What a day

Well I am finally sitting down for about 30 min around here if not longer because I have done to much already around here.  Between the last of the running things that I needed for tomarrow and a few other things around here I am totally ready to start hollering around here for some of the things that my Niece has not done for the day.  Why becuase she is not bothered to come home yet at all and I finally got a call about 5 min ago.  So here I am waiting for the dish water to cool down around here so I can get that going and dinner also while I am at it around here.  Now I am wandering on what really is going on around here when I am trying to keep up and pack at the same time for what I have to do.  Also the comment was made why in the middle of all of it now in what is going on.  I lost it when I got back to the can I could not help but over hearing it.  So eather way around here I have not been doing good all day.  With alot of things around here I have been saveing up for some things and will get alot of it back here shortly eather way I look at it all.  I can start saveing for the wood burner once again once I gt back up to NY State.  So now I will be doing alot more on the cheap around here once I get back also.  There will be heads rolling by the time I get back eather way around here and I just do not care anymore at all.  I caught some useing alot of toothpaste yesterday and told the girl about it.  There is no reason for a huge glob at all.  Alot of things are going to change around here and I have came to the point of it will start with huge problems and I will fight that battle when I come to it.  The heads will roll.  With tonight I will be going to bed early around here so I can get out of here by 4 am.  Just so I can be in by 5 pm in Illinois tomarrow.  Now to keep my sanity around here untill I can get to Illinois and go from there.  With the Doctor today he told me do what you have to only becuase I will never hear the end of it if I miss this and the next is I would never forgive myself for missing the funeral that counts.  Also the other part is that I know that there will be problems all week around the can.  I have already told my Niece if anyone desides to mess with her call the state troupers and then call me and I will be on the phone when they get to the can.  Maybe I do not have to worry at all around here.  Either way things are going to change and alot of folks are not going to like me at all around the park.  That is the bad part becuase I will not care by the time I get back at all.  I am bad now on alot of things and it will get worse when I get back here.  Maybe I have to put my foot down that hard to make a huge point around the place also.  I am up for the challange unlike some that thought they were years ago.  So now I will be doing more and putting a foot up the childs toush around here to go that much cheaper and run with it.  Just like this afternoon I picked up my Husband and got asked if I was done packing yet.  I am not in the mood to joke at this point at all and now my Niece will find out also around here I refuse to play at all with the games her friends want to and want to pull around here also while they are at it. 

I am still in shock

Well I am still in shock this morning around here to say the least.  I have been doing as much as I can around here thru the pain.  Now with that being said I got a call from the bank around here and they want another 1300 dollars.  I have done gave up on the house totally around here.  I guess I am stuck in a neighborhood that is really bad to say the least around here and will have to put up with the slum landlords still.  As I told one of the office workers that here today gone tomarrow and ya never know when the evictions are coming around.  She laughed and said that I was right.  Pretty bad when I still expect it around the place for minding my own nose.  So now I will be going on the cheapest rampage around here to date and nobody will like in what I have to do to get to that level around here.  I am done with the whole mess around here totally with the insurance companies, doctors, and several other things.  The one doctor will not even bother to see me at all unless I have back up insurance around here, and I got another slap with one insurance company also while I was at it yesterday.  I looked at the total on what they wanted to give me (300 dollars) and that is for the crushed disks that will affect me for the rest of my life around here.  The letter also said that I had no cause that they could find at all for the pain.  So I called a lawyer and have an appointment for him today.  My poor Niece has to go with me so she can tell them also in what is going on and of the memory loss, pain, and she cant even keep track of all the doctors appointments that I have and she does not expect me to do so niether around here.  I told the office straight out if I show at 9:15 in the morning 3 days a week around there for the one appointment then I can remember the other time for the other doctor.  After all said and done I have to be in Illinois also this up coming week.  I have no choice in the matter at all.  Now to explain this to the Laywer also while I am at it.  It will be tough let me tell you.  I am tired of hurting for one and tired of crying at this point in time around the place also.  I have been hideing the tears and crying at night and when my Niece is not around.  I can not deal with much more the stress is getting to me totally and I can feel it.  I will figure something out around the place to say the least.  I will make it some how around here.

