Knowing here

Well I knew that I should have went and got my Husband the other day from the shop and got told no don't even bother.  After all the mess here with almost another foot of snow and my Husband calling me to say Honey I wll be there in about an hour last night.  I started laughing and said I told ya so.  Then the big question of where do I park tonight also came up.  Between the Alt. parking and no parking on the streets from November 1-April 1 it is just plain out nuts on alot of things.  My thought after hanging up with my Husband last night that was ya should have shoved the one thing messing the driveway up this past summer period anyway and we would not have this problem.  So after all said and done my Husband still has not took the hint at all and that is how it all goes on my part.  Anyway I have found out that the bank also wants the higher insurance rates for the house here also and that will not even happen this year at all again.  I saved about 100 dollars within one phone call and that is with the payments on that part.  Never tell someone like me here with the cost of living and tough shit along with deal with it.  There has not even been a claim for the insurance period within the 5 years and 2 weeks that we have had the house.  That does not include other bills that have rolled in on me also here at this time and it is a pain for that part.  Part of it is the Obama crap also that started the other 2 bills here also.

As I sit here

Well at this point in time I get to sit down before the morning starts to explode on me here.  Yes I have to pick up gas before I take my Husband out to the other truck and have to jump the sucker off of my truck here also.  Not the thing that I wanted to do this morning at all.  Since all the snow fell last week here in the Buffalo area my one doctor canned the appointment and I get to go this week of course also.  So it will be one of the weeks that I should stay in bed and will not be able to do so at all here on my part.  Another thing that I have done in the past week here on my part is down load the Walmart app for my phone.  I ended up with $3.23 in cash back so far off of what I got a week ago.  It all works out in the end anyway for to help out with the budget for that part of it all.  Now to let the rest of that part of things add up so I can do some damage to another bill when I get there from now on.  Anyway now to try to start the day on my part and see in where I land up of course.

Wandering

Well I did get out and about this past week on my part.  Some of it was now a good thing here after sitting in the doctors office for 2 hrs. and I made another appointment for this up coming week also.  As the one doctor swears that I need to go to the gym for my neck this go around and I laugh still about that part of it all still.  What can someone else tell me here that they can help me with that I am already doing to what they want me to do.  Alot of the times I just hope that I do not fall from the walks that I take and pick up the nickles still at this time.  The falling part here is within part of what I do for the nickles anyway.  So after all said and done on my part I am doing in what I can anyway for alot of things to help myself out.  Anyway at this time I am still working on alot of things still to get that much cheaper for the place and some of it has worked.  That includes the insurance on the house also still.  The insurance told me because of the cost of living has gone up so does the insurance rates for the place and tough deal with it also at this time.  Well that was not a good answer for the womans part to me over the phone at all.  So I started on the phone calls to see in what I could do here for that part of the bills.  One call latter and almost 200 dollars less for more coverage on the household I can deal with that part totally.  And the storage unit is gone also as of about 3 months ago also while we were at it all.  After all said and done I won in alot of ways on my part also here at this time.  Now I have to start plotting for the day and see in how much I can get done also while I am at it all also.

Shaking my head

Well I was trying to re budget the household bills here in the past several weeks and figured out where I was going totally wrong here on my part.  Plus I almost fell out of my chair when I talked to the one insurance company totally yesterday.  I asked why the insurance company in why the rates for the house went up and the answer was it was the cost of living and deal with it.  My answer back was fine and I will fix that part of it since I do not have any claims that I had filed also within 5 years.  I dropped the yearly rates by 115 dollars by one phone call also within about an half hour and got set up on a payment plan also while I was at it yesterday.  Also that solved the huge problem with other things here for the budget and alot of stress that was going along with it all for trying to come up with the money for everything else that was coming in for the bills and an inspection on the truck.  So this means that I will still get out for the walks on my part and split the money that I pick up along the way of course between the 3 accounts that I have.  It will help to pay the insurance and other things for the household at this time also.  So with that part said I will also be getting alot more runs here for my walks and that means also more money coming in on my part.  So I will not be as stressed out over trying to scrape up money for things also.  Now to figure out in how many hours that I will be out of the household and go from there.

Tired

Well I got tired of waiting for my Husbands help here and started doing yet again.  Waiting every 6 hours for the one drain to go down so I can get another load of laundry kicked out gets old and quick.  So with that part I went to the laundry mat for some things here for the household and will go back this week totally on my part to get the rest of the laundry done that is here in my place.  Since everything has been piled up on me yet again at this time I am beginning to wander in what I am doing wrong yet again.  I will get it all worked out again on my part and go from there.  It seems that almost everything has went out the window also in what I have been trying to do myself in the past 5 months and I have to start doing again on my own to get back to where I need to be also.

Shaking my head

Well at this time here at least I can say that it was a good thing my Husband did not see in how much I picked up last night on my walk.  He looked at me and said well it was 30 cents for the walk and not wanting to argue over it all I said fine what ever for that total on what is here.  Normally I do take my time for the walks that I take and figured why bother to speed race threw the area since it is not worth my feet going numb at all.  My Husband has not figured that part out as of yet untill my one foot went numb and started swelling when we got back also after I took off my shoes.  I can tell the man over and over do not walk so fast here since I am doing in what I have to here to get and save the money up for things.  This is why I do not take my Husband at all on my walks still to this day after he figures that it is not worth my time at all for in what I do.  My Husband finally figured it all out here on what has been going on when he pushes me also for some things and it has not been good at all.  My feet started doing this since the last accident and I can not help that part of it all now.  So I will leave my Husband home from now on while I am out for the walk and go from there.  Also here there are other things that are going down and I will know by Thursday by the latest when the mail gets here to the house if the person was lieing or not to me over the phone as of yesterday here with 2 calls that were made to the place and I got ignored totally.  By the 3 rd phone call I blew up and that is how it all goes.

Shaking my head

Well at this point in time here I have to work on several sopts of the household no matter in what I have to do for the day.  That goes along with the walk tonight here of course on top of it for tonight.  Even my Husband noticed that my back and neck just said no more yesterday after the pickles that were made yesterday after we got back.  So now at this time here I will have to get more canning jars washed for the day and the kitchen somewhat cleaned up before I can start again for more pickles and to get to the shreading process for some of the veggies to put back into the freezers of course.  So after all last night here I did get some things done along with a load of laundry put into the washer to auto soak and to rewash the load this morning of course.  I always have the one load that I have to do that to at this time since what is there is totally nasty anyway for that load.  So now to really start thinking after this past Friday and what was going down also that afternoon.  I should have told my Husband to go ahead to the office here and let me have a bigger bag untill he could get back to get me.  I found out that I could get more nickles to where we were and get my walk in also for that day than what I get around the area where the house is at this time of course.  So it is something to think about for the week here and go from there.

Thinking again

Well yesterday it all hit me in why I should have done alot more in the first place with my walks.  With this week it should be ok in what I need to do and go from there of course.  The coffee pot was the first thing to go wrong for the day of course and now I know other things that have went on also here that were not suppose to at all.  With that said if a service is not done then do not cash a check untill it is done period in my eyes here and the guy cashed the check anyway on me.  So now to hunt the person down for the money that should have never went out anyway along with the money.  Plus the storage unit is done as of today here and that is an extra 165 dollars that is not going out of the household budget anymore for the month.  I will say that it will be a good thing here that the money for that part is not going out anymore also for the stuff that is not wanted nor needed at this time.  Now is the time for the huge garage sale that I have wanted to do here for the place over the years.  In what the stuff is really worth and what I paid out in storage unit fees per month also is not even going to come close on niether side of the deal.  Plus my Husband found out that the garage is not big enough also for all of the junk that has came to the house also from the unit.  So now at this time here I have to deal with alot more than what I need to here and that is how it all goes.  So lets see in what I can do here for things this week and go from there.

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that it has been a fairly bad 18 hours so far already.  With having to pick up my Husband here along with the huge guilt trip he laid out for me when I did not want it along with the coffee pot going this morning also it is not a good thing.  So I have already been to Walmart already this morning and the coffee pot has been replaced totally for the household yet again.  Why I am shaking my head is that my Husband figured that since the coffee was not even bothering to get hot last night here when he turned it on that it would work this morning.  So I came out did my normal for turning on the computer and the coffee pot and no coffee within a half an hour that was it I was done.  So while I am in Walmart by 3:45 am and standing infront of the selections of coffee pots I got the double pot and k-cup combo and got out and back by about 4:05 am.  Ok so it took me longer to drive than to make up my mind on things.  Also since I have to head out to another store today it is the perfect excuse to get the cheap k-cups here from another store.  So now to see in what I can do for the rest of the day besides cook and clean for the day here of course and go from there. 

