Finding out

Well I have found out that true friends are hard to come by period here.  I have some that have stuck with me thru thick and thin and that is it and they have been with me over 20 years here also.  I have grown bitter over some folks here in the area that I am in now since they grew my trust and slammed me to the curb totally over the past 18 years.  This is why I have stuck to myself over the past 18 years in NY State since most are holyer than thou with their attitude here in this state.  This is why I do not trust many folks here in the God forsaken state of NY at all.  In what I should do is name names and be done with it and will not here at all since apparently Whyoming is the same dang way as the norther states normally are here go for yourself and screw everyone in your path also here.  That is why I was not bothered by the gal who dropped me here 4 months as of today and came crawling back here last Monday saying that she supposadly loved me and missed me here totally.  Then in the same breath they called me a name caller and a liar also when I have said nothing but the truth and did not name call except for myself in how I felt at the time and yes I called myself a Drunkin Bitch since I could not get any meds at all after the 6 month span after my surgery here almost a year ago.  The meds have ran out since the one aunt took some off of me and I could not replace them at all except illigally.  Trust me I refuse to go to jail for stupidity or anyone else at this time still 6 months later after dealing with all of the pain and stress that has went on.  When the person Texted me instead of calling I knew the person had not changed at all and it felt like a metal bat hit me again with my neck and shoulder blades in almost 4 months when she did what she did.  After the power bill went up to almost 100 dollars with the person here I knew that I did not need the user and abuser here what so ever and that does not include other things that went on.  I will post things later after I calm down more and refuse to lie for the person at this point in time PERIOD.  When I had left for 2 weeks here and get told oh I forgot to put the garbage out and the city is here on my toush for it she did not forget at all here after I dropped 4 bags off at the trailer since we still owned the can at that point in time and had 3 bags left not including what I had since that Sunday when I got home totally that is piggish in my eyes.  Even pigs are cleaner than that on the farm lands in Illinois and other places.  As I sit here now and look at things I knew in the back of my mind in what the heck was going down after the first month after I got dropped and it was ok by me.  I guess it did not matter in how I was feeling at all and tough beans on me with others and I let some know about it.  All I told some peoples daughters that life is not what meats the eye and ment it her mother did not tell her all the bad with the good also and I knew the same gal lied her toush off to her daughter.  Knowing that she did not say why the coffee table was flipped and I was in the right for telling some as a friend and a baby sister ya said this to me and lied to me also.  I did not even say that the gals husband wanted to sleep with me also to the daughter since it is not my place to do so at all since that is her mothers job if she knows about it.  The electrition was no angle at all and I know this.  I told him no since I respected his wife at the time and it is the same gal that burnt me 4 months ago today.  I have kept quiet over the years totally and did not say much at all about what went on here or at the trailer.