Now I am Mad

Well I go another set of papers around here from Mercery Insurance company offering 300 dollars for everything that has happened.  That will not work in my book screw that PERIOD.  Since Vincent Bradley's Hit me in the Van I did not get to see my Mother alive one last time.  They are so lucky that I do not have the police report at the moment it is not even funny.  Now I have came up swinging for that one around here and before I left for my Mothers funeral also.  Now I am madder than a wet cat in heat on a hot tin roof around here for the Bitch Slap in the face to say the least since I have my MRI results in the can with me and the doctor gave them back to me.  I have been able to do what I can and that is it around the placeand I have been lacking in the Wife and Mother department around here Screw that now with the 300 dollar offer to drop it.  Now I am out for Blood either way I go since I could not see my Mom once again alive and can barely take care of myself around the Hell Hold.  Now the 2nd call went out to Mercury Insurance and maybe I got the point across this time around here.  If not they will know the point totally by the time I get done.  I am done with total stupidity around my place period also while I am at it all.  I will make at least 3 people pay for this either way I go around here weather anyone likes it or not.  I made my point very clear to Karen Welsh the 2 times that I have called today alone and never recieved a call back within the past 2 hrs here.  I am madder than a wet cat of course sine you screwed with me and my Mother on her DEATH BED.  I wanted to have good memories of my Mom now I know I do not at all and like wise since I wanted 3 cupcakes in the room with her roomie also to help out.  Now most can understand of why I am mad around here to say the least. Now I am even getting madder around the place and will be contacting others now since and hour and a half has went by around here without a dang call from Mercery car Insurance around here.  Also I will let the lawers know and my doctor know about some around here and the insurance company while I am at it.  Now I will let all Hell break loose after the slap in the face of the 300 dollars they all offered also.  Now I refuse to keep my mouth shut about this all.  Maybe some will understand this totally after I get done here in the can.  I am after blood and told Karen that it was a slap in the face for the 300 dollars to keep my mouth shut on around here and hope to God she did not have to do what I have done in the past 2 weeks also with my mom like she did with hers and hung up on her like I did.  Now I am seeing red and will do what I have to around here either way.  The one doctor does not wanna know squat untill I have other insurance besides no falt around here.  Now I am done with all of this at this point in time.  Apparently I do not matter at all. Between the Blog and Twitter is all I have left besides my Husband and my Niece well I cam up swinging and some are gonna be sorry about this after I get done.  Now I am madder than a wet cat in heat on a hot tin roof.  I will let you all know what is going down after I get calls back.

Plotting for the day

Well I have been plotting for the day already around here this morning.  I need to combine at least 4 boxes and go from there today.  Pluss I will be out for about an hour also while I am at it.  I started tackling the one closet in my Nieces bedroom yesterday afternoon and she was shocked when there was an avalanche of stuff that fell out also I started laughing and said I told ya so kiddo about that.  At least I did start it and went from there and had to stop as normal so I will get the rest of it today and see where I get. What is really bad around here is that I have ran out of room for the boxes here so I can keep packing the can up.  With the last nerve as I call it is almost shot around here and my Niece is seeing that I am getting more testy as the time nears for myself to start driving on Sunday.  Also I am trying to keep my chin up and myself fairly busy either way around the place to not think about some things.  I know that some do not understand about alot of things that I am going thru around here and I do not expect them to at all.  As my Niece told me she does not want folks to feel sorry for her at all and I understand that.  She also understands that I know in what she went thru also as she was growing up even more so now than what I did.  It is like now we are even in some ways because we both can talk to each other about alot of things that makes since to us but, not to others that are around us.  Either way at this point we have been learning off each other for the most part for the place and she also realizes that I am trying to teach her more about somethings that she needs to learn and was never taught at all.  Things like it is ok to hang laundry up in the household, packing, cooking, and shopping smart around here also.  There are alot of other things also that I am showing my Niece for the place since Molly Mercer and Nancy Hammond never bothered to work with her at all.  So now with the move around here some will start getting mad at some of us and that is ok by me at this point.  After the early part of the week when I asked the question and basically told to go f myself it just told me that I was right in the first place around here.  I pretty much knew that Molly was full of it when she made false promises to my Niece that is here and that is why I told the girl that she better go find a job around here and try to forget what had happened and hoping that some will realize for the years to come that some will not help out at all after this go around.  This is why I am disgusted with the welfare program also for NY State from people like Molly Mercer and Nancy Hammond who have abused the system so much some over the course of 15 years and others are just getting started with abusing it all over again for the next 20 years.  So eather way I know that money is tight around the area and when some bring in enough money into the household there is no reason to be on the system at all.  I was thrown off of food stamps totally when they told me that 7 dollars an hour was enough to pay bills and get food for the place.  When someone is bringing in over 3 grand a month into the household there is a problem with the system totally.  Either way you see why I am frustrated about it.  Since I am one of the ones that have to streach out everything around here and turn off things to save on the bills around the place and get laughed at when I do alot of it here.  My Niece that is here understands in why I do the things that I do and it has been sinking in on what I do.  What gets to alot of folks also is that I have been useing coupons also that are not in the household.  I will be going cheaper around here even if it kills us all around the household to.  My Niece understands why I am doing alot of it and why I want to go even cheaper for the place.  So I will be teaching the girl alot more than what she bargined for around the place.  Pluss what gets to alot of the people that are not in the household is that I am takeing the time to show the girl in what I have to do and go from there.  We sit down and pay bills togeather and afew other things also while I am at it all.  Since I have not shown my Niece about the gas tank on the truck yet and will be doing that when I get back up here to NY State.  It is a scarry thought either way I go to fill the tank up.  I will top off the tank before I leave here and I am hoping that I will not have to get gas untill I hit Ohio.  I would like that to say the least around here.  So now to get dressed and start the day again for the place.