Thinking again

Well I have been thinking yet again here for the household along with other things.  I was on a crash course with this past weekend here and what I had to get done and ended up sleeping for most of the day yesterday also while I was at it.  With that being said here I have to get some things done nomatter what is going on for today and get alot of the veggies cut up along with down in the freezer also.  It will help out when I get to shredding in what is here already and it will be easier to use up once I get started on that part of the household.  Since alot of what is going on is falling back on me here yet again to just do and it maybe a good thing that I am alone in the household at this time.  So while I try and gear up for the day I will be sitting around and thinking on how and when I will start all of what needs to be done for the place yet again.

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that I do try totally at this time.  Part of the laundry did get done yesterday and that is how it all goes on my part.  Oh and my Husband was totally wrong in alot of things also when he told me something here 2 months ago.  I kept my mouth shut of course and went on with it when I seen for myself at the storage unit.  So it looks like I have a bike again and at least this one will not get sold unless I do it on my own also at this time.  That is the breaks of moving here and not grabbing everything that was there when I left along with not having a big enough car, van, and or truck at the time also.  So now I will do in what I have to here to save the gas money for the truck during the week with the bike and peddal my toush around along with walking.  The bigger hauls here I will take the truck of course when the time comes.  Now at least I am making some head way here for the budget from now on and see in what I can also cut from now on in the household also while I am at it all.  The nice thing is alot of the places that I go are not to far away from the house anyway and will be able to do alot more since I hate to drive still at this time.

Shaking my head

Well after going threw a huge bag of corn on the cob here I was just done.  Pluss no phone call from my Husband to say hey I am going over here to help out also did not help matters out at all.  So after all said and done all that he said was baby dont get mad because I had to help someone out.  I rolled my eyes and said what ever and what about the gals looser boyfriend to help her out.  I already knew that answer on things and the term weekend dance came to mind.  So after all said and done I had to remind myself here in why some things have happened and in why I went cheaper after all for the household.  At least after all I ended up with alot of things that are just stocked up and the bills got alot cheaper also in the past 2 years.  Now as I sit here and plot for the week in what I have to do here along with several other things also I will get it all done I hope along with the walks.  There is alot that I have to think on still here on my part and to keep calm threw it all here also.

Good days

Well I had a good day the other day on my walk.  If the guy reads this a HUGE Thank You again for stopping me here on the walk that I was taking here in the one area that I was in.  The guy gave me hope after Wednesday during the walk that I had and someone screamed at me.  I will not repeat in what was screamed at me and I hope that the boy does not call his own mother in what he called me that night.  That is all I will say about that part of it here.  So now as I sit here and will get some things done for the day here in the house so I do not feel that bad for taking yesterday off totally from almost everything that I should have done also for the day.  Some days I just need a break from everything that is going on here and that is that on my part.  So after all said and done I need to get parts of the house here picked up and folded for the day so I can start all over again on things that have to be done of course.  The next thing is that some things will never change also in what I do for the place that is cheap.  I am just thankfull here that during the week I can pretty much have things off and be done with it that way while I am here alone in the household.  The wierd thing is that I may get 3 loads of dishes per week along with maybe 4 loads of laundry also by the time my Husband gets home also from the road.  Alot of the time the towels can wait untill I am almost out of them here for the household to be hung out on the lines here also while I am at it an that part saves money also for the place.  That is the nice part about in what I do here for the place at this time.  Of course I still get slack from one neighbor here for hanging the laundry outside instead of running up the power bill totally during the good weather months of the year.  When I found out that the ones next door have a 400 dollar water bill and a power bill to match that also I about fell over about it all.  I have seen one power bill at 180 dollars last year and that was the highest that I have had here in the house and the water bill is always under 100 dollars when that comes in the mail.  As I sit here and wander about some things here totally I figure that it is not me at all alot of the times and try again to revamp the budget to get it lower for the place also in the coming months.  So now to start getting things done for the day here and go from there untill I get the phone call to go get my Husband here totally from the truck.

Thinking again

Well my Husband had brought up something to me on Friday on the way home of course and I had to think of it totally that night.  All I could tell him is that when I see it going down then I will believe it here in what was said totally.  On top of it I told him that his age had something to do with it and it may not even happen also in what is going on.  So now my Husband has seen my point here along with myself trying to get that much cheaper here during the past couple of weeks here also on top of it all.  I may as well along with walking alot more also while I am at it all for the weeks to come for myself and the household also.  So now to do alot more thinking here for the place and go from there of course and see in what I can come up with at this time to make sure that some things do not happen period again.

Wandering

Well at least I do not have to wander about when some things were gonna hit yet again with the one neighbor being just plain out nasty here.  Yesterday my Husband was home for a few hours and started helping me out in the garden of course since I could not reach some things at all.  With that help I was happy here totally untill the neighbor started getting just plain out nasty again.  All I can say about that part is that I have figured that the guy was totally mad that the garden took off yet again this year and his did not bother since they do not water at all.  So I waited untill my Husband and I got in the house to say anything about the comment that the guy said and knew that he is not worth my time anymore anyway.  Also I have been staying away from from some anyway and I am better off for it all.  With that part this is why I get out eather really early or really late for my walks here in the area also while I am at it all since I get left alone from the one neighbor here totally and the other asks in about how much I got for the day.

As I sit here

Well it will be a long day today here of course.  Since I refuse to bake during the daylight hours of course and my Husband not understanding why it makes me wander where his head really is here at this time.  So as I sit here and think of a good night to bake for the household I may as well just pick a day and see in what I can do for the place.  I have to many veggies that need to be cooked down at this time to not do in what I need to do for the household at this time.  So I figure a long nap if I can for the day and go from there.  Also I have been trying to save money nomatter in what I do here for the place and it has not been working to well at all.  I have gave up on the weekends to try to do anything at this time that is cheap.  My Husband has made sure that it goes that way also here for the place and knowing that it drives me up the wall in what he wants to do nomatter what.

Skaking my head

Well it looks like I will be busy for most of the day here in the household.  Since my Husband swears that I can bake for most of next week for the place here and looking at the weather report it ain't gonna happen like he wants me to here.  Unless I pull an all nighter and bake during the night here when it is cooler outside and nothing else is running except the radio.  Or I find a way to block up the kitchen area to the main room here in the house.  So I will figure it all out today in what I have to get done for the place totally and go from there.  I will admit that I have already picked out of the garden here and the stuff that I picked is huge already at this time also again this year.  So now to shake my head and see in what I can do for the week here and see what is needed for when I do start to bake for the household and pull it all back yet again.

Shaking my head

Well getting up late and having to run right away here is never a good thing on me at all.  So I got that part done and without the walk so far today.  Since I know that I need to walk I will get that part in tonight of course with another spot that I have found here in the area.  The bad part is that I will have to stick with it for the weekends on my part to get the walks in nomatter what.  All my Husband could say was to go for in what I was thinking on that part of it all for the walks.  With that being said here I may just top my old totalls for the house and the what was about 140 dollars a month in where I have been walking here in the area.  I know that it does worry some of the people that know me just within what I do in the mornings totally without even the kids here when they were coming over.  The pay was just not worth it anymore here in what was going on then to waste gas because of what the parents did or did not want at the end of it all also by that time I was totally fed up here with it all.  Also within one night on the walk that I had on Friday night here in the area I ended up with 3 days worth of pay within about an hour and a half instead of the 30 hours it would have took me watching the girls.  So where am I going wrong here totally with the walks compaired to babysitting all week long.  And some wanted to cut me down for what I have been doing since I was not good enough for the walks here according to at least one person.  So lets see in what I can do in the next several nights and mornings in the area and go from there totally with this week.

Shaking my head

Well I feel a little better now since everything has sank in totally.  Also lastnight was not a bad night at all after all said and done.  I have figured that I got about 30 dollars in nickles in total where myself and my Husband were after the fireworks also while we were at it all.  So it was a good night in the one spot along with my Husband swearing that we only got 20 dollars.  If I can do that everyday here in the area it would not be so bad at all.  I guess this is what I get for trying to over do in what went on totally for about 3 months also.  Now that I can go cheaper than ever before also while I am at it all when I am here alone it will not hurt me in anyway from now on.  This also means alot more walks on my part from now on.  That is only part of in what I have to get done for the place.  The other part here is that I have to crack down harder on myself also on turning things off and keeping them off.  Also here with summer underway it will not be to hard on that part from now on.

