew she would take off anyway and that is why I called her so called boyfriend to get his ass into the trailer also to chew him out while I was at it all.  So all I am accountable for is not putting my foot down hard enough at the time while we were still at the trailer with my Niece at the time.  Now at this point I am happy that I did say no for them to move into the house here almost 21 months ago.

Not saying much

Well I will not say much in what all happened in PA at all now and that is on my one Niece at this time.  Also my mind is clear on my part since I did try to get her down there and I went anyway without her to see for my self.  Now since the Friday blow up I am ok with it here and I will not take total blame for what the girl did at the trailer at all.  When I do not get a call to say that she would not be back at all, along with skipping out on the little chores that she had at the time, pluss I asked for her to either get into school for her ged or go find a job and gee she wanders in why I threw her out.  So I will take the blame for throwing her out after that part.  Other than that I knew that she would do what she wanted when she wanted to do something and I could not do anything about it at the time and still can not at all.  With that being said here I can say that some just do not care at all in what is going on and will lie on top of it all to save their own toushes still to this day.  All I can say now is that I at least went down and have a clear mind on things and I am good on what I did also here.  Even though it was a hair ball 2 days.  With that here at least I know that it was a cheap weekend also while I was at it all here. 

Wandering

Well when I took my one Niece in back about this time 2 years ago I did not figure that she would listen to her boyfriends lies all of the time at all.  Since I did not call anyone a liar at all untill yesterday morning here.  In what was told to my Niece is that I called the guy a liar when I really said I would not lie to some about where the girl is and that she would care less about others along with her boyfriend in what was going on totally about 2 weeks ago.  As I told my Husband last night I was sick and tired of the girl saying that she wants to go down to PA and then backs out at the last minute all of the time.  And yes she did not bother to get over to my place at all yesterday and point blank lied about things on top of it all to me.  So now I have gave up on alot of things with the girl and I am done totally with it all.  So as some people have said here there will always be more questions than answers anyway. 

Knowing here

I gave my Niece here every chanse here that I could to go to PA with me period.  Now I will say that I called her 2 weeks ago to let her know here in when I was going here and I get ignored.  Since I do have the back up to say that I did not say that my Nieces boyfriend was a liar untill today in a text message here and I get blamed here just the same it is just beyond me totally.  I refuse to lie for my Niece here period to others when I am asked here totally and have what I said out of context it is ok now by me.  My ex husband did the same thing to me at one point over 20 years ago and now I know why I have the bad feeling about the Jack Waggon here also almost 2 years ago.  I am sorry that I will not lie here in what was said over 19 months ago here while some were sitting in my kitchen totally and I did not even have the phone except the cell phone at the time the first 3 weeks that I was in the household for the guy.  Pluss my Nieces boyfriend has to say where he lives since he is a sex offender and tried to deny it all to me and my Husband.  All I can say is that some may have it up and ya can have self denial on alot of things period on some people nomatter what is going down and what they will say their age is.   Or maybe in what I see is from when I was emansipated at 16 and married at the time and that was over 22 years ago at this point once I think of it all.  With in an hour I have asked what are ya hideing here and what are ya totally scared of if I take my Niece with me here.  My ex husband here never minded me to see my sisters or my aunts here nomatter who the Hell took me to see them when I was 16 to 18 period while I was married to his toush.  I had questions in the past 22 months here when my Niece got togeather with her boyfriend at the time here and the old memories were still there of getting beat at 16 with what some had told me and her at the time.  I knew when I lost and had to give up on things at the trailer at the time when my Niece got hooked up with her boyfriend.  I also let the girl go knowing it was wrong and I could not do a dang thing about it at all at the time.  I had to let the girl go knowing that I could not do a dang thing and hoped that I gave her enough tools to last out in the real world here. 

Shaking my head

Well at this time I do have the drying lines at this point in time here totally.  Now some folks are going to be mad when the umbrella lines go up in the back yard here this weekend.  So now with that part at least I will be able to not have to worry to much about the racks falling over also here.  With alot of things here at least there are alot of changes going on and some are going to be mad either way I go.  I found out some things that have went on and are going on here and I finally blew up totally and that is why I am on the going cheaper rampage here for my own household.  Also here I finally realized that alot of the things that I can do without some people here while I am at it all over the years.  Now there will be alot of changes during the week without question and the laptop will work out to my advantage also from now on.  I do not mind not turning on the monster that is on my desk also here for days on end since it puts out so much heat into the main floor.  So now here since I have switched the main bulk of things over here in the household after I got dropped also here over 5 months ago.  Oh well at least I know that I was doing all of that for a reason here and I got it last night without saying much about it.  With that said here it is well worth doing in what I have been doing at this point in time here and why I wanted to in the first place.  Of course I have my days here of that why should I do for the household and that is normal.  Some of the things that are going on have made me wander in why I did them and remember something is better than nothing in the Veggie department here totally.  Also here next year I know will be better than this year for the growing season while I am at it.  It is one of the things that I have hope on at least here in the household and will keep the hope in alot of things here. 

Long day

Well today will be a long day to say the least here.  With that said I already have laundry going here and it will be hung up totally to dry.  It is one of the ways that I can save money around here without a problem at all.  Now at this point in time here since I still hang laundry here to help on that part of the bills it is well worth the trouble to do so here.  Also since I have been reading alot more here to see what else I can do to get the household that much cheaper it seems to drive some folks nuts to see me do all of the things.  With what I have been doing so far is cooking alot outside also during the hotter days here for the household while I am at it.  Since I do not watch much T.V. I turn everything off at the power strip also here along with the computers to save on the phatom power along with unplugging the phone chargers also after the phone is charged.  This is what some do not get at all in why everyones power bill veries from house to house here in the neighborhood.  Maybe that is why some have wanted to trash in what I was doing in the first place here for the household the first 13 months of being in the house at that point in time.  Now here at 19 months the bills are down yet again and that is how I like it.  Also here I have found out that since I can get cheaper here and it does not bother me at all anymore when I ad more things to do to get cheaper for the household.  Just like when I use the grill to cook on instead of in the house here with the heat that is outside.  Since it has been a hot summer so far why should I heat up the house anymore than what it is already and make the window units work that much harder here.  I figure it is one of them things that goes on all over the place anyway. 