Mini storm

Well at least it's not ice this time around for the Western NY area.  Now I am happy that I did get the truck with the 4x4.  With time running short around here as normal and I have 3 more days to try to get as much packed around the place plus my bags to head to Illinois on Sunday morning here.  Either way this is just plain out nuts around the can.  There are more boxes around here and they grow by the day.  Now to just get alot of stuff done today around the place and be done with it all for the most part.  I have not drug out anything from the bedroom at all and alot of that is packed still thank goodness.  This is why I like the totes so much it is a time saver and space saver while I was at it all around here.  At least I know that I can do all of this without a problem at all here.  And since my Niece will be here it will not be so bad also while I am gone here.  I am going to worry either way around here to say the least and hope for the best while I am gone for the week.  I know that the girl will be cheap either way while I am gone here and the voice of reason will kick in with the girl.  That is the weird part around here.  With alot of things around here I was hoping to be out of here and moved in to the house by now.  Never fails that we get dropped on the curb with that part of things.  So I may as well pack up as much as I can around here and be done with it all.  I got a good laugh yesterday around here though between all of us in the household.  As I keep reminding myself everyday is a new day and try to forget the bad from the day before.  So now that the mess has been mopped up around here and I told my Husband yesterday that guess what Daddy it is a girl.  My Niece started laughing and said at least I know where I am loved here.  So it is all good for the place that I know where one of the kids are and safe.  So either way around here I am teaching one Niece in what to do and how to do things when you are broke also.  She will understand here in January in what is going on around here also.  With that being said around here I will be going that much cheaper around the place here shortly and some will understand about it and some will fight me either way.  It is part of life around here and I explained some of it to my Niece already and why I holding her to a higher standard from my place.  So now that she pretty much knows in the whys I do this around here.  When I put some things down here in the blog it is not everything that I do for the place at all.  Some of it is to save money the other part is stretching out alot more than what some realize that I do for the household.  With only one income coming into the place sometimes it is hard to really stretch the budget out around here.  This is what I am trying to teach my Niece about what happens if this comes up and you are going off of about 600 dollars a month.  Pluss I want her to realize that when you have to ask for help from the system it will be there until then go find a job that you can walk to for the most part.  So until you can find a job then you will be taught here in how to run a household for very little.  If it means collecting the cans and other things to support the household then you got to do what you have to do for the place.  It also helps out when someone that has a good grasp on the ropes of going cheaper/frugal to show in what they all know and say so this is why I do the things that I do to help out around the place.  This is why I have rice, flour, baking powder, yest, onions, garlic, pasta, and beans for the household.  When things get tight around here that is the basic things that I go to to feed the household.  Now that I am leaving for a week I know that I am leaving the rice cooker here and there is a meal on its own and I still have the Ramon noodles here in the place.  So either way there is alot of things that can be done on the cheap and food in the household also.  I have told my Niece that she can cook in the rice cooker also.  Alot of it depends on the times and one person meals around here also.  One of the girls friends thought and asked if she could hold a party while all of us are gone around here for the week.  Her answer was Hell NO I can't.  For one thing alot of folks have my cell phone number and will call me either way if something happens.  The other part is the fear factor of if I get caught she will beat me and a few other things around here.  So that has been scratched off the list for the party at my place.  Also she has realized if the place gets busted wide open then the happy home has the chance to loose alot more than the party itself around here.  The girl was thinking of jail time for myself and my Husband also.  So there is alot of things my Niece has to think about before doing now weather we get charged or someone else gets charged here.  Since I do not have the custody papers her grandmother gets charged and I loose my can.  So she thinks before she does around here.