Shaking my head

Well at this time I have tried here to cut down on things totally and it has not even worked at all.  So as I sit here already and think of other ways to get my point across to some in the household it makes me wander still in what is going on and how to get it all done.  Since the dryer is no longer in use period unless I really have to use it for some laundry it may be a good thing in that department.  I also found out that some have bills that are really up there in price also at this time.  When I get 4 maybe 5 loads a week in my place to where the one neighbor gets 4 loads if not more a day in their place at this time.  I was in shock almost in what some will do at this time.  So now at least I do not have to worry about that part in my place at all and that is how I like it.  Another thing at this time is that I have figured that I have less dishes to get done during the week in the household since I am not babysitting anymore at this time.  So there is another water saver that I have been doing for the place.  Ok so the garden needs water and that is where I make up for that part of it all.  All in all the return on the garden will be huge again this year and I do not mind that part yet again here also.  For this week also is that I will go with an all veggie day to help out on some things.  Ok I found out some things from the doctors office and it is not good.  This is why I have stopped babysitting totally since the girls do not have a clue as to what is going on at this time and the parents could care less here also if I go face first down on the floor or outside.  It goes to show in how different that I grew up in another state and had to watch others suffer also over the years to where some have not even noticed or did not care period on what was going down in the household.  So now I will see in what I can do for some things that need to be done for the day and go from there at this time and will wait on other things while I am at it all untill I can walk and sweat it all out yet again today.

Shaking my head

Well at this time I have stopped pretty much sitting for the kids.  Bummer that I did try and wasted so much in the place for the 2 girls here also.  So now I will be doing the walks more often here more for myself than anyone else also from now on to make up for the 10 dollars a day here.  With everything going on plus extra stress I guess it is all for the best that I got away when I did this week.  The better part is that I can pick up and go when I want along with when I need to also here from the household.  It is one of the things that I did not say about the youngest is that it was naps along with her being scared to death to leave my place totally when I had her.  So now I will be saving money from now on with the bills along with other things that I had to fight the youngest on totally since she would not listen hardly to what I was telling her.  The next thing is that I will be able to just do from now on and not worry about if I will wake up someone from a nap.  Now I can go back to a rutine here for myself and go with it from now on.

Thinking again

Well I can say by today here I have been pretty much been thinking about cutting costs and have came up with several ideas on that part in what to do again.  Since the laundry will go out on the lines nomatter in what I do here for the place that is not a problem at all on that part of things on the list.  Another thing that I have been doing is turning off the T.V. and modem also during the peek hours of the day also.  The child has not got that part of it at all in what I have been doing and is so use to the T.V. being on at her place that it is not even funny.  With that being said here there are things that the child has seen me do here in my own place that she does not understand in at all.  Refilling bottles is one of the things that she tries to fight me on here since I like the smaller bottles for the dish, laundry, and hand soaps that are liquid.  Also at times the girl will fight me on a hot lunch for the day while I am at it 3 times a week here in the place.  Since I will not let the girl garbage it up at all like she is use to, it is just tough cookies on her part of it all.  So I will be doing alot more like making cheaper meals for the household yet again along with many other things that have to be done on the cheap.  This is part of the reason of why I do not mind walking alot of the times also from the household and the child has not got that part of it all niether.  Just like on Thursday the child thought that we were going to take the truck or the stroller to the corner store here from the house.  Niether of them happend at all since we both walked to the end of the street.  This is why I say that the child has not totally learned at all in what I am trying to do here for the household at this time.  So now I am wandering also if I am doing the right thing by trying to be cheap also for the household also while I am at it all.

Shaking my head

Well all I can say is that I am thankfull that my temper got in the way of my Husband last week here with one parent that is always late in picking the child up from my place.  As my Husband says just do not say anything at all most of the time anyway here and let yourself be walked over all of the time.  With that being said within 2 months that have passed the one parent has been late most times except the two that I can remember here.  So in the times between here that I will have the kids and hope that one parent is not always late here so I can get my walks in also on those 2 days that she gets picked up.  Anyway now at this time there are ways that I can get things done either way for the household nomatter in what goes on here totally and dang the luck on others from now on.  Since that is one of the things that my Husband started screaming at me for this weekend anyway for what was all going down.  I had stopped asking, begging, and pleading with my Husband 16 years ago to help clean up at the trailer when I had just a pathway to go threw with along with not being able to do here now at the household also.  So needless to say that I just went ahead and did anyway here so it was done after I asked yet again.

Thinking again

Well I got some more advice lastnight here totally.  The person who gave it to me was right and still right here totally in what she said.  Now there will be alot of changes here in the household and I know that one little girl that will not like it at all after I start in what I have to at this time.  Since I already know that I will get the kids twice a week this summer all night at this time since why bother to move them when it is 9 pm or later.  The girls will have to learn in how to brush their teeth on their own here since I do not get paid enough to brush their teeth like their momma does at this time.  Also they will learn that I am not the one that is the maid also and will have to pick up the toys along with other things at this time in the household while they are here.  With one child the picking up on her own will start right away as of today in the place totally.  I know that I can not keep up with everything here and the child did say that she liked to clean anyway on Friday and that was my cue to start in on that part of things anyway here in the place.  Also I have found out some things anyway last week here in the household and remembering what it was like in not to hear as a child while I was at it all.  It also explains the belly aches while things have been running along with the youngest child.  The other part is that niether parent has took the time to correct the child on her word pronouncing also here over the past 18 months.  I have noticed that also with the child since myself and my Husband will correct her on that part also here.  So now let the work begin from now on and maybe I will have another break thru with the girl.

Shaking my head

Well the garage/yard sales broke out in me today here totally.  At this point in time I have spent maybe 5 dollars and got enough things for the girls to ware here for almost a week in shirts and pants.  With that said at least I will not spend top dollar for the girls who will out grow things quicker than snot at this time.  So I will get the things for pennies on the dollar and 2nd hand for the girls.  With that being said here I do not care who whines and cries at this time on having the 2nd hand things here totally.  So now to really say hey here to in what I normally do for little ones and that is how it will go at this time since I can not afford the brand names totally at the larger chain stores.  Even my poor Husband looked at the one blouse that I picked up for about a quarter and the price tag was still on it at 30 dollars for a child.  I love it when he is in shock totally in what I can do here still for little ones.  With that said the price for the one shirt was breakfast out this morning and for the trip out to Walmart here in what I picked up for the week.  Now to get out and about once a week here untill I can get enough totally for most of the summer and see in what I can get for very little also.

Thinking again

Well I have snagged several of the recipes here again for the household.  Since some of the kids will not eat hardly at all I may as well try some things anyway since I have to eat also here in the place.  All that I have got this morning so far have been on the cheap and easy to make and I have it all in the household totally already.  The nice thing that I have been doing so far with the one child that just will not eat is that I have freezer pops and tell her ya do not eat then no freezer pops for later.  In the past almost 2 weeks in the household the child has pretty much ate almost everything on her plate.  The mother asked in what I have done to get the child to eat and I told her straight out in what I was doing.  After all said and done the child will eat fruits and veggies here since she has a choise here to eat or not to eat at this point.  Alot of what has happened is that nobody has said to the child so far that you have to eat and made her eat totally at meal times also.  I still like in what one of the gals did with her daughter years ago.  Instead of argueing with the child on what was going down for breakfast the child wanted ice cream and she got it with cereal and something else on top that morning.  All I can say is that it worked and everyone was happy that day in the place.  At this time with the child that I have during the week is a picky eater totally and some things the child does like totally.  So it makes me wander sometimes in what has totally been said to the child from one parent totally and that does not include what was said in front of me here also.  That kind of explains why the child is picky on meals also at this time.  At this time I do try to make at least lunch at noon period just for the rutine of things here in my place since the child does not get structure hardly anywhere else also at this time also.  Also the child has said that I was mean to her totally because she can not run me like she does her parents.  All I could do was start laughing and said if I was that mean to ya girl then you would not get the freezer pops, trips to the park, shopping with me here, and walks that we take also at this time.

Thinking still

Well at least I got to think for about an hour or so yesterday evening.  I had a jabber jaws little one in the back seat when I had seen the accident trying to get her home and had to tell her to hush up for a minute so I could think on another way to do.  So after said and done by the time I got her off and on my way it seemed strange that I was alone also.  With that part said I got to think for awhile and did not mind one bit.  I did get some things plotted out for the household and it all may work out for the best here on the trip out to the office.  The next thing is to just do for what I had thought of for an hour.  Also I know that I have to get out of the house more and go from there.  So with the weather getting better for the most part the baby and I will get out more also and start the walks also togeather so I can get use to that part also and then add another child to the stroler.  Along with out to the park with the girls during the week here in the area.  At least I get something out of it along with the girls also.  With the park it is a cheap way to get the girls out and about to burn some energy off during the day.  Also they will eat supper at their place during the week.  So it will be a win win once I get done on that part of things.  One of the rules that I have here in the household is that the girls have to eat what is on their plates in order to go to the park.  If they do not eat then the park is a no go here totally.  So I will figure some other way to get the girls to eat well also here in the household nomatter what goes on.