Wierd

Well alot of things have been wierd today.  Finally I get to turn off the window units here in the household and some fresh air in the place.  Yes it is only about 76 here in the place with both of them turned off still.  Since I figured that it was going to be nice for the day I may as well turn another 2 things off for the day here.  The nice thing about this is that the power bill will not go up any further here with today and tomarrow because of the cool air going.  Anyway at this point in time since I am stocked up on alot of things here totally I do not have to worry about it as much for the household.  At this time here I am thinking of the bills already for the month here along with other things.  I think this is what gets to some folks still about me here.  Since I do not go out that often here at all it makes me wander here in what some folks think.  Yes I will end up at several of the fests going on here between the area and south of the area.  It is a good way to save money here for the household and to get food also for the place.  I know that my Husband does not mind in How I do things here for the household at all.  Over the years here I have found out that it is well worth getting things on sale and in season for the place nomatter in where we are here. 

Hate waiting

Well I hate waiting here period for some folks when I owe them money.  I have been out twice this morning already for the person and still have to wait for them to pay them at this point in time.  So I pulled the money back totally and I will catch up with some yet this week.  Also I will try my laptop here for a good while with some things here since it is cheaper for what I need to do here for the household yet again.  So I am surprised that I am on the computer at this time anyway since it is still in the morning here in NY State.  The power company here will rob your wallet without a problem and the taxes are just out there as well in the state at this time that it hurts.  The power bill at the trailer was never under 90 dollars a month there unlike here in the household.  At this point in time I am only one person with a blog here and will say the truth totally here without a problem at all.  With that being said there is alot wrong here in the state of NY and the higher ups do not care about "The Little People" or the business owners here in the state.  Now I am not quite broke totally here at all compaired to some people.  I do streach out the dollars as much as I can totally for the household and that is what some could not understand at all about me and what I was doing.  Like at this point I have a garden in and some of it is not doing well and I cnow this totally here.  I do not need to be reminded of this at all from some of the neighbors who just don't give a damn in what others are trying to do here also and cut folks down anyway for what they are doing.  So I will start getting mouthy here with the guy and start cutting him down from now on here.  It is a thought and will start doing since I can never do anything right anyway here according to some.  Anyway I have to get back to work here and see where I end up totally for the day again. 

As I sit here

Well at least I did get some things done yesterday after I dropped off my Husband at the big truck.  That and I stopped at 3 places while I was at it also here for yesterday.  With that being said here there was a 20% sale off the entire order at Big Lots.  Even one of my neighbors looked at me while I was in line to check out and she did not realize in that I do shop at the place where she works at.  With Big Lots they do have a card also to gain money off an order after so many also for their store.  Anyway at this point in time there is alot of housework that needs to be done here and part of it will get done today.  That is part of the reason of why I wanted to get over to Big Lots yesterday also.  So now here with alot of what I will be doing today will end up being on the cheap side as normal.  I guess this is what gets to some folks that live next to me here and now.  Since I have had to watch in what I am doing and when to shop also it has helped to become that much cheaper for the household here.  Also some others that use to come over did not get in why I was doing some of the things that I was doing also here at the time to cut the costs of the household.  Some may never get in why I have things turned off during the day here along with not using other things also at this point in time.  The power bill reflects in what I have and will be doing here by turning off 99% of the things during the peak hours of the day.  At least my Sister in Law know about that part of things and I got to doing that for my place with the laundry here.  Also I would hang laundry outside during the summer at the trailer anyway.  Now I hang laundry all of the time even in the winter here in the household to save even more on that part of things.  It is like the coupons that I use while I am out and about for the household also while I am at it all.  The coupons do help out with cutting the costs for everything that is needed for the place and why not use them when they are printed.  That is how I look at things unlike some folks here in the area totally that do not want to be bothered by coupons at all.  As the guy on the news said this morning may as well use them also and save the money.  So now I will start in on the free stuff hunt and go from there this morning also while I am at it all.  Maybe I can hit the jack pot for a goody here. 

Thinking again

Well I found a hand crank food mill for the household here yesterday and another card for the key chain here for discounts.  I ended up with a better food mill for less than what I looked it up for on the internet here also yesterday.  That is part of going cheaper here in the household that I have been trying to do here anyway over the past 19 months.  With some still trying to cut me down for what I am doing here for the household and keeping the bills down.  At this point in time at least I can say that alot of the bills have came down and are still down here for this month compaired to last year at this time.  It also goes along with reading the bills very close here to see what is going on with that part.  There are some folks will not read down in the bill and all they see is the total on the top of the bill.  Anyway here at least I am thinking about some things here totally now and will get it all done without a problem at all.  Also with the thinking that I have been doing here on alot of things here are getting cut down either way I go.  Since alot of the things that have been done for the household so far it has been a good thing.  I have switched alot of things over here so far to the cheaper end and some folks have been mad ever since that part of what I have done.  Also I have not been using the dryer at all for the laundry.  With that being said I am not wandering anymore in why the bill was about 75 dollars less than last year here at this time.  I also told my Husband that some of the things are totally out the window also for what he wants to do here for some things.  Alot of times I keep the lights off during the week while I am here alone along with other things that are off.  I started that part of things at the trailer and brought it to the household.  I guess it is one of the things that I have not lost at all here.  When the power bills were 90 pluss dollars at the trailer nomatter what I did to the house here to where I got them down to about 50 dollars give and take a few dollars I knew.  That was after the dumping here on both parts.  Now here since alot of the bills came back down here I am not as nuts as I was. 

Wandering

Well I know some were hollering last night in what I do not do out in the yard still.  At this point I do not care in what some think that I am doing here in the household at all and they are not here.  Since part of the week I am inside still arangeing things and getting other things done here in the house it self I get out about 7 pm to water the garden totally.  With things going on and I did excape at 11 am yesterday for about 30 minutes to walk down the street one of the neighbors asked in how the garden was doing at this point.  I told her I have the first year blues for that part of things.  The woman agreed and said do not worry about it since this year was a flop.  So at this point in time I do have some veggies that will produce and there is the sweet potatoes that are growing like weeds also.  I am not getting down about that part anymore at this time since other neighbors figure that I have failed on that part of things.  Alot of the older folks know different at this time and that is what I am figureing on anyway along with knowing other things for the place.  Anyway here at least I know in what is going on here and I will go from there.  Since there has been alot of changes in the household here and my Husband has not minded in the least bit in what I have done so far to cut the bills and other things down at this point I guess that I am doing pretty good on alot of what has been done so far.  Another thing is that I have noticed that I am alot calmer here within the 5 months that I have been dropped to the curb also.  Others have seen the radical change in me also here and that is how I like it.  With alot of the things that have been going on I have noticed that things are gooing better than what I had expected them to also at this time.  From last year to this year the power bill has went down along with other bills and I am feeling better about alot of things also here while I am at it all. 

