Shaking my head

Well at this point in time since I have went alot cheaper here for the household I feel that much better about what I was trying to do when we first moved into the place.  Also it has helped out when I have been going down to Punxy also here for the past 2 months.  When I got dumped four and a half months ago here I thought ok this can work out for the best here and I can pick up and go here for part of the weekend once a month totally without someone cutting me down for it all.  I knew that I was on the right path and or track for the household here is when I got cut down for what I was trying to do then for getting the cheaper dish soap for the place at the time.  Also I never figured that the bills would drop almost 50 dollars pluss also for the place also without one person being here for 2 days a week.  So as I sit here after I took a hard long look after some had dropped me totally at first I knew in what I could do for the household and got alot of it done by the time that the person wanted to come back and I told her no forget it, it will not happen again.  I am not saying in what was all said 3 weeks ago here and that is that.  All I can say is that I am feeling better about things and myself here without some people here.  Also the last trip to Punxy that I took this past weekend here made me realize that in why I said no to alot of things here and why I can pick up and go now here without the worry about in what I do or say here period.  With that and the bills going down here for the place along with alot less pain that I had to deal with I even noticed a huge change in myself here that it is ok for me to get that much cheaper and that I can clean house here without the worries at all.  Also I can get that much cheaper totally without being cut down to the ankels and dropped on the curb.  Since there are things that are sticking around the place now also it does not seem that bad anymore in what I was trying to do in the first place here.  Maybe that is what scared some people in what I was trying to do and over comping for when they were coming over without it all working in how I wanted it to at the time.  So now at this point in time here since I have been using less of things and switched alot of the cleaners and food over again here for the household, it has became alot cheaper on the wallet along with other things that have happened for a flipping good reason.  With the surgery a year ago tomarrow here I have had to think of myself first for a change here and what was the best situation on what and how to handle things totally.