Shaking my head

Well yesterday was another good day here in the household.  With that being said at this time another lunch was scarfed up before I could turn around and the child was asking for more.  Now here all I can do is hope for the day today and go from there of course.  There is so much to get done here in the place at this time that it is hurting.  All a friend of mine could do was start laughing and said yeppers you're back to work kiddo.  So now to really get the list back up for the weekend for the household and see where I land up along with picking up my Husband of course.  The nice thing about that part is that I will end up walking in a totally different area and go from there for the weekend.  I may as well here since there is nothing else better for myself to do around the household totally and I am only guessing on that part of it all.  The next thing is that knowing in the laundry that needs to be done before Sunday also from the past 2 weeks.

Shaking my head

Well at least several folks shown up at my place yesterday.  Who I was in the hope of coming over never bothered to show up not say hey we are not gonna make it of course.  So as I sit here and figure that there is the leftovers for part of the week it seems that some are gonna not like it and call me mean again.  All I can do is shake my head here about that part and start laughing since I make the child eat here in my place and will fight tooth and toenails over that part totally.  Also I have figured out that some of the things that have been going on was not me and some folks are scared of the CPS workers here in the area.  Since I refuse to run scared here of anyone for trying to do my job to keep at least one child safe in my household.  I think that is why some have never bothered to call on me here in the area.  There are several other factors in play also on that part with myself also.  When a 4 year old child figures that she can run all over me and say I want to go now even when the cart is half full and I have to shop for the place either way that I go I will not leave right then and there because of the child trying to get what she wants out of me at the time.

Thinking again

Well I am thinking again here for the household and other tricks of the traid of course.  So now at this time at least I can do alot of this on the cheap after all said and done for the coming weeks.  I have no choice in the matter and proved that part to myself along with to my Husband also.  Ok so alot of the times my Husband will ignore in what I have been trying to do here for the place and I finally had it up to the eye balls in what gets undone when he gets home also.  Another thing that I have finally came to the point of here is to take it all day by day since it will not work for what I am trying to do for the household and myself.  So now I will start trying again for the up coming week and go from there.  IF I fail I fail here and when some children hit school they will be in the loss anyway here without me and more tearchers are even more brutal than I am here totally on alot of things.  All I can do is try and teach one child that is in my care all that I can here before school begins.  So with that being said here there is alot of work to be done and I will not mind it so much when the other kids are here totally since they all can help out also.  Another thing is that I keep getting half stories here in what the heck is going on anyway and I can only go on in what happens in my place anyway from now on and have caught alot of things from what the father has said and done at this point in time also.  It means that I have to make sure that the kids eat period before they leave and go from there also again.  Looking back in what was going on at the time when I sat for the kids before is that the father would not dress nor feed the girls when they hit the household period.  The one girl would not eat at all except peanut butter and that was it at the time.  Now the youngest is trying the same thing here and that will not fly with me.  I have also noticed that the youngest will not eat and fruit period nomatter what is going on in my place.  That is where I have to work on here and keep putting it in front of her also untill it clicks that hey wait a dang minute I have to eat this also before I get other goodies.

Shaking my head

Well I can say that I just can not understand some things that have went on in the house at all since Monday period.  Knowing that the 4 year old was hungery and in what her father told her also was not good.  The girl told her mother, dad said not to eat at all and the girl got into trouble for telling the truth.  Since I cooked yesterday here for lunch again and the girl told me that she was sick so she did not have to eat at all.  It was like something clicked and called the girl back to the table to eat here and told her tough you're eating.  That and I told the girl once her daddy started paying my bills here and on top of it be here for lunch also to watch her eat then it was up in the air for what she wanted untill then she has to eat here in my place.  It makes me mad here that when a parent tells a child not to eat then turns around and makes calls to the state on the person that is trying to feed the child when they do not eat.  I sat there with the child untill she ate also and went from there yesterday.  When the child realized that I was pretty mad over it here and will not put up with the B.S. here that she along with her father is trying to pull.  Another thing is that I have been pretty even keel for rules so who knows in what today will bring here.  I keep reminding myself here that yesterday and tomarrow takes care of its self here along with today is another day also for the household also.  So now to see in what I can do for the day here and go from there.

Thinking way to much

Well I have been thinking way to much again here in the household.  Since I know that I need to get some things done here in the household done still, that is where I have been thinking and plotting most of it all out yet again.  With that being said here I know it is going to be another Sunday to where some will not even bother and that is fine by me here totally.  Over the years here it still does not seem real for some of the things that have went on and other things just fell apart.  It is not on my end that things fell apart for some people at all.  So in fairness here I did drop the person totally and moved on knowing that the pain had subsided alot after that.  Now at this point I have to really get down to the dirt on things with myself again and just get out of the household more also while I am at it all.  Plus I have figured out several ways that I can get alot cheaper here in the place without a problem at all.  Since the weather has been about 50 50 here I can still get laundry out along with other things that need to be done here around the place.  Also on top of it there are other things that I will be doing here for the household that some will not be able to stop me on at all and tough on them.

Shaking my head

Well yesterday was another day of not eating with the child.  Of course she realized that dad was coming to pick her up again for the day.  Also a melt down when the childs Mother dropped her off here at my place of course.  I have came to the point of throwing up my hands on the matter and just deal with this part of things totally also.  So as I sit here and wander in what today will bring yet again and knowing that anything may go on for the day again I will take it in stride.  I have no choise in the matter and it is not worth my blood pressure to go up to and pass stroke level on an everyday basis.  Also I will have to swallow alot of things since my Husband does not want to hear it with the kids at all so things will go up even more.  Another thing that I have realized is that I am out of my flipping mind for taking the child to the doctors office with me here come Monday morning.  I have already warned the child that she starts then she will really have to deal with me here after we get done.  I will pull out afew things that I have done with my bunch when I had them and it was not pretty then.

Shaking my head

Now at this time I am wandering about the 4 year olds doctor totally here.  Since I do not know the name of the ADHD drug that the girl is on it is still not a good thing at all.  The child has totally slept for 2 days here in my place along with complaints that her belly hurts, not being hungry, wierd dreams, and her heart raceing out of her chest.  So now at this time I am up in the air in what to do about this child who is just a zombie with the drugs and can hardly get out to pay bills and shop unless it is very early in the morning or when everyplace is closed up for the day.  Not only that the child needs to get outside and play, along with getting fresh air instead of sleeping all dang day.  Alot of the problems in todays world with the kids is that they do not get out like we all did and lets pump them full of drugs here also since they do not get outside to play and run.  Gee nowander in why the kids are hyper totally.  I asked the child yesterday in what is she gonna do when she hits Kindergarden here since the teacher will not let her sleep all dang flipping day at all.  The child told me "I don't know".  I see that I will more than not get a phone call to come pick the child up from school here this next year from just the meds alone that she is on.  Either way my hands are tied here and I will have to think of ways to keep the child up totally while she is at my place totally.  Anyway now also with afew things that have went on I am just tired of it all and gave up on alot of things at this point in time.

Will admit

Well I ran into someone yesterday morning at the store.  I had asked if everything was ok and the person told me no and this is what has been going on and what he had been told.  All I could say is that I will admit that I have not been totally out on the 2 streets since about Febuary with picking up nickles here at all and told the person that.  I have no reason to lie to the guy and about gave up for a good while unless I am on the side of the road here since I was not feeling good and just had another surgery in April on top of it all.  I guess someone had told the guy that I was out last week here on the 2 streets and it was not me since I have been over sleeping on Thursdays anyway.  The first week out of surgery it took me at least 20 minutes to get up to either the bank or to another few places here in the area that should have took me 5 minutes at most on foot.  Then also here I have had at least one child with me during the weekdays and alot of times if it is nice out we will walk up to the dollar store and start spotting nickles or scrap at the side of the road that can be picked up along the way.  So it is not like I get alot of money here in the area anyway on my short walks that I take at this time.  It all makes me wander in what is going down anyway and I am rethinking on where to walk at still that I can get the best bang for what I do.  So now to really think of getting out farther than in where I want to go at to walk and still be safe on the walks with or without the kids.

Almost

Well it was an almost smooth day yesterday.  A two and a half nap on the road since I refuse to leave a 4 year old alone and no tears thru lunch at all.  Well it started on a good note untill I locked myself out of the house and still did not give my Husband his money for the week here also.  So I snaged my Husbands keys and made 2 copies so I can get back into the house.  They are hid to where I can get to them and others do not have a clue at all.  When I told my poor Sister this she was like a flower pot kid and started laughing about it.  So inbetween everything now the 2 a/c units are hooked up upstairs here and I have to teach the 4 year old to close the doors behind her totally when they are running.  Now I know in why I wanted a bigger unit down on the main floor here totally.  It is something to think about here totally and it might happen anyway here since the kids that are coming over are use to a whole house unit at this time.  Oh well at least some will learn here totally in what is going on also this summer.  Anyway I hope that today is a good day also here just like yesterday was and I will be a happy woman after this.