Thinking again

Well I have been thinking around here since yesterday.  Now I know why that Molly did not want her sister at  all.  Molly could not run her sister at all anymore and she won't be a maid for her at all.  All I ask for is some help and that is it for the place.  Oh well at least I know that at least one Niece is safe under my roof around here.  Pluss the girl will learn more than what she would have over at Molly's place anyway.  So now I have came to the point of now I can teach her alot more around here since she is staying.  The only thing that is on the change is the address I will keep the phone numbers that we already have for the place.  Pluss when we all get the green light from the bank around here to move into the new place I will start moving some of the stuff that is already packed away for the can.  At least I have been teaching my one Niece in what she really needs to know about moving around here and alot of other things also while I have been at it all.  I thought it was funny that I had to pick up the poor girls jaw off the floor when I had over 30 dollars in the returns last week.  Now to get a huge list up for the store and take her with me to the store after I get alot of the coupons for the trip.  With alot of things around here I have either cut way back on and have turned off for the place during the day and the middle of the night to save money.  The washer that I bought alittle over a year ago has cut a 75 dollar water bill down to a 15 dollar water bill also.  With all of us hanging Landry up in the can that also helps in the power bill.  With alot of things all you have to do is look around the household and see where you can cut back on the things you use most around the place.  I know I still look around the place and say I can cut that back more around here and do it for the place.  It does take some time to get use to once you start this is why I say start out slowly and give it a few weeks with 2-3 things at first.  Then add one thing a week until you are comfortable with it.  I know when I jumped in with like 30 things at once I knew that I was in trouble because I could not get use to it all.  So I cut back on it all and ran with it.  It worked out much better and nobody got hurt also in the can.  After that I have stopped getting paper plates for the household.  Some folks get mad at me for it and I just say that I have to wash dishes anyway so why bother with the paper plates.  Another thing that I did at first was use less of the laundry detergent and cut the dryer sheets in half for the household.  I found out that the laundry came out cleaner than what was recommended on the bottle to use in the washer.  What I also should have done at first while I was at it was get shop rags to clean the bathroom from the get go.  Now I am saving on the paper towels while I am at it.  I ended up with alot of the white shop rags so I can bleach them out after I am done with them.  Also I clip coupons for all of the stores that I go to.  I can knock off at least 10 dollars off the bill where I am shopping at and I am happy.  Also I can use the coupons and the money on the Kmart card while I at it all.  That is the best part of the whole thing for stuff like shampoo, conditioner, T.P., and lots of other things also.  In what I do so far for the household it scares alot of folks that comes over to my place.  Now for the past about 6 months around here I have been hanging alot more laundry here in the household.  It saves about 100 dollars a month to hang all of it for the place here.  I want to go even cheaper for the place eather way I go when I get back here also.  Some will understand why also while I am at it. 

Still Mad

Well I am still mad around here.  At this point everything is off and I had to sit for a spell again around here to say the least from packing and cleaning.  Molly Mercer should be happy all of the kids in her care are hers and just one job pluss welfare to help out.  I had food stamps 3 jobs and 3 children that were not my own pluss going to school at the same time in Illinois.  Not includeing the 2 jobs at times around here in God forsaken NY State to support the household.  Now that I can not work and I can not collect SSI nor SSD I am totally screwed around here to say the least.  As the one Niece put it she can not take off of work at all well at least I am not on total welfare makeing 12 pluss dollars an hour on the books at the same time.  This is why I am even more mad than ever around here some folks can work and get total welfare while the rest of us working people have to support the welfare bums that just do not care at all that can not get the help at all.  That is why I budget out the household as hard as I do around the place.  Then this way I do not have to ask around here for any type of help at all.  So at this point I am going to go cheaper around here and tough on the people in the household that do not like it at all.  I had a small chance of hope around here and I knew better about the broken promise that was made last week around here now I am going to mop up the crud that has happend and run with it all that Molly Mercer has done in my household/can.  So now since I do care for her sister the one who has a brain in her head out of the 4 guess I will have to teach her more than what I planed on.  Eather way I did get 2 more boxes packed up and ready to go around here.  Now that I am still mad around here and realizing that I have been called worse than what Molly Mercer called me and her sister today.  The only one that lost around here and getting tangled up with a child molester is Molly Mercer and she gave one of her children to the idiot.  The child molester is Edward Kieffer.  This is part of the problem of NY State here is that if the mother is unfit then they go to the father who is totally undfit to have children in his care.  So the folks out in Madina NY and Albion NY watch out for that person.  Edward Keiffer is also a woman beater if he chokes you out first.  I have a feeling that both Molly and Edward are still togeather in some way.  Molly has lied to me before along with other people and why should I believe her now around here.  Well it is Molly's loss now around here in what I know about her and the thing she was with.  So here the Niece that is with me is doing good and Molly can not stand it since the girl is trying to do better for herself around here. 