Some are left behind

Well I asked for another opinion on some things here and they gave it to me knowing what happened totally here and I am greatfull for it.  Now some folks are on their own and tough cookies on that part of things and now that I am ok with myself again that is all that matters.  Ok so I gained weight over the years and that part can not be helped at all since I could not move and did not get help also while I was at it all here on top of it all.  I did not blame others what so ever except for myself for the choice of what or who I thought were friends here in NY State and that is why I ate alot of crap and swallowed my pride while I was at it all also here over the past year.  Now at this point since I have noticed some things with some people here I was in the right nomatter what I said or did and got stronger over it all.  I have still a good best friend that makes since out of the mess and hers with me also and it seems to be ok at this point in time after almost 30 years of knowing each other and my sister knowing my best friends own Momma also.  Now I know that some people are not right and I do not wander in why I came up swinging when I knew some people were lieing to their own kids about what was going on.  I have never lied PERIOD to the kids that I have had over the years at all and never will.  Even to my step daughter nor son here still to this day.  Knowing that is alot of the problems for the country today alot of the generation X and Nexters have lied to their kids here and said oh its ok if ya get raised by another person it is not on me there is a problem totally in that. 

Looking

Well I have the AT&T service at this point and I can get more out of the phone than what I could out of the stupid Cricket phone period.  Pluss my phone has been going on and off since about 6 am at this point with the raido stations from St. Louis MO. and other things at this point and the battery is still good here and it is about 5 after 3 here now where I am at in NY State.  The other phone from Cricket the ZTE I would have had to charge up by now along with no radio at all.  The whole point of having the cell phones was that I did not need the house phone at all and that is why I dropped that.  What I did not realize with the new plans that Cricket had and the phones I could not get the raido that I wanted at all.  So now at this point in time here I would not go with Cricket even if ya paid me over a million in dollars now.  If I did not need a phone at all I would have thrown the other phone out the window period with it turning off all of the time on its own, rebooting when it felt like it, hanging up on people without explanation, it alos would call people and turn on the camera without even being near the thing and that was the ZTE and I did hear from another person here that when she had hers it did the same thing.  Pluss the ZTE would not hold a charge at all to save it self at all also.  The one Manager told me that I had lost my marbles totally and that I was liar on top of it.  With the guy trying to talk in circles to try and get some of us confussed totally untill ya just want to smack the crap out of him totally by the time you are done.  I knew what to expect totally here when I seen the load of crap also when the store opened today.  The adds from Cricket I do not even endorce at all and I will say do not go with them at all.

Shaking my head

Well I had tried to get my flex bucket back from Cricket today of $94.06 and they refused to give it to me.  It was not part of the bill at all.  What the flex bucket is is for the extras for the phone like ring tones and extra long distance if needed and you add it to the account on as needed or wanted.  What was told to me was that it was part of the bill and "To Bad Now" after the guy talked circles to me again for the second time at the Delaware St. Buffalo NY office.  At this point in time I do not recommened Cricket what so ever at all now since they have really lousy customer service here along with the low end phones at every store I have been in so far from here in NY State down to the state of Illinois.  Even while I was in Illinois I could not get the service for the phone period at all while I had Cricket.  So now it is a warning here totally do not go with them at all.  With the plans that they have out now it cost me more than what I am getting now thru a different company here.  You can only get 30 min. worth of roaming and you pay 5 dollars per 30 minute block.  You max out at four and when the minnutes run out then it is done if you are out of town and need to use the phone to call anyone.  Not even to get a tow truck nor boom truck (the wrecker for the 18 wheelers).  Now at least I can say that I have been taken for a ride from Cricket totally and do not even want to know squat here after I call corperate again tomarrow. 

Wandering

Well I am wandering still in some things here.  Since I am feeling better in alot of ways here at this point in time I should have done some things months ago here totally.  Now at this point in time my Husband is finally getting in what all that I do here in the household totally here and has not said anything else in about myself being lazy at all.  So now to just get things cheaper here in the household totally here at this time and go from there.  Since I do not need much here in the household at all at this point in time it is a good thing that I am stocked up on alot of things.  Now that I can laugh about some things sticking around longer without some people here and the bills went down also once I think of it.  I will end up dragging the bills down even further here without a problem and I have to figure out in how to do all of this on the quick side.  With alot of it here at this time is getting the power and gas bills down that much further here and that is another reason of why I wanted the gas grill to cook with here when it gets to hot totally outside.  Also I have the crock pot out to cook with at this time to keep the heat out of the household.  I figure in why bother to heat up the oven and make the window units work that much harder here for to keep the place cool.  This is what some people did not get when they were coming over totally here last year.  With this year some things have straightined out for the place and I ended up with some things that they would not expect at all.  Knowing that some people in the area throw out good things instead of the real stuff that needs to get out to the curb once a week. 

Shaking my head

Well I got part of what I needed to do yesterday done here.  Cricket for the phones is no longer in the household at all.  That is what happends when I get the run around here totally thru a company.  Now to fight for the 94 dollars that they owe me and go from there today.  With that being said I guess that some things will not happen again this year of course and that is ok since I can do for next year I hope for the looking around at Fort Niagara.  So now here all I can say is that I am cutting back totally here in the household once again and do not have any other choice at all for it.  Anyway at least I do have the back stock in the household at this time and that is how I will make it over the next several months here in getting that much cheaper for the place.  With that being said here at least I know that with the switch over to the cheaper cleaners and soaps here it will work out for the best along with the paper products that we do use here in the place.  Since I have been looking and thinking for ways to get things that much cheaper anyway in the past several weeks here I have noticed that some things are easier to spot out than other things here in the household.  So now here I will be looking at ways to cut down even further for the household and see where I land at this time around. 