Shaking my head

Well I have finally found out a few things and it is not good at all here.  I asked the 4 year old in why she had lied to her mother.  I got the answer first of "I don't know" along with the shoulder shrug.  I asked again here and she told me that she did not want to hurt everyone.  That is when I told her that she called me a liar and it was not a cool thing to do here at all.  Between that and the child not eating here it all makes me wander in what the father is really saying to her at this time.  The other thing is that I can not stay home all of the time anyway here and have to get out and do for the household along for myself.  Since I needed a composting bucket for the household and being told that I am freaking out over nothing anyway, there will be a huge differance in my Husbands attatude by the time next week is over here.  I figure that the girl wants to waste food here in my place and figures that it is ok and my Husband figures that it is ok also then I will make a huge point by throwing all of what the child does not eat here in the one bucket then to show the both of them that hey it is money going out the door here for not giving a damn.  The other thing is that knowing that the meds are messing up the 4 year old anyway I have almost thrown up my hands and gave up on trying to do for the girl.  Even though I will not even budge on if ya do not eat no goodies before ya leave here at all totally.  That and the rule of do not move from the table untill I wipe off your hands.  Well yesterday here the girl started grunting to get up from my chair and I ignored the grunts in the hope of that she would say something here totally.

Thinking again

Well I did get my walk in yesterday morning here totally and will get one today.  If I only knew in what was to come later on after that I would have got my walk in around 6:30 pm here also.  So now since today is another day here and the same old battle will go down again for lunch it is something to get use to here totally yet again.  Since the child did not want to eat yet again she will get her plate from yesterday here again and will have to eat nomatter what is going down.  As I told my Husband I am tired of the waste of food from the child and knowing that I can feed him better here while he is on the road he realized what was going on.  So I will send him off with better food from now on and there is alot more that will be with that part also here from now on.  I have almost gave up on the child for not eating here period.  What got to me the most is when the childs mother said give the child peanutbutter here for lunch and that is how that part will be cleared up.  That part is not an option here at all in my place.  So I will somewhat try from now on on some parts and start pulling back here for things if the child does not eat.  It seems like the park and freeze pops are not doing the trick at all for the child to eat in my place.  Also now since I will be walking more here without the baby in tow in the mornings here I may get lucky on my walks here totally.  Yesterday morning while I was out the one cop said nothing to me while I walked passed him.  So it maybe a good thing at this time here to really start in the mornings again.  I will see in what all happens here this morning and go from there also and may end up getting out of the household here more.

Shaking my head

Well at least I met the kids mom right smack in the middle for the milk totally and we both agree that if the girls do not eat then they do not feel good and have to lay down period.  Knowing in that hot food is better than the dang over processed foods that some give the baby instead it makes me wander.  So now as I told the child and the mother yesterday the baby is getting what she left on the plate in what I gave her for lunch along with cabbage and potatoes here, the child looked at me funny.  The mother said straight out that is it I am here for lunch totally tomarrow.  All I can do is laugh here and knowing that other folks cooking sometimes tastes better than what the person is cooking also.  Now to figure out in what to do since I will not do for this one in what her sister did to me 2 years ago here.  Nothing but peanutbutter and that is it for lunch.  I still have the we will go to the park or for a walk here if you clean off the plate along with a freeze pop here.  My question is what ever happened to the day when we eather cleaned off the plate or we at it later or the next morning and to avoid that part we ate it up.  Also yesterday I was listening to the radio here and one of the canadates for the one school board asked when in the heck did parents get scared of their children here.  I can say about when and the school system did not help.  So untill then I will be trying again today here for the baby to eat and go from there.  I think in what alot of it is here is that I have the jar of peanutbutter out and that is what the girl wants here in my place and I keep giving her hot food instead of the other.  So I get told by the girl that I do not like that and that everyday here.  Now I have came to the point of not giving in and still throw up my hands here totally on alot of parts and just make the girl eat.  Yesterday I told the girl screw you being the middle man here I will call CPS myself and be done with it myself instead of waiting for them to show back up to the house here again.

Still thinking

Well it seemed that yesterday morning was the time that nobody had screaming kids with us at the grocery store.  And I got to thinking on that part of it all.  So the total was higher than normal and that is fine by me at this time since I had to pick up fruit and veggies for about 2 weeks here for my place totally so I can be told that a picky 4 year old child "I don't like this".  After all said here and out of the store yesterday morning I got the truck packed up with the groceries and started back to my place.  Well before I left the parking lot I was doing a quick scan of the one edge of the lot that I was in.  Ok so I am bad for looking for the nickles totally here while I am still thinking on things.  Then the 5 dollars in a shopping cart that has been left behind was a good thing totally in my eyes before I left.  Also I did threatin my Husband for the past 2 days that fine ya want to help someone move I will not and that he could drop me off at the store with all the nickles so I could cash in here totally then walk home.  Since the store is not that far way I know that I can make it back here on foot along with get extra nickles along the way here.  All said and done plans change and tough on some also here in the area at this time.  So I have to really think on alot of things still and walk it all off also while I am at it now.

Shaking my head

Well I finally got to thinking about it here and it was standing in the middle of the grocery store in why the girls will not eat their veggies period.  Now I know in why all of our parents forced us to eat them while we were growing up.  So now at this time I loaded up on the veggies and fruits for the household and worse comes to worse here I will say this is lunch here and ya better eat up.  There are ways that I do things here for my place and I make the kids pretty much clean their plates while I am around.  Also at this time I do send things home with the girls also and knowing that it will get ate nomatter what it is a good thing.  With that being said here the cooking has got alot cheaper for my place and that is how it is.  When there is between 2 and 6 mouths to feed it helps to cut the costs way down for at least one bill in the household in todays world.  With fuel prices going back up all over the place and folks have to eat nomatter what goes on every little bit helps.  So now to see in what goes on when Monday comes around and how at least one girl does again for the week.

As I sit here

Well as I sit here at this moment in time as early as it all is it makes me wander in what the heck I am doing most days here anyway.  Yesterday was nothing but a huge battle with a 4 year old not wanting to eat and made her anyway.  I was trying to get done with the little things here and failed on that part of it all and gave up totally.  It has came to the point of where I waste more food on an ungreatfull child and I can start feeding my Husband better on the road with all that I have dumped out in the past 2 weeks from the child.  I was so mad yesterday that I did not even think about doing some things at all and maybe it was a good thing totally at the time.  Then to get a call from my Husband saying that I have to go get him also.  By the time I got done here in the place for the day along with knowing that my plood pressure was totally at stroke level yet again it all makes me wander in what the heck is going down.  After sitting in the truck for about 20 minutes yesterday with the doors locked and the radio going I finally calmed down enough to where I felt better after all was said and done.  Also it got me to thinking about the ways that I have tried here also to get the ungreatfull child to eat and knowing the parents they will not make the child eat if she does not want to anyway so that the effort that I make is gone to waste.  Alot of what it is at this point is that the child wants me to hand feed her so she does not have to lift her hand to do so here to eat.  On top of it I had went to the one spare room and the child seen the one bucket with the chips in it.  The child asked if she could have some and I told her no since it was not lunch time yet and she almost went into melt down mode.  So I did not give in on that part of it and will not since she will not eat luch unless forced to totally and it takes a good 2 hours for her to eat.  So I am guessing that the one bucket for the truck has to be moved this weekend here and I can not lift it still.  The next thing also here is that I will get more fruit and veggies into the household and make the child eat them also while I am at it all.  I never fought my Momma on eating period at all.  And I never would have asked with a plate full of food can I only take 3 more bites.  So now to see in what today brings here and go from there since I have places to go to also for the day.

Wandering

Well the great food battle is on with a very picky 4 year old child.  So I told the child yesterday that this is what she had to eat for lunch and she did not want any part of it at all.  The child figured that if I do not eat everything then the sitter will give in on some things here in her place.  I can say that I won the battle and the popcicle did not come out niether after lunch nor by the time I dropped her off.  Even the childs mother admitted to me that the child just would not eat for her at all niether and did not know in what to do about it at this time.  All I can say is that cold food is just not right at times and that is how it all goes here in the household.  So now here I will get my point across here that some have to eat and that is the end of it at this time.  I refuse to go to jail for not feeding a child period at this time still.  So it all makes me wander in what is going on here with the child.  Also yesterday I kind of got a comment from the child here in the house and she stopped cold in the middle of what she was saying also.  It seemed like that she wanted to say the whole thing but was scared to do so.  There are ways that I can find out in what is going on and that was not the time to push the child niether yesterday on that part of things.