Something Wierd

Well it has been wierd here for the past couple of months around here to say the least.  Some will understand what it means to cook with what you have around the household.  And without help at all from the welfare office.  That is what some folks do not get at all around here is that I am not on food stamps anymore for the household.  Also there is nobody to help me in the time of need anymore even when I am totally broke for the food to get some shopping done for the place.  So eather way I am getting tough around the can weather some like it or not around here.  It is getting some into gear for when we move into the house.  Well now my Niece is finally realizeing that I am on the road as of a week from yesterday and will not be home for a week or longer around here.  Well the girl knows that I can tell with the power bills on who did what and when around here.  Well all I can say is that the drama finds me around here without a problem around here at all.  It is one of the freak things of life that some want to try to create more stress on some of us that just do not give a rats behind around here at all.  Alot of things I have let roll off of me now I am just plain out mad about it and the change will come when I get back up here to NY State.  I have kept my mouth shut on alot of things around the place and I kind of let loose on the Niece that is here with me at this point in time.  At this point I am right in what I said becuase her sister really does not care at all on what is going on nor down.  With 2 days of empty promises that the hopes were up around here and they got squashed like a roach in heat screw that at this point.  I have read between the lines around here and I am the one who had to do instead of my other Niece around here to get paperwork totally.  I knew it that the girl did not get in what I was totally saying around here.  I have done gave up and just do not care anymore.  I will back off totally and let her go and that means no more cooking nor pushing myself anymore around the place.  I know it sounds harsh but, I have to do what I have to do around the place to keep the sanity.  And in the middle of chewing 2 out at the same time around here.  Called one a total liar and oh well that is what she is and the other is totally ignoring me around here.  I am so use to getting sworn at that now it does not even bother me at all.  The one knows in how I feel and act around here.  And she ain't nothing but lieing around here.  Now I have always told what is on my mind to everyone for the most part around here and why should that change at all.  Not only that I hardly swear at all and when I do it is eather Damn or Hell.  I did not swear at on and I got the f bomb droped on me and I let others read on what I called a liar and maybe I have been right all along around here and trying to push some in the right direction all along here.  So now I know why and I will back off from now on I just do not care anymore I am so tired of all the crud that is going on that it is not even funny around here at all.  Well I have pieced it all togeather and that is what some do not even realize that I have done in the past 5 days around here.  All I can say is keep the promises and do it.  So I told my one Niece that is here under my roof to find a job and be done with it around here.  I will not break a promise of she has a place to stay at for the time being and always here in my place.  So from now on I will be teaching her more in who to be cheap and be done with it.  Then when she does fly the nest at least I know she is ready for the real world instead of getting prego first with an abuser then going from there in life.  So now it has came down to the point of I am tired of doing for everyone around here and I can not do much on my own hardly since 2 crushed disks in my neck and a few other problems also.  I see where I stand totally and that is ok by me.  Eather way the Niece that is here will make out better than the rest of the other sisters and her brother and I am not worried about it anymore.  Now I will teach her as much as I can around here without her thinking about it of being cheap and go from there.  Also since I have been packing around here it has gave me enough to think on and the whys also.  I already knew why and nobody has taught the girl squat at all.  So I have steped up to the plate to do alot of things and show the girl in what to do around here.  It is enough to make anyone just turn sick on how some have been treated around here and I have put an end to it all and stood up for what is right in the world.  Maybe I am passing alot of it along in what my Momma did for me in my life time.  The pitty is not there and I have had to suck up alot of things and refuse to let it happen to others while I am alive now.  So I will be going that much cheaper around here to prove a point and be done with it all.  Maybe some will learn about the real life off of welfare for a change after being in my place.  Now starts the grit part of being cheap around the place.  I am up for the spite and I will come up swinging.  So now I will start teaching more and be even more cheap/frugal around the dump that I am in and the new place.  Some just do not know what I am up to nor capable of doing for the place at this point in time.  So now to plot away and go from there and get new ideas while I am down home.