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that I refuse to keep up with anyone here in the area that I am now.  That is what some folks have not got at this point in time about me here.  Ok so I had laundry out on the drying racks yesterday to dry outside instead of using the dryer.  At one point I knew the couple that walked by the household and the woman made a comment about what I was still doing after all of the years later during the summer months.  I look at it like this it is not her power bill at all that is going up and it gets me outside here to get something done that is for free to dry laundry around the household.  Maybe some of the older ways are still better than what we are doing in todays world at this point in time.  So I ignored the comment and walked away in just discussed.  Once I slept on it here I know in the whys of what was going on.  Since I have nothing to worry about in what I was doing here anyway it is all good.  It also explains in what was going down here in the house yesterday all day also.  I will admit that the house has ghost's and shadow people here in the place.  The land has changed hands several times over the past 400 years and that is how some things go.  Anyway at least now here that I can say is that the house is up to date with the loan payments and then some at this time.  Since I pay that and afew other things here on the first of the month here that is what gets to some folks also while I am at it all.  I got asked the other day here if I had a loan out on my truck here and of course my answer was no.  I have not had a car loan out at all since I was 17 years old and 20 years later it will not happen at all.  I figure cash and carry on that part of things here totally on alot of things.  I guess this is why I am saving up still for some things and that is why I do not mind going to the cheap side of things to do so.  As some people will say that I am not the one that will go out and just spend on lavish things for myself nor the household at all.  I never did and I never will do that part of things just to say that I have something.  I figure why should I over extend myself or my husband to the brink of life to keep up with others.  Also I figure here today and gone tomarrow also and ya can't take it with ya anyway in the after life.  So now with that being said here at least in what I do have I may as well take care of it and go from there to make it last longer for the place.  Now at this point in time here at least I can say that since I can care less in what others have and know that I can do without alot more in the household.  Maybe that is why some things do not bother me at all in what others think in how I should do things. 

Wandering

Well after running up to the Cricket store and one phone call to fix my phone totally here again within the past 36 pluss hours here I am still not happy at all.  Then I find out that my cell bill is over 160 dollars for the companies mess up on top of it all.  Since I have been pre approved for another store here I may go with a different company all togeather here along with cheaper rates totally than what I am paying now.  I told the guy were I was at yesterday that I had to have reception up past Moose Canada here for my husband totally for his line of work.  It makes me wander about some places totally here that refuse to help the customer out totally in the store here on Millitary and Niagara Falls Bulevard.  So as I sit here now and I am still stewing in the mess that Cricket has made of both phones here on me some will learn.  Anyway with what else that has been going down here it is amazing that I am keeping my total sanaty on top of it also.  So now with that being said here the window units will be going for at least the next 5 days here and I have to cut the rest of the bills down to the point of it is not worth the paper that they are printed on also.  I will get that done here very shortly and go from there.  With that being said for my part things will get done here on the very cheap from now on and there will be no question about that part of things.  Since alot of the cleaners have been switched over and alot of other things that I have been doing over the past almost 5 months here some people would not like in what I have done.  Alot of the lights do not get ran at all now since 2 people have dropped my toush on the curb here and that has helped out alot along with the dryer not being hardly used here also the power bill has came down by 40 to 50 dollars a month already.  With the food bill that has came down to below 150 a month for both of the kitchens that I have at this point.  It amazes me in what has been done without some coming over to my place for 2 days a week.  I have got alot cheaper here without a problem and I do not have to worry about someone cutting me down all of the time for what I am trying to do for the household here.  Even my Husband was shocked in what I have been doing with little thought here and the over comping for the bills is still there just on a smaller scale at this point.  With the cheaper soaps and other things for the household here it works just the same as the better stuff here. 

Pretty bad when

Well it is pretty bad when for about 40 more dollars more a month here for the phones that we can get past L'rigonal Ontario, Canada on the cell phones without a problem at all.  I know I butchered the spelling on the city on that one and that is fine, and it is Moose Ontairo Canada either way.  Translation my toush on that one here.  Thanks to Cricket and crappy service on that part out of the Niagara Falls Bulve. store they have treated me like crap on top of it all and a number of calls to the 1-800 number on top of it all to fix the problems with the phone that I have along with my Husband after 8 years here.  The poor guy that helped me out yesterday about soiled himself after all was said and done here totally after I explained it to him that the one store in Buffalo tried and the one here next to the house could give a shit about anyone but their own pay checks totally.  That is how some places go around here in the Western NY area to say the truth totally and I found that out the hard way.  So I am shopping around and got a good price on both phones here and the guy that took me in did not blame me what so ever at all when I told him past Moose Canada and I have to call a 90 year old woman at least once a week totally off of both phones. 

Shaking my head

Well at this point in time since I have went alot cheaper here for the household I feel that much better about what I was trying to do when we first moved into the place.  Also it has helped out when I have been going down to Punxy also here for the past 2 months.  When I got dumped four and a half months ago here I thought ok this can work out for the best here and I can pick up and go here for part of the weekend once a month totally without someone cutting me down for it all.  I knew that I was on the right path and or track for the household here is when I got cut down for what I was trying to do then for getting the cheaper dish soap for the place at the time.  Also I never figured that the bills would drop almost 50 dollars pluss also for the place also without one person being here for 2 days a week.  So as I sit here after I took a hard long look after some had dropped me totally at first I knew in what I could do for the household and got alot of it done by the time that the person wanted to come back and I told her no forget it, it will not happen again.  I am not saying in what was all said 3 weeks ago here and that is that.  All I can say is that I am feeling better about things and myself here without some people here.  Also the last trip to Punxy that I took this past weekend here made me realize that in why I said no to alot of things here and why I can pick up and go now here without the worry about in what I do or say here period.  With that and the bills going down here for the place along with alot less pain that I had to deal with I even noticed a huge change in myself here that it is ok for me to get that much cheaper and that I can clean house here without the worries at all.  Also I can get that much cheaper totally without being cut down to the ankels and dropped on the curb.  Since there are things that are sticking around the place now also it does not seem that bad anymore in what I was trying to do in the first place here.  Maybe that is what scared some people in what I was trying to do and over comping for when they were coming over without it all working in how I wanted it to at the time.  So now at this point in time here since I have been using less of things and switched alot of the cleaners and food over again here for the household, it has became alot cheaper on the wallet along with other things that have happened for a flipping good reason.  With the surgery a year ago tomarrow here I have had to think of myself first for a change here and what was the best situation on what and how to handle things totally. 