Shaking my head

Well at least I can say that there are ways of doing things that may get my point across here totally to one person that is late twice a week picking up the girls.  So now I know in what I have to do here and it may work totally.  Now at this time since some do not care that he is late all of the time and does not care at all on what others have to do also it maybe for the best in what I have to do from now on.  The other funny part of it since I do have the truck back and the guy almost ran into the trailer hitch on the pick up.  I had visions of the trailer hitch into a brand new radiator on the guys truck and had to shake my head and laugh about it last night.  Anyway here at least it has been a fairly cheap week here in the household since things have been turned off and food has been cleared off the plate.  I put my foot down on that part last week here totally since the girls did not want to eat period here in my place.  That is one battle that I will win on here in the household nomatter what goes on.  I told the girls straight out you do not eat your lunch here for me then you are not feeling good and have to lay down along with nothing inbetween mom picking them up.  Well it all clicked here with them and they both found out that I was not playing on that part also.  I have gave them a portion that is just right here in the household and know that they can eat what is infront of them without a problem at all.  So I think the next step is to make a call and get the guide lines in how much the girls are suppose to eat here at meals at all times and go from there also.

Wandering

Well I am wandering here if I did the right thing yesterday here totally.  After realizing in what the heck is wrong anyway with some things it seems that I am the only one that gets the little ones out of the house and to play out doors or for a walk.  So that is part of the reason in why one of the kids that I sit for is just hyper along with another intake of problems.  So at this time I am dreading the rain that is coming here totally for most of the week here in the area.  Now to think of ways to work off the energy that the little one has and go from there.  That is part of the reason of why I did not mind not having the truck here at the house all week also.  The funny thing is that both of the girls here do not mind at all picking up the nickles and are 10 cents each up on me from the past week.  When I said something to their mother about it she said that the girls love it when I let them have that part of the walk here near the house totally.  With that being said they have alittle something to look forward to when we go out and do things this summer and can spend the money in what they want on.  Plus it teaches them that you have to pick up this amount in order to get this after also here.  All I can say is that the girls have realized that it is ok to pick up the nickles and it is not benieth them to do so also at this point in time.  Now there is still alot of work that needs to be done with the kids nomatter what to make them understand here that it is also ok to do things on the cheap side of life here since none of us are rich at this time.  So now to start teaching the kids that it is ok to do the cheap ways of life at this time as long as it does not hurt anyone or them.  Anyway now to start somewhat cleaning yet again here in the household so I can be done with it all when the youngest gets here to the house.

Shaking my head

Well it is a hard thing to have ADHD here in a child who is hardly out side to use up some energy period still.  Ok so the child gets outside with me here during the week but otherwise here she does not get out anywhere else at all.  It all makes me wander in some of the doctors out there totally here in Western NY.  So now it makes me wander about the quack that the child is seeing totally at this time and how much she really sleeps at night here also.  So the child has been out cold since she first half hour she walked into my door after she has been dropped off and that part throws me off here also for alot of things that need to be done on my part.  With this being said here my Husband pretty much snapped at me for most of the weekend here since the truck was not here and I was on foot for alot of things also on top of it.  Then he wanders why also in why I am totally done here with the whole thing also.  So either tonight or tomarrow morning I will get out on my own here for what I have to do for myself.  Another thing is all the games that have been played over the years and I refuse to let the father of the kids that I sit here affect me period like he does to their mother and his ex wife.  Since I make no bones in how I feel on alot of things here and do not care period at this point still some will have to listen.  I had the guy pegged from the get go when he hit on me the first day here. 

Shaking my head

Well as I sit here and still no truck in sight at all it all makes me wander in why I even bothered to ask for the truck back on Friday.  Pluss I also figure that I am stuck to the walks and may have to walk to the doctors office 3 miles down the road here within acouple of weeks also while I am at it with a 4 year old in tow.  I guess that my Husband figures that he needs the pick up more than I do at this time even though it is sitting there like a lump an hour away from here.  To top it all off my Husband asked me if I needed milk and I said yes totally since we are out and were at the dollar store and he looked at me and said oh I forgot that we do not have the truck at all.  Pluss now here my Husband will find out in how much that I do here with the truck as of today yet again.  The bad part of it is that I pretty much know that I am on the short end of the stick here totally and can not do a dang thing about it at this time.  So in the mean time I will figure out a way to get things done here in the household even if I have to walk 24 miles later on to get something done totally today.  So now here it all makes me wander in what some are thinking about still for the weekend here and in what I need to get done.

Shaking my head

Well the first week is over here and I am thankfull of that part totally.  The girls have worn me out here along with I have lost weight also while I have been at it all.  As I sit here now and think over the week it has been a long week here and of course the girls did not mind the stroller at all to ride in.  I made it a game to make them stay in the stroller here and that is why they did not mind it.  Plus I did not have to lay in the guilt trip niether here during the week.  With that being said here things did get done nomatter in what was going on and my Husband was in shock here after he came home.  Ok so the girls are getting use to things being done on the cheap side here in my place and that is a good thing totally on my part of it all.  So now it has came to the point to where the girls have realized that I am the cheap one here out of the bunch and I do say no alot during the day.  The nice thing about saying no is that they know in what is going on in parts of life and do not mind it.  That is where some have to remind them selves that it is ok to say no alot more and put the foot down alot more also with the kids at this time.  So there is alot more that some realized that in why I get minded here also at this time.  I refuse to run scared of the kids around here and will put the foot down heavy to make a point.  This past week with the girls here I did not turn on the T.V. like in what they wanted totally out of me and they have learned that there are alot of things to be done during the day here other than watch the T.V. also.  I got asked yesterday do you have cartoons on your T.V. and I told the child no I do not have cartoons and it clicked with her in why it was not on during the day.  There is cartoons and she does not need to know this at all at this time.

A reminder

Well I have to remind myself here that I am not a short order cook period at all.  The kids hate veggies also and I told them they have to eat them in my house nomatter what.  With the oldest girl she told me that her one Grandmother told her that veggies were bad.  I laughed and told the girl that I knew differently and ya better eat what is on your plate in order to get the plate away from her along with getting up from the table also that day.  So with the youngest now she will fight me tooth and toe nail here for eating and I can take away the goodies also from her (she loves freeze pops).  Otherwise here I have been getting outside more and taking the child or children with me here also.  So we get out for a walk at least once a day and I try to make it to where they do not mind being outside at all.  The youngest is already 10 cents up for what I do here since she is with me.  Also I have been really putting my foot down with getting cheaper here in the household while I have been at it all.  I do not turn on the T.V. hardly at all here in the household and the girls do not like it at all.  Since there are rules here in my place still on alot of things that are going on and I have noticed that the girls have watched to much T.V. anyway so far this week.

Almost forgot

Well I have started sitting for the same person that I did about 2 years ago and this go around is alot easier here than what I thought.  Well with the excitment, fresh air, and milk do not make a good combo at all so I almost forgot in what it was like to get nailed by some things.  I got it good along with the poor kid who up chucked and all I could do was laugh and say it is ok baby girl do not even worry about it at this time.  After all said and done here the girl seemed fine and we all went from there.  So I will cut back on the dairy products with both girls while they are here and that is how it will go.  Plus I have a trick that might just help out in this part of it all and it will be easier here on all of us.  Also on the first walk I had asked the girls if they seen anything on the ground worth their while to pick up and they gave me a funny look about it.  So I explained in what I was going to do for them and go from there about it.  It all clicked in what I had told them and the girls are game for it all.  I guess in what helps out is that the girls are growing up and need to keep busy also during the day.  So it all will work out at this time here without a problem at all after this and I do not have to totally put up with the so called father that they have also at this time.  That is another part of why it is easier here with the kids also at this time here since they pretty much have one set of rules for the most part and they can deal with it.  Also the girls did not mind going over to the dollar store with me yesterday here at all.  They got some things to help keep them busy during the time while they are here at my place.  I asked if they would help me with the garden this year and they said yes about it.

