Got it now

Well after about 3 days worth of total pain here and now know of why I have not bothered with some at all anymore for months I am getting it now.  Yesterday I could not push myself at all with cleaning here and still got some things done in the household.  So now at this time I have realized in what happened totally and part of the why's that some things did happen the way that they all did.  In the past year here I have been thinking that if I could just off set the bills just enough to where I could handle them with some folks coming and going in the place then I would not get screamed at and/or jabbed at constantly.  The jabs were worse with some people coming over since I knew that the stress was alot of the reason for the pain that I was going thru here with my neck and upper back, since I could not clean like I wanted to or how my Husband thought I should for the household at the time.  With that being said I was doing things right for trying to cut the bills down and learned it was not me at all here.  Since I was off setting the bills so much at the time along with other things for the place it has harmed my process to heal quick also.  After all said and done here with all of the bills coming in after Febuary here my Husband noticed that alot of things have went down and I have been doing the same things that I was before here with the exception of the kitchen lights being turned off and the dryer not being used.  At the time I could not say much about it since my Husband did offer for some to get their laundry done here and the person did not want to listen to when the peak and off peak hours were and still are to this day.  So now at this point since some things have calmed down once again here and I have noticed alot more that I have done for the place at this time, I have made alot of good choices here that are relevant to what was going down.  That is part of the reason of why I have switched alot of things over here in the household and it was part of off setting the bills anyway.  I was to the point of why spend 3 dollars on something if not more to get the household clean here so I started thinking of what would be the best way to get something done even with the back stock for the household.  The first thing was to switch the laundry soap around the household since the 14 dollar soap was not hacking it with the dirt and grime in the laundry at all.  So I switched over to the 8 dollar bottles of laundry soap and it made a huge difference on everything here.  After that I figured ok now with the rest of the place I can switch over and see how it all goes also and that is when I got cut down and dropped on the curb also here for what I was trying to do.  Now at this point in time I have noticed also that the non ultra dish soap lasts as long as the ultra soap here in the place and another good choice that I have made here for under a dollar per bottle of soap on that part.  So now that I am free to do other things also for the household here while I am at it all I have noticed that the stress levels have went down along with I am happier also about alot of things.  If I knew this all before I would have put my foot totally down here and have been done with it all way before it all blew up in some folks faces.  Also since I was cooking alot from scratch and going that much cheaper also for the groceries here in the household way before I moved into the house some folks did not like in what I was doing at all with that part of things.  I did not see nor hear some people that came over to the house here offer to help out at all for things.  Others that did come over did offer to help with the dishes right infront of others.