Knowing why now

Well I know why as of now in why I do not need some people around me since they would have freeked out in what happened on Saterday night here and sunday morning period.  There were 2 of us that figured ok family and remembered in how it was on both parts here totally and I had flash backs to Collinsville ILL without a problem.  To where otheres would have freaked out on what the rest of us seen with other things also here for the day.  Since who I was with they all know that I have the poise and grace to rool with it all in what all went on compaired to others here totally I am not stupid at all in when to back out and when to get involved with something here.  All I could do is point and laugh and say ok you're just as messed up as my family here and knowing that others paid for getting drunk totally it is not on me at all at this point in time at all here as of saturday/sunday morning.  Some also asked in where others were and I told them in what all happened and don't worry about it since I did catch the person being a liar on several accounts also and I am sorry that I brought the person around the group after that.  When the gal does not like conflict at all well I was in the middle of it without even being there since others put the pieces togeather for it to me since I caught parts to where they did not when we all started for the after noon here totally.  After all said and done one person told me I am suprized that ya did not take the bat away from the person and just stick it where the sun don't shine on the person at the time at 1 am Since I just do not care at all I laughed.  Now if the kid came after me I would have and the person knows this totally out of me here. 

Apparently

Well I apparently answered my own question here with one answer without a problem.  I called some folks bluff here without the bluff since I do not lie here at all.  I will not say on what it was here and the person knows that I can pull stuff up and pay for it better than she can at this time.  Then some wander why I have dropped their toush on the curb here without a problem at all now and have felt better without them here and that is where I figured some were doing others also since I have barly talked to them on the phone here and asked them to take my phone then hand it to my Husband here also over the past week here.  Well I still have the phone and that is how I nailed some people to the wall without a problem at all here since I am tired of the crud that they have dished out also to me over the past 19 months.  All I can say to the person is keep lieing to my Husband and you will support him since I can make it on my own here with what I have coming in for what I do and that is that.  There is the reason of why I wanted the house that we are in here now and thank goodness that I put my foot down at this point since the trailer park is done and over with. 

Finding out

Well I have found out that true friends are hard to come by period here.  I have some that have stuck with me thru thick and thin and that is it and they have been with me over 20 years here also.  I have grown bitter over some folks here in the area that I am in now since they grew my trust and slammed me to the curb totally over the past 18 years.  This is why I have stuck to myself over the past 18 years in NY State since most are holyer than thou with their attitude here in this state.  This is why I do not trust many folks here in the God forsaken state of NY at all.  In what I should do is name names and be done with it and will not here at all since apparently Whyoming is the same dang way as the norther states normally are here go for yourself and screw everyone in your path also here.  That is why I was not bothered by the gal who dropped me here 4 months as of today and came crawling back here last Monday saying that she supposadly loved me and missed me here totally.  Then in the same breath they called me a name caller and a liar also when I have said nothing but the truth and did not name call except for myself in how I felt at the time and yes I called myself a Drunkin Bitch since I could not get any meds at all after the 6 month span after my surgery here almost a year ago.  The meds have ran out since the one aunt took some off of me and I could not replace them at all except illigally.  Trust me I refuse to go to jail for stupidity or anyone else at this time still 6 months later after dealing with all of the pain and stress that has went on.  When the person Texted me instead of calling I knew the person had not changed at all and it felt like a metal bat hit me again with my neck and shoulder blades in almost 4 months when she did what she did.  After the power bill went up to almost 100 dollars with the person here I knew that I did not need the user and abuser here what so ever and that does not include other things that went on.  I will post things later after I calm down more and refuse to lie for the person at this point in time PERIOD.  When I had left for 2 weeks here and get told oh I forgot to put the garbage out and the city is here on my toush for it she did not forget at all here after I dropped 4 bags off at the trailer since we still owned the can at that point in time and had 3 bags left not including what I had since that Sunday when I got home totally that is piggish in my eyes.  Even pigs are cleaner than that on the farm lands in Illinois and other places.  As I sit here now and look at things I knew in the back of my mind in what the heck was going down after the first month after I got dropped and it was ok by me.  I guess it did not matter in how I was feeling at all and tough beans on me with others and I let some know about it.  All I told some peoples daughters that life is not what meats the eye and ment it her mother did not tell her all the bad with the good also and I knew the same gal lied her toush off to her daughter.  Knowing that she did not say why the coffee table was flipped and I was in the right for telling some as a friend and a baby sister ya said this to me and lied to me also.  I did not even say that the gals husband wanted to sleep with me also to the daughter since it is not my place to do so at all since that is her mothers job if she knows about it.  The electrition was no angle at all and I know this.  I told him no since I respected his wife at the time and it is the same gal that burnt me 4 months ago today.  I have kept quiet over the years totally and did not say much at all about what went on here or at the trailer. 

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that things happen for a reason and I have realized that.  When my Husband asked why I was having a bad week and I told him in what happened and he looked at me and said fine now I understand in why ya freaked out.  With that being said it seems like some want me to slide back to old ways and not do a dang thing anymore about some things that have happened around the household.  At this point I am totally paying for what I did yesterday and at least the yard got done totally by 1 pm here.  So now at this time I can say that I am about ready to take the household to a whole new place with the cheapness that I want to take it with and I will see how it all works out.  When I can say that there are somethings that need to be done here and I am skipping the trip this week and waiting for 2 weeks here for PA.  There are several reasons for it at this time.  Since I am thinking hard on alot of the things that have been switched over at this time here and I still have to get a list up for the trip I am better off staying home at this point in time since I am not feeling that well also here.  With that said here there are ways that I will be getting that much cheaper here without a problem at all.  Also now since I will not be filling the gas tank on the truck this week it helps out on that part of things here.  When I filled it up on Tuesday here I have not really drove at all and have stayed home since I did not have anything outside of the house to do.  My Husband started laughing since he knows that I hate to drive at all costs now.  That is one of the nice things about where I am going to in PA since everything is within walking distance and alot of the shops open up early anyway.  So yes I will get down there to see some folks and do some shopping of course while I am there.  Also I get to hit up some places of course that I do miss without question at all.  All I can say is that I can got out of PA for fairly cheap and like it like that. 