Shaking my head

Well we went out to the Broadway Market here in Buffalo NY. yesterday.  It was nothing to get excited about at all and most of what was there I can do myself totally in the household.  All I need is felt, butter molds, and afew other things for to keep busy with then most of it is done.  Other than that there is alot of things that I do get done here anyway just because I do not want to pay extra money at the grocery store still to this day.  All I really got yesterday was a lotion that works well for some things and that was it.  So after all said and done here it makes me wander in what all of the hoop la is about right before Easter is for the place.  And do not tell me it is tradition niether since I will say that the person is full of it right at this moment still.  Alot of things were way over priced and I will not pay 15 dollars for a chicken period.  It is things like that that make me wander in why people will spend that much at the butcher shop and think nothing of it at all.  So just make sure the prices are right for the budget nomatter in where you go and end up at with the shopping end of it all.  That brings me to the other day when I went shopping and busted out every coupon that I could to help out with the total of the bill and still got 2 shopping carts crammed full of groceries and other things that were needed at the time for the household.  At $230.70 is a far cry than $375.00 after all said and done here for the time and trip.

Shaking my head

Well I can say after this past Wensday here I have mastered alot of things yet again here.  Or I just never lost it in the first place with the coupons and the sales.  When I told a couple last night that the Oreo's and the Wegman O's are the same cookie here and ment it they were shocked.  I did work in a cookie factory years ago here for several months and gave it up since my back would not let me do in what the managers wanted so I had to leave.  I got to look at the cards and it was the same cookie.  So it was the great battle on what to get untill I said it is the same thing.  Even though both cookies were a dollar apart in the price and the couple was trying to figure on which one was the best.  Anyway as I sit here at this time and have started on the next list of things to get for the grocery bill already it seems strange here that I have been looking for coupons along with several other things in line to make the next bill get cheaper than the last go around here also at the stores.  With that being said I did save almost 100 dollars in the middle of the week for alot of the groceries that I picked up.  I have figured that I may as well go with the sales, and coupons here for the household yet again and see where I land up for alot of it now.  With most of what I have done for the week here yes I have been on foot and got to pick up the nickles along the way along with the scrap that nobody else wants at all.  When one of the clerks at the corner store here in the neighborhood asked if she wanted me to have her throw out the crushed scrap that I had in my hands this week I about fell over.  My answer was no and it will go into a bag that I have for the scrap yard when I get enough here to take everything in for this summer.

Shaking my head

At this point in time I never knew it was a mandatory thing to say yes to replace blood or use blood by products while having surgery.  I refused of course since I have seen way to many people having to take blood tests after they have had transfusions over the years totally and I see and feel the pain every time they go up for the tests.  So I put my foot down on that part and the one nurse was trying to talk me into it all here last week for the surgery.  When the gal told me that if I did not sign the paper as of then I may not have the surgery and I said fine I will get up now and walk out and that I did not need the B.S. from anyone here period for that part of things.  So the surgery went on thanks to the one doctor that said ok she did not sign the paper and who cares anyway with I do not blame her along with leave the girl alone since she is already frazled out at this time because of it all.  Of course by the time that the one nurse was done I knew that I was almost at stroke level with my blood pressure and what the heck.  So after all said and done I got the surgery that I have known that I needed here for the past almost year and found out other things while I was at it all on top of it.  After all said and done a friend must be really spinning in his grave by now after this one and that is on the person who has done all of this to herself at this point also here.  So there is alot to really think about here and see where I land up for it all.

Shaking my head

Well at this time I know in why I have got away from some people here in the area totally.  With the money that my Husband barrowed from the one gal hereabout 4 years ago and I paid her back with in about a year and a half things got really nasty.  With the cut downs along with other things that had happend also at the time along with myself wandering why the gal was so broke when I know she was making about 40 grand per year also on top of it at the time it started making since yesterday.  Ok so some pretty much laid it on the line in what was going down with the gal and admited that she was still to this day making good money with the job that she is at.  Also it would explain in why the gal had texted me alittle over a year ago also at the time while I thought about all that has went on.  When I told her not a chance here again and there was to much that went on also at the time when the both of us split.  So I did not hear from the gal again after that point in time.  Plus there are other things that have been and will keep going on untill the gal starts to get herself back on track also.  So untill then at this time I will just keep away from the gal untill it all explodes again and see what all happends.

Shaking my head

Well I knew that the one spot that I hit up from April to November would be a good picking here for the nickles totally and was right on that part of things.  Plus there was alot of scrap also while I was walking along for the morning.  What gets to me still is that nobody has been out that way at all so far and I guess that the one area is still mine at this time.  So now with things going on here in the place for the day there is little hope that I will get back out of the house also at this point.  I will see in what happens with that part of it all now for the day and now that I have some help also for cleaning for the day it should not be so bad.  It has finally hit my Husband that I have needed the help for the place for months and he has not lifted a finger hardly to even bother to help out.  I will see in what all goes on for the day and where it all lands up also while I am working on the place.

Something said to wait

Well yesterday here something just said to wait on the walk in the morning and I did.  I did not get out untill about 9:30 am and that is fine by me here when I got up to the bank.  Comes to find out some folks got tickets and I was not one of them since I stayed home.  Now that the parking on the streets has been lifted from the Winter months here unless we get one heck of a snow storm within 2 weeks everything is back to almost normal.  So now I will start the walks in some of the areas that I have hit up anyway from April to November.  The nice thing about all of this is that now I can do some damage for that part of things here totally on the nickel pickups that have been needed to take place without a doubt in my mind all along anyway.  With that being said with walking to the bank yesterday I ended up with 2 crushems and I threw that into the pile of scrap that is already started and found out that it is looking like I am somewhat back to work for the summer months also while I am at it all.  So things are looking up totally for myself along with other things that will be going on for the summer.  Also the girls will be able to help out with the garden while they are at my place and see in how things will grow and be put on the table for food.  This will be a good thing for the girls to learn here in where some things come from also at this time.  Anyway at least there is always something to do and told my Husband that also yesterday.  With that being said I told the man that he will have to start helping me period because of the surgery along with being really tired of getting stuck of doing on my own here for the housework.

Thinking again

Well I have been thinking again here for the household and that can not be stopped at all.  With some things that have been going on for the place and my Husband not bothering to somewhat help me out the past several weekends here it all makes me wander in what he is really trying to do.  So as I have started to think of it all along with other things that are happening it all makes me mad in what is going on.  Just like this past weekend while we were out in another area I had asked for my Husband to stop along the way so I could get my neck and back to somewhat calm down and stop hurting at the time and I got told that there is no reason to stop since he was not seeing things at all at the time.  I gave him a look that scared the crud out of him and said of course you are not seeing the 5 dollars you passed up since ya do not care here at all on the one side of the road.  With that said he shut up about it and went from there.  I have noticed that since I have been picking up more of the nickles along with some things that are just crushed flat on top of it my Husband gets mad about all of it here.  Another thing is that my Husband does not want me to get up the money for several things that need to be done here for the household also after much thought on the whole thing.  So now my Husband will understand in what I am trying to do after I really start on several things also from now on.

Shaking my head

Well I proved a point to my Husband yesterday morning totally.  We were out in another area that I do not mind walking at it is just the parking at the area that stinks.  So after all said and done there was alot that was missed with the nickles since my Husband does not look on both sides of the road period still while we are out of the house.  That is why he almost hit a turkey also while he was at it that was crossing the road.  So it looks like when things start going again here I will start hollering and kicking period for my Husband to stop and pull over from now on.  I refuse to play his game since he does not like to stop at all with the pain that I am in and he does not care also about it.  Of course sitting for 2 hours without moving on my part does not help out at all and my Husband has not got that part of things still years later after the first surgery.  I have tried to say something way before about it and I got ignored totally here about in why I have wanted to get out of the truck in the first place and it was not to walk at all at that point when I first said something about it all.  Now my Husband will understand after all said and done here about some things that I have started hollering about and he will not like it when my legs give out on me yet again when he does not stop when I ask, beg, and holler about it to him.  I will bring that part up today sometime before he leaves and go from there as normal.

Shaking my head

Well at least there are spots that are left here in the household to where I can still hide some things at this time totally.  So as I sit here and have thought about all of in what I have to do with some areas that I do not even want to deal with at this time it is just nuts.  Since I have about a week before the surgery at this time I have this part to whip my toush into gear for alot of things that need to go on before anything else goes on at this time.  So the walks are in order and I have no choise in the matter.  It also goes along with getting my hair chopped off while I am at it for the week.  Even my Husband agreed to that part with making things abit easier for myself to handle at this time.  Amazing in what goes down when I put my foot down on some things here totally for the household.  So in the mean time the walks will get done weather my Husband likes it or not for the week here along with other things as well also.  Since I will be at the bank this week here anyway I will take the money that I have already and turn it in after Tuesday morning.  The nice part about all of it is that some will not know in how much will go into the one account this month at all.  With the week before surgery along with the weeks after that I should be ok since I have to get outside anyway and it is a good thing that everything is close to the house here.  Of course now at this time the one week I will take a hit and that is fine at this point in time.  I will be able to make that part up without a problem at all in the coming months anyway here for the walks and go from there.  Since there are several other spots that I can hit up here in the area and will start screaming to my Husband to plain out stop along the way on part of the drive also from now on.  I am lucky that he will forget some of the totalls that will be picked up and go from there totally.