First to admit

Well maybe I need to back off for awhile around here with on Niece.  I just hate to see her used is all.  I get mad when her supposad friends tell her that I have something to do with something that I have no controle in at all.  I have tried to tell the girl straight out that maybe that it is best to find a job before she moves if she wants to.  Sometimes I do not think what I say is really sinking in around here untill it is way to late at all with my Niece.  Maybe it is becuase I am the voice of reason around here with the Crap she has been wadeing thru at this point with friends who don't really care at all.  Maybe I need to totally withdraw from alot of things around here once again and say you are on your own and see how far my Niece gets around in life.  I think my Niece finally gets it around here.  I just have not said much at all about what her sister is doing at all at this point untill now.  Between her being a babysitter and getting used again besides getting used again for a damn paycheck coming in and a babysitter if she went to work.  That is how long all of the children been with me and not with me at the same since.  I was the back up without the back up around my place period for years.  So now my Niece is getting where she knows that I am it out of the family and her Great Grandmother is not doing good at all.  So I will keep that promise to a woman that wants to see at least one great grand baby around here.  Pluss try to keep the girl on the straight and narrow around the place to say the least.  I may have lost my Mother within the last month around here but, I will be damned if I let the girl slack in any way also while I am alive around here.  So now she understands why I think in the way I do around here and I was not cutting anyone down at all.  Well I read between the lines around here and what was said to me last week to say the least and I knew of the whys around here if someone ain't happy then nobody will around here.  Well I picked a few of the kids off and knowing what is going on since most are spoiled rotten here in the city eather way I go.  Pluss Mommy and Daddy will support their household eather way I turn around.  Not only that I brought up several good points of where was so and so to call and ask in how things were going is everything ok.  So eather way I know who are friends and who are not around here to all costs.  Yes it is a hard lesson to learn also around here.  When you have a child that nobody wants at all unless it is on your turf then some will understand.  As I asked you want me to pull totally back or give a rats behinde about ya at this point in time.  Then it started totally sinking in the girls head in what I was trying to tell her.  I can still pull away and I know that is what she does not want at all out of me.  Maybe the girl is not ready for someone to back her totally at this point since Nancy Hammond totally disengaged from her and did not show her anything at all.  That is the only person I will throw under the bus around here anyway weather some like it or not.  After Nancy Hammond gave me hell why should she change for the kids also or any one else except oh poor pitty me.  Nancy Hammond got what she wanted all of the kids split up and pitted one againsted the other.  Why should some differ from that part of what she learned.  Ok so I broke that cycle around here and quickly.  I have mopped up enough with the girl around the place. 

Off my rocker

Well this week is somewhat a Hell week again for the place.  Between packing for the move I also have to pack for the trip home ether way I go around here.  With the truck it sips the gas when I use the cruse control on the highway thank goodness.  So I will be saveing money eather way I go on the way down and back up from Illinois.  Another thing is that for this week I will be turning off some things around here and going from there.  This is what is getting to some people around the place is that I am able to do all of this and get by with it all.  With that being said I will end up over at the store for some things on Saturday like ice and bread.  Pluss I will be cooking for the week on Saturday around here while I am at it.  That is when the freezer kicks in for the household.  There will be alot of rice dishes around here and soups also to bad if everyone starts hollering around here this is what is on the menu when I am gone.  The funny thing is around here is that I can really cook on the engine of the truck now going down.  This is why I do not mind driveing trucks at all around here.  So anyway at this point alot of people are not going to like me at all around here.  I am keeping the box on the timer and a few other things around here.  And how I got out of dish duty yesterday is beyond me still at this point in time.  Now to just get motivated enough to get more packed and cleaned up today.  Maybe that is the bad part of it all around the place is that I am not sure on when the closeing date will be for the house since the bank wants to play of course.  If we close by Friday I can take at least 2 loads in the pick up by that night over to the house.  That is a scarry thought around here to say the least.  That is includeing 2 dressers, 2 shelves, and multipal bins pluss the boxes that are already packed.  My Niece does not understand that I am partly packed anyway around the place at all.  So now she will know the true meaning of the word moveing once we all kick into high gear around here also.  Today I will end up pushing myself of course to start packing in the one room and see what I can do for it all.  With alot of things today I will be doing on my own except the tapeing of the boxes and like it around here.  I need someone to call the rescue squad that is out of the one room(laughing) with the closet.  It is jamed packed of stuff that eather has not been unpacked or got shoved into it eather way.  Since I will be in there I will be takeing the biker jacket with me on the trip home to say the least.  So now at this point in time I can start with my desk to pack it of the glass wear and go from there intill the girl gets up around here so I am not worried about it at all on waiting.  Some things will not get packed untill the last min around here as normal.  Like the pots, pans, bakeing dishes, alot of the plates, dinner wear and the drying racks.  That is what is wierd about moveing.  It seems strange that I get to pack my own stuff for a change instead of someone elses.  My one Niece was like if you can find someone to use it go for it with her mother and my sister in law.  So I was not worried about that part of it all.  So now to get some thing straight around here and ask questions at the one doctors office about some things that are about to go on around here also.  Worse comes to worse I can use my Sisters chiropractor while I am in Illinois and The Show Me State.  Ok so I am the one that got one of my Sisters into that part.  Also she asked if I had to blow the honker after I get worked on.  I told her yes and that was normal for me.  So eather way it is nice after we all have got alot older to talk togeather about some things that go on.  As my Niece asked me yesterday just promise me if you are crying that hard on the way back to pull over period I told her I would.  The reason why I am going to Illinois is gor a funeral and knowing it will not hit me untill it is all over with.  As I say don't give up untill it is time to give, that and keep coming up swinging in life.  That is what gets to alot of people that I have that moto with me.  Even my Niece took that moto from myself for the place.  Yes you can get mad just make sure that ya come up swinging in life and you go farther in life.  So now I have to make a few calls and start packing again around here and I will let you know what happened around here this afternoon.