Got it now

Well after about 3 days worth of total pain here and now know of why I have not bothered with some at all anymore for months I am getting it now.  Yesterday I could not push myself at all with cleaning here and still got some things done in the household.  So now at this time I have realized in what happened totally and part of the why's that some things did happen the way that they all did.  In the past year here I have been thinking that if I could just off set the bills just enough to where I could handle them with some folks coming and going in the place then I would not get screamed at and/or jabbed at constantly.  The jabs were worse with some people coming over since I knew that the stress was alot of the reason for the pain that I was going thru here with my neck and upper back, since I could not clean like I wanted to or how my Husband thought I should for the household at the time.  With that being said I was doing things right for trying to cut the bills down and learned it was not me at all here.  Since I was off setting the bills so much at the time along with other things for the place it has harmed my process to heal quick also.  After all said and done here with all of the bills coming in after Febuary here my Husband noticed that alot of things have went down and I have been doing the same things that I was before here with the exception of the kitchen lights being turned off and the dryer not being used.  At the time I could not say much about it since my Husband did offer for some to get their laundry done here and the person did not want to listen to when the peak and off peak hours were and still are to this day.  So now at this point since some things have calmed down once again here and I have noticed alot more that I have done for the place at this time, I have made alot of good choices here that are relevant to what was going down.  That is part of the reason of why I have switched alot of things over here in the household and it was part of off setting the bills anyway.  I was to the point of why spend 3 dollars on something if not more to get the household clean here so I started thinking of what would be the best way to get something done even with the back stock for the household.  The first thing was to switch the laundry soap around the household since the 14 dollar soap was not hacking it with the dirt and grime in the laundry at all.  So I switched over to the 8 dollar bottles of laundry soap and it made a huge difference on everything here.  After that I figured ok now with the rest of the place I can switch over and see how it all goes also and that is when I got cut down and dropped on the curb also here for what I was trying to do.  Now at this point in time I have noticed also that the non ultra dish soap lasts as long as the ultra soap here in the place and another good choice that I have made here for under a dollar per bottle of soap on that part.  So now that I am free to do other things also for the household here while I am at it all I have noticed that the stress levels have went down along with I am happier also about alot of things.  If I knew this all before I would have put my foot totally down here and have been done with it all way before it all blew up in some folks faces.  Also since I was cooking alot from scratch and going that much cheaper also for the groceries here in the household way before I moved into the house some folks did not like in what I was doing at all with that part of things.  I did not see nor hear some people that came over to the house here offer to help out at all for things.  Others that did come over did offer to help with the dishes right infront of others. 

About ready

Well I am ready and willing to give my phone up totally around the household.  I have turned it off at this point in time here and it is a good feeling totally.  I still have the service on of course.  I guess it is one of the other things that I can deal without and get by with it.  Now that I am feeling better and it took me 2 days to realize that I do not need the B.S. from some people at all.  I had asked someone to give an opinion on things yesterday so I could have a different perspective on the whole mess here and I have came to the same opinion that I have had before here in the past almost 4 months.  I am looking at it as it is not all of my fault in what has happened at all and I have pretty much known that all along here when things got awhole lot easier on me.  I have learned in why some did not want the person around me at all and I now know why also at this point in time.  Now all I can really do is think of the person and go from there knowing that I made the best choice at this time here so I do not hurt at all from the stress that the person wants to bring to me.  Now I have realized in why some wanted to come over to the house here and I want no part of that at all since I did get the bills down for the place without them here at all.  I guess it stems from myself to pay the bills when they come in and keep them paid also along with other things that fall into place here that I try to get for rock bottom prices for the household while I am at it.  So now at this point in time things are up in the air with alot of what I wanted to get done for the weekend here and I may just put things on hold untill next week around here also.  Knowing in what has happened and my Husband getting mad for myself of thinking of waiting to get down to PA for some things for the place here totally.  It got me to think yesterday afternoon that my Husband had planned on asking the person over to the household here this weekend.  With that being said here I am wandering totally on what is going on and down.  So now I will think on that some more here and may have an answer by tonight. 

Now I know

At this point in time I really know in what is going down here without a problem.  I denied some of friendship since I already know what was next and I do not need it at all since I did not trust te person at all and that is how I am totally here.  All I can say is the person that I called was right in what I was thinking here and I do not wander why some were trying to keep me away from their wife or girlfriend at the time here at all.  As I say is there is never a doubt in leaving a voice mail to see if some is home totally so their stuff does not get stollen period off their portch where they are at still.  I trust nobody at this point in this time in a bedroom town never have and never will.  I did not come form a small town and never will at this point in time thanks to Collinsville Illinois growing up unlike some from a hick town like their Thermop at all.  Sometimes I forget I am in the sticks for where I grew up at compaired to some from a small town to where ya fart funny and every know about it.  I have also asked a friend to take my phone and I can care less about the Damn thing period here and I do not need it at all.  Also I called a good friend here and they did ask me a good hard question on things here and I wanted not part in it at all while I was at it here compaired to the gal who screwed me in the first place.  There were alot of questions since November here and I have my back up with the city with the person who called them here on me and the city and town seemed to find squat wrong here in what I did after 2 pluss weeks after the garbage was not out to the curb and my neighbors will back me in and on that part of things here.  I will stand by my side knoing that knowing that some do not need to be homeless and I do not want to support their toushes what so ever still.  That is why I kept quiet on alot of things and did not say squat about what was going down here with some. 