Shaking my head

Well between the doctors this week and next along with other things I am at my wits end totally.  It always amazes me here in what can get dumped on my lap before each surgery nomatter in what I do at this point in time.  With alot of things going on I am just in the hope that next week goes better for everything.  It should since the first of the month is almost here again and I can park on the street again in the area at times also to walk in other spots.  With that being said it will be more money in my pocket anyway and that is how I like it here also.  Since some of the guys either can not or will not go out any farther than what they have to still to this day it may be a good thing.  Either way here I will make it off of the walks and see where I land up in the next several months here also.  The nice thing is that I will be able to walk more here after Monday anyway and like it.  Anyway my Husband has got the dates so messed up here that it is not even funny at this time at all and since I have the date down here totally I may as well make the call to the office myself for that part of it all.  So now to get the time for the next appointment for the other doctor here so I can make sure that I know when to get out.  All I can do after this point is shake my head and hope.

Thinking again

Well I had a mini walk this morning totally here already.  I did not get anything and that is ok since I got to really think hard for about 40 minutes here for myself.  I know in why I have been trying to keep calm here and why I have failed so far in that part of things totally for the past several months.  Between some not caring at all along with other things that I have been blamed for also it is not a good thing at all.  So now I will get out more and do what I can for the walks along with other things that are going down also here from now on since I can deal with getting blamed for things that I have not even bothered to do as of yet.  When I walk here it seems like I can swallow some things better and keep myself up and going also for the days that some that are not here along with other things.  With that being said here I have took heat for the lap top that I have had for not even 3 years as of yet and others ran it over along with trashing the power supply on me 8 months ago.  When my Husband asked in how old the laptop is yesterday I told him 3 years on Thanksgiving day to be honest I got told not to get nasty with it and I told him that i was not any souch thing and I was still stewing in what his supposed friend had done still at that point along with taking the heat for it all.  I told my Husband since it is still my fault here anyway that I look at it I will save up for another one since I let the person trash it on me along with other things in the house since he does not have nice things because of the 2 younger children in his household.  So now I have came to the point of I just do not care anymore in what I get blamed for as long as I can walk also for myself so I can swallow the bitter powder of getting blamed and accused of things that I had not even bother to do here when I know some have lied their way to the top also.  Friends and sisters come before the wife and I got use to that part period around here over the past 20 plus years.  When I was the one that brought in the steady pay at times and did not have to worry on how much nor little here along with the pay that was bouncing back to the can to beat me home in some of the jobs that were had with my Husband.  So I got really good at streaching out in what was coming in and what was there at the time also over the years.  So I guess that is why I never really left on getting the nickles here and saved them up for things at the store along with many other things that have been going down.

Somewhat laughing

Well yesterday I did get to pay cash for the one store here that I had shopped at.  With all of the coupons that were uploaded on the phone along with other things I ended up saving over 11 dollars and that is without the paper coupons at the time also.  So now at this time I will say that I did fairly well and went from there.  For today I have to make a 2 hour trip of course and see in what all happends between the time that I am gone of course and then for tonight also and that is when I will get the major walk in for myself.  The nice thing about it is that I can dream about some things and still pick up the nickles also while I am at it all without some knowing about it.  Ok so I am back to some of my old ways totally and it will be my gain on this part of it all.  The good old 3 birds with one stone saying of course with the loss of weight, being able to have a clear mind, and pick up money while I am at for the day.  The nice thing about the walks is that I can hide them for the most part here during the week.  Also the cash will not be here in the household even though I know where to hide it untill I can get it up to the one account here for the week.  For some Monday mornings I can get at least 10 cents worth of nickles by walking up to the bank and that is hid away totally by the time everything is said and done.  So with that said I will be trying to do more here for myself and see in what all goes on after this part.  As I told one doctor here I got sick from doing in what my Husband told me to do along with the weight that I have already lost that came back.  Another thing here with myself is that I have fought so dang hard for some things and gave up from being cut down way to much also from my Husband and his one friend.  So now I will say something at the bank and get that part of it takin care of also since I have saved enough money over the past month here for the place while I have been at it all.  Since I have noticed some things on Friday here also and thought it was just totally down right funny in alot of ways still at this time.  That is another post in itself here and will do that part soon.

Shaking my head

Well I took the heat again for some things here in the house that has happened here 7 to 8 months ago and went livid.  As soon as I went livid on my Husband he finally understood in why I was just plain out tired of the crud and why I want out period.  So after all said and done here I won that battle yet again.  Also I won over the walks here that I need to get so I can feel somewhat normal untill the 7th of next month.  All I can do is start laughing about that part since I have been told not to walk by my Husband period in December of course and still had that battle going for almost 4 months on top of it all.  The other thing is here that my Husband noticed that I have been using more and more coupons here for the household and almost went over the edge yesterday while I had to pick some things up that we were out of anyway.  With that part of it all I have noticed that I supposadly have the brain farts still according to my Husband and one of his friends to where I have had none in the past several weeks totally also.  Since I have asked for very little here anyway over the years I did forget to pick up several notebooks of paper and that is fine since I have to drive today and on the way back here then I will pick up several other things on top of it all.  So I shake my head alot here with things that have gone on this weekend and figure that it is all on me nomatter what goes on from here on out.

Thinking again

Well at this point since I have to hide sme things here in the household after this weekend and of course I will get cut down for this part of it all it is ok now with what I am about to start.  I am tired of all the waste here in the house and it is not myself doing it niether at this time.  Here I thought it was myself doing the waste since the move had been made and it was not even me.  The eye opener was when I figured ok lets save back the used foil for the scrap yard to take in and I have seen in how much that was wasted from my Husband totally within the past 7 months.  There is the plastic ware here in the household and almost enough lids to cover everything that is here at this time.  I could not figure out in why we were going threw some things totally at all untill it clicked last night here in what he was really doing.  The bad part has been that I have not felt totally good here for the past 3 plus years and had missed alot of what was going on and still in what is trying to be pulled on me also here in the place.  So I will be making sure that things are not out in the open anymore here in the household and the plastic ware will be pulled out totally from now on also for the place.  What really hurts is that there was no need for what was going on here at all.  Also I have gathered in why my Husband does not want me to walk also at this time since it hit me last night while I was laying in bed here.  Alot of folks that I have broght up the question to here at this time over the past several months is that they would not mind at all if thier wife or other half started walking nomatter what time of year it is and would not say much about it.  Then the question was asked of me here as of do you feel better after you get done and my answer was yes.  So I will keep the walks here totally and found another spot that I can park at then go from there also at this time since it looks pretty good also for what I have been trying to do all this time with picking up the nickles on top of it all.  So I got the push on Friday that I needed also to put things into what is really going on and I had to verbalize it all and it sounded pretty bad in what is really going on here in the household.  The person has been there over the years and so have I to where when we need to talk to someone we can dump on eachother totally and bouce things off the other.  So now I know in why I have been trying to walk here totally and do what I have to do for myself and that will start happening more and more totally nomatter what is said to me.  Now it has came to the point in where I will have to hide the money that is picked up on my part from now on also here and it will not be pretty in how I will have to get it done from now on.

Shaking my head

Well at this point in time I am really thinking on things here and know that I am right still this morning on a few of the things that went down yesterday.  Even the cashier looked at me funny when my Husband started snapping at me by the time that we were about to leave.  I had got something off the bargin rack of course and it scanned right some wanted to fight about the price totally.  All I could say was that it scanned right and did not say much after that and of course I got screamed at from the time I got done paying for the bill along with towards the door of the place that we were at.  So after all said and done here knowing where all the foil and plastic bags are going to now it has opened up my eyes in how much some have not cared at all in what I have been trying to do here for the place.  I have been trying to scale back totally here for the place and was wandering in why more was going out than coming into the place when some have been here on the weekends.  So now some of the things will be hiddin from now on here in the place and myself saying I do not know in where that is and ya may have used it all up without telling me from now on.  All I can say is that it is pretty bad when I have to hide things in the household aalong with money on top of it even more so after this weekend.  This part I have pretty much figured in how to do and where to put things while I am at it after all of the years that have went by along with much thought also for what and where that things need to take place.  So I guess that I will be cleaning more here this week along with afew other things that will be going down from now on in the household totally.  With that being said at this time about what is going down and with myself trying to get cheaper it finally clicked in what I have to do here for the place from now on and go from there.  I have no other choise in the matter at this time at all and see in where I land up for alot more that needs to be done.