Putting my foot down

Well today I have ran for the most part and had to take a break for a bit.  When my Husband and I got home there was nothing done what so ever around here so I blew gaskets as normal after 2 screaming matches around the place.  I looked at my Niece and told her straight out that she had to go find a job and I don't give a Damn if your sister wants to pick ya up from my place or not at this point go look anyway.  Untill it all happends around here no more free loading at all screw that mess.  Yes I am at that point of really getting tired of alot of the lazyness around here to say the least since I can not do it all anymore.  So now at this point in time I am figureing out what, when and, I am going to do all of this here in the liveingroom and still keep it straight.  It makes it abit easier without my Niece here totally.  I have been figureing that she just did not want to help out at all around here after she moved in untill I forced her to also.  So at this time alot of changes are going to be made weather some like it or not around here at all.  This is why I am makeing alot of the laundery being hung up in the can so I can get that bill down and a few other bills while I am at it around here.  It is just nuts in how some of the kids figure that it is ok not to have a job and let thier parents or the other support them totally in a household now days.  That is part of the reason of why I put my foot totally down this after noon around here.  While I am trying to get things done in the place I do not have time for all of it and I am just plain out tired or hurting enough to where I want to just throw up my hands and be done with it all.  Really I do not get enough help and the chore chart went out the window about a month ago around here to say the least.  When the girl walks back thru the door around here there will be a screaming match to say the least about not helping me for some things around here.  At this point I am ready to tell some to get thier head out of their toush and get her if ya want her that bad with you.  Also while I am thinking about all of this I will be staying out of the stores and alot of other things for awhile around here.  Since I am going home here and need gas more than anything else for the truck.  Pluss I will be canning alot more around here to get the money for the trip home.  Now it seems like I have some new energy about this trip to say the least.  Some just do not know in how cheap I can become around the place at all now.  And it will not be pretty in how I do all of it for the place.  There will be alot of bucking from now on since alot of things are going to be off longer around here.  Now with that being said it will be my way or there is the door around the place and we need to switch the box off at 10 pm once again to prove a point.  There are alot of ways to save around here and if some do not like it to bad from now on.  Also once we all get to the new place I will be getting samples once again for the place.  I will post them if and when I find them pluss the free sandwiches along with many other things here. 

