Cruddy day

Well it is trying to rain already here and it will be cruddy today weather wise.  With that part at least I do not have to get out and water the garden at all once I think of it.  That and free water never hurt anyone at all on that part of things.  So as I sit here at this point in time already and think of all the things that need to be done here for the household it is on me.  Also I am waiting for my husband while I am at it all to call me.  I am guessing that it will not be that bad for the day at all anymore.  Also since it is the first of the month here I will have to pay bills nomatter in what I do for the day with or without my Husband here totally.  That leads up to that I do not want to drive at all here today.  With the rain and the older folks in the area it is not a good sign nor mix at all at this point in time.  I guess that I could walk to one place here that is not to far away at all and get wet pluss, pick up the nickels along the way also.  Since it is coming up on the year after the surgery and the 2 year marker for the accident I guess that I am freaking out about it already.  Some folks understand in what I am going thru here totally to where others do not have a clue at all about it.  Even when I go past the one streach that I got hit at I still feel like my stomache will learch on me.  That is the bad part about that here and now since some places are right there that I have to go to for the day.  So now I am wandering in how I will get some things done already for the day and not even freak out about it here.  Now at this point I will see what I can do around here and wait also while I at it and try to be as cheap as possible also here.  That is one good thing for the day here so far.  When I can cut the costs on things here without even thinking of what to do at this time I feel better about things.  Oh well lets see what I can do here so far and be done with it all for the day.