Done with some

Well at this point I have pretty much been done with some folks anyway in the past almost 4 months here totally.  Pluss I have figured out alot of things that were not on me anyway even though I got blamed for alot that just was not right at all.  So now at this point in time here one gal has told me months ago that she would not come back over becuase I had asked one simple question of her to see what would happen also.  That is how I got free of the B.S. and all of the gals lies here totally since I told her fine then do not even bother and that was on her at that point.  Now I did not realize at the time that the bills would drop down to almost nothing at all along with feeling better.  Also here it gave me a chance to get that much cheaper for the household totally here without a problem at all.  So yesterday that is when I got the text from a gal that had burnt me to begin with here totally and that is how I am still feeling this morning about things here.  At this point I can wrap my mind around what was said and why I said the things that I did also.  When some do not even bother to pick up the phone and just text a person and not bother to call here at all I know that the person did not even change in the past almost 4 months at all and why subject myself to the nonsence of that part of things again here along with other things.  Also the household has got alot cleaner since I have been feeling better here without some coming around and that is what I have noticed also here for the almost 4 months.  It also explains to me in how my back reacted also with the texts that I got also here and afew other things that have went on in the past 24 hours.  I knew that alot of it was stress to begin with anyway with the gal coming over and not leaving untill about 11-1 at night here.  Of course I went livid here and also hung up on my Husband once he started sticking up for the gal that has burnt us after all that has been done and I am not up to that part anymore and shot 2 people down within about an 8 hour period. 

Long week

Well it will be a long week around here without a doubt in my mind.  Since there is alot to get done here in the household and packing to do for this weekend here it will be nuts.  With that being said here since I have gone that much cheaper for the place in the past month here so I can get back down to PA for the month here it is all the better on me.  This is what some could not understand in the first place here in what I did last month and that is ok.  Since I am Stopping at one place before I even hit town this go around and ask some questions about the one area of the yard so I can throw the dog out and let her back in when she wants.  It is worth that shot totally here and I will see how much it will cost me to get done also.  This is why I do not mind going down to PA at all since alot of the Amish do not mind being asked on some things that they love to do.  Also here it gives me a chance to get some things done also for the household while I am at it on the very cheap end at times and others I will have a life time also.  Anyway this is why I wanted to get that much cheaper for the place anyway here and I do not mind that part of things at all now.  Since part of the neighbors do not mind me being cheap here along with getting that much cheaper for the place it is nice that I can get alot more done.  Maybe that is what scared some folks away from me also here this past year.  As I explained it to some folks that I wish some things would happen and they never will here at all since some do not believe in saying ok here is a script and take it every so often when the pain gets to be to much on ya here.  That is when it all clicked with one couple totally here in what I was doing also.  I am sure that some already know in what went down on Friday and Saturday here also.  With that said maybe some things happen for a reason here and that I can get other things done so I do not have to spend the money at all on what happends.  Also I found out over the weekend here that alot more have moved out of the trailer park on top of it all.  I had tried to tell some to start looking and saving up for a move around there totally when I started 18 months ago on my move.  Since I still hoard money around here to this day and I can not break that habbit what so ever to this day I got out when I did.  So now here since there are things that I will do here totally and my Husband knows that the one nasty habbit has saved us more times than not for food and other things totally that he does not mind in that part of what I do.  I guess this is part of the reason of why I kept a wallet in my purse for so long here to hide money in before and after my ex husband.  That is what got to my Husband now here is that I could pull money for bills and food after we all moved up here totally.  And that it never ended at all for 19 years here.  So now at this point in time at least I did not break the bank at all in what I did and still made it out ok at this point in time.  All I can say is that things have worked out here and will always work now.  Also my Husband was suprized when everything got straight here in the household 8 months after the trailer here.  With what I pulled from the bank over the 8 months here was the grocery and cleaning money totally and that went with the back stock that I had.  So now to get some of the housework done here and still cut on that part totally here for the day.

Knowing now

Well some folks that have known me for years have told me straight out that things have to really be not in working order for me to say hey I have to replace this period.  Also the gal that I babysat for kind of spoiled me here with her recliner and I knew that I could not live without one in my place anymore.  Ok so it is like the KitchenAid mixer that I saved up for at the trailer.  That is why some did not being around me here at all since they learned in what I have done at the trailer and the household here at this point.  Since some knew that I hit up the sales here and yard/garage sales here for alot of things when they first knew me some would laugh and tease me about it totally untill they found out that my kitchen was totally functional at the trailer they all stopped on that part.  When some told me that I did not really buy things that were not needed at the time and they paid some mind to it here out of me.  Since some realized that I did not buy brand new things all of the time also it helped me out at the time also since the things were not needed in alot of ways here.  Others noticed that I was down to earth here and did not care in what they all had coming into their places with income at all.  This is why some folks like me here also is because I just do not care and refuse to keep up with others also while I am at it.  That is why some people who dropped me had a fit if the cable boxes were not up here along with other things in the household at the time.  Ok so I unplug things also here and it helps out on the part of the bills totally here.  That with the cooking alot of things from scratch here I have saved on alot of things totally over the years.  I did what I have had to for either place here and made it all work also while I was at it all.  I have got alot worse here after the accident almost 2 years ago here and that is how I like it also.  With that being said here I will do things that I have to around here to save money totally.  With that part I know that I have about 15 cents off of gas down in PA here at this time and it will go up by the time I get back there to do some shopping here also for the month.  So the trip back up will not be so bad at all here now this go around.  The funny thing is that I step into the saveings now at this time since I pay more of a mind to it here now.  My Husband laught about that part all of the time now after the surgery in what I will do to save money.  The funny thing here is that since I have the cards to alot of places here and will use them totally here for discounts along with other things here for the household and truck also it has helped out for the budget.  Also knowing when to shop helps out also with things.  I asked my Husband this morning if I could get some things while I was in PA here and then quarter them so it all gets used up without a problem at all.  He told me to go for it here and to remember that I have the butcher knives for things.  So now at this point in time here at least I did not listen to some also at this point with some things that they wanted me to do here in November at all.  I refuse to waste money on things with some people that want me to here. 

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that yesterday turned out pretty good on the cheap side of things.  I guess that some folks will never get in why I have gone even cheaper for the household at all at this time.  With that being said and knowing some folks around the area they just would rather be doing something different than paying the household bills around their place.  At this point in time at least I can say that I can take the trip down to PA this up coming weekend here and do what I have to do for myown place and good.  With alot of things that will be going this fall here I will prepare for it early here totally.  Since the doctor does not know at all in what I am doing here for the household I have thought of otherthings that I can do for what he wants me to do that are better off here at the house.  Pluss it helps out that I can take the next day off here when I over work myself totally.  One of the things is that there are tomatoes to be done here before I go back to the office to check in with him on things also this go around.  So now here since I have found something other than the blinder here for the tomatoes and the food processor also it is wierd.  All I have to do is move pots around full of water along with peeling things for blanching and cooking here.  Anyway at least I can say that there will be ways to get things that much cheaper for the household here and I have figured it out totally here at this point in time.  Maybe that is part of the reason of why I am going down to PA about once a month here untill the really nasty weather hits also this year.  With that being said here I will be going to one place on the way down here that I always wanted to look into also this go around.  So I might be better off looking and getting some stuff there also.  So either way since I have been getting cheaper and thinking of things to get cheaper on for the place at this point it will work out.  Since alot of the things that I have been doing here also for the household is the common since of things anyway here.  I guess alot of the can goods that are needed for the next several months here untill some things start growing also will be bought here for the household.  This is what some have not got about the things that I have done on that part niether here at this time.  All I can do is laugh about some things that have happened here and knowing what I have done for the place so far to cut back on totally.  Also here I can say that the non ultra dish soap has lasted as long as the ultra here for the dishes that get done here in the household.  This is what the one gal did not get in why I was trying to switch over things in the household at all at the time that I was doing it.  As of April of this year that is when I broke into the cheaper dish soap here for the household along with other things of doing here also to get the place going even better.  I will also say a dear friend of mine was right about me also here since he has known me about that I was cheaper than snot when he first met me.  I never did get high priced things and I was never snooty about it niether on top of it all. 

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that some things will always be ify in the household here without a question.  The poor guy was shocked that I had it on the food network with Ree Drummond here for the boys and he called his wife about it.  Ok so it keeps the boys quiet here and I get dinner ideas here also for dinners down the road for the household.  He did not blame me for the testing just to make sure things were working here and go from there.  So now here there are things that go on here and some about freaked out when I had an older box up stairs here that has not even bothered to go as of yet.  That is what I get for turning things off 5 pluss days a week here also things last longer than expected.  At this point in time it does the double duty for the house here since I turn them off during the day here while my Husband is not home and it saves on the power bill also while I am at it all.  With the weekends here the food network is on in the mornings here and I get ideas on what to try out for dinners here in the place.  Also I can do things abit cheaper if I want to in what I see for the day here.  That is one of the nice things here totally about some things.  With tonight here since I have been on the hunt for french toast here it will get done here or something else that I picked up during the week here.  The nice thing about this is that I can get both cranked out and have it for the same meal here for the place and the meat will go with the other.  So now I have the rest of the day almost to get things done here and go from there. 

Cruddy day

Well it is trying to rain already here and it will be cruddy today weather wise.  With that part at least I do not have to get out and water the garden at all once I think of it.  That and free water never hurt anyone at all on that part of things.  So as I sit here at this point in time already and think of all the things that need to be done here for the household it is on me.  Also I am waiting for my husband while I am at it all to call me.  I am guessing that it will not be that bad for the day at all anymore.  Also since it is the first of the month here I will have to pay bills nomatter in what I do for the day with or without my Husband here totally.  That leads up to that I do not want to drive at all here today.  With the rain and the older folks in the area it is not a good sign nor mix at all at this point in time.  I guess that I could walk to one place here that is not to far away at all and get wet pluss, pick up the nickels along the way also.  Since it is coming up on the year after the surgery and the 2 year marker for the accident I guess that I am freaking out about it already.  Some folks understand in what I am going thru here totally to where others do not have a clue at all about it.  Even when I go past the one streach that I got hit at I still feel like my stomache will learch on me.  That is the bad part about that here and now since some places are right there that I have to go to for the day.  So now I am wandering in how I will get some things done already for the day and not even freak out about it here.  Now at this point I will see what I can do around here and wait also while I at it and try to be as cheap as possible also here.  That is one good thing for the day here so far.  When I can cut the costs on things here without even thinking of what to do at this time I feel better about things.  Oh well lets see what I can do here so far and be done with it all for the day.

Shaking my head

Well I got alot done yesterday around the place with all of it on the cheap side.  I also got out for awhile yesterday while I was at it all.  So now here at least there is alot more work to be done today here along with some baking for the weekend also while I am at it all.  The nice thing about all of this around the place is that I do not mind some things at all that will be done on the cheap side.  My Husband started laughing yesterday when he asked how many bean plants came up.  I told him 10 at that point and 4 more came up after 6 hours after we talked.  I guess that the dirt that we got will work totally and I know where I got the stuff from the wife is happy about her stuff that is growing also from the same pile that I got mine from.  Now at this point in time I will be working over time when the veggies really start this year totally with freezing along with cooking.  I also have a feeling that I may get another deep freezer also this year for what we have going on in the garden.  So now at this point in time that is my cheap end of things for sauces since I really do not need some things in the household this year even though I have them on hand of course.  Pluss I told the neighbors on both sides here to come over if they want anything out of the garden since they do help out in the winter time also.  Either way here there will be alot going on by Augest around here.  Some folks will miss that part of course and that is fine by me.  I look at it like this since I did pay some back after all said and done here and I got dropped for asking one simple thing it is their loss not mine.  Also I did hear some things that happened and it is not on me here at all since the gal had the money to pay some of her bills before she took off again and needless to say some things got cut off on the gal.  So now here I had a good laugh on Sunday in what happened and that is how it goes after I told the gal in what to do to keep the bills low at her place after she did not want to listen at all in the advice that I gave her.  Then again she had a good teacher before her husband passed away also spend now and screw tomarrow with the bills.  To where most of us pay the bills first nomatter what then what is left over that is the rest of the month for gas, groceries, and other things for the household.  I have ran my place pay check to paycheck for years and got alot farther than some that I know and use to know around the area.  Even a close friend has been doing in what I have done for years here and found out he could get farther with more money in his pocket by the end of the month.  So now at this time at least I can say that some of the things that I do work out for the best around the household and I have alot more that I want to try out also this winter of course.  The funny thing here is that I do some things that some would not expect me to do and as a dear friend said to me almost 3 weeks ago that I am the cheap one out of the bunch that hates to spend on a lavash life style period.  The man was right on that part and that is how I have been over the past 20 pluss years.  So now here at least I can say that I do think on alot of things before I do around the place and go from there.  That is what makes me wander up to a point about some folks in the area that just do not care about some things that goes on in the real world.