Shakeing my head

I have been going cheaper around here to say the least weather some liked it or not.  Also with my one Niece being here for the past 3 months and myself trying to teach her that it is ok to streach out everything in the household.  I just hope I gave her enough to say I can do this now if I move out of my Aunt and Uncles place.  It has not mattered if I am hurting or not around here at all.  So at this point in time my other Niece had called and gave the girl that is with me some false hope on a job and moveing out of my place.  It started acouple of weeks ago when my other Niece said she wanted her sister with her.  We all thought November and it gave us enough time to do what we all had to around my place.  After this week I am not totally sure on what to make of all of it still and with the past 2 days around here I just hope that the one gets her stuff togeather enough to grow up and go from there.  So now with way to much stress going on in what I have to do for my place and alot of other things that have went down around here I just hope that I am doing the right thing by letting another child go to be on her own.  I know I can make it around here by myself with or without pain and I will do what I can to try to keep the can and the other place up with the housework.  So now I am also wandering if both of my Nieces are doing the right thing also.  Maybe it is one of the questions that I will always have in the back of my mind around here.  Untill I can answer that question myself I will be takeing it out on going that much cheaper around here so I can think about it all.  With that being said for the place at least I can get all of the bills down enough around here and go from there.  Pluss I have alot more packing to do so that will keep me busy for awhile around here today once again.  So maybe I can really think around here and go from there.  Also I have some running to do for the week and got yelled at last night about it all.  So now I have to do today of what I did not get done the past couple of weeks around here at all.  Eather way I can say that it will be just nuts for the day and I may just throw up my hands and wait for some of it for the day here.  So with that being said around here I may as well get dressed and get on the move for the day.

Got some done

Well between the doctors and about 3 boxes packed around here today I have alot more to do around here to say the least.  And a huge guilt trip to lay on one Niece if she shows up around here.  It started last night around here when the girl called and desided to take her sister with her and was suppose to show up yesterday and again this morning.  So who knows around here eather way in what is going on.  I am planning to go cheaper anyway weather the Niece leaves or not out of the can or the house.  I can not do all of it myself and I know this so I will be pushing myself around here to do more.  I have came to the point of I want to save money where I am at and tough on others who try to block me on it around the place.  Since I have to get home here in the next couple of weeks here some will understand that I am not playing anymore at all.  I went to the point of cheap now I need to get cheaper around here.  Since I am hanging most of the laundery here in the can and a few other things for the place I need to do more.  It is like my mind is a jumbled mess around here the past few days to say the least.  In a way I hope that my Niece goes but, in another way I hope she does not go.  Ok so I am wierd around here I get more done without anyone here at all that is how I am and will always be.  So eather way I am stuck around here to say the least.  I know that some things are shut off anyway around here and that will coninue to be done and it is for longer periods of time now for the place.  I will get all of it done to where alot of the time the T.V. is off and alot of other things also while I am at it around the household.  I know it makes alot of people mad that comes around and it is not thier power bill that they all have to pay around the place.  Just like gas for the truck now.  Some wanted to barrow money for thier gas tank and go from there and at this point I can not just wait around for someone to pay me back at all anymore.  Of course I said no for the money and some got mad and oh well on it becuase I can not afford to lend out money and wait for over a year to get paid back with what was barrowed around here.  Alot of what has happended with the one couple is that they can not budget out money at all.  With me I have became tighter with the money that is coming into the household while I am at it around here.  I have to be with everything going on.  Since I have to get down to Illinois around here they figure lets barrow money off of Cricket so she can't go after all.  So at this point I am putting my foot totally down and saying no to alot of people around here that want to barrow money.  I have to hold on to what I have and that is it around the place weather some like it or not.  I have thought about this since Monday around the can and I am totally done on trying to explain to some of why I can not lend out any money any more.  When some get food stamps and a few other perks from the government it makes me sick to think of why some have to barrow money all of the time from some of us.  With alot of it with some is that they do not care in what you have to do to make ends meet around the household now a days and I guess I am suppose to walk from the can to the doctors office also while I am at it all around the place once again.  This is why I am going cheaper in a way around the place.  At this point I have been streaching everything around here and some figure I still have money just to throw away around here I guess.  With alot of things I guess I will have to get use to it around here and go from there,  When I have to start paying taxes also then the money will become tighter weather some like it or not also while I am at it for the household.  This is what the one couple does not understand at all some things have to be paid so I do not loose everything around here at all along with other bills for the household.  I guess that I have to be harder on alot of things around the place and go from there also while I am at it all.  What I really need to do is get everything boxed and go from there then move.  Pluss I have to put my foot down with other things also around the place. 

The feeling

Well I have a feeling that the trip I am takeing is the last one to St. Louis this year.  As my Niece told me yesterday she had a feeling that I am not suppose to go anyplace at all and she could not shake it also.  I told her I will be fine going and coming from there.  I will have the radio and the phone with me so it is not a huge deal to me.  So now knowing kind of what is going on around here also I do not blame the girl for being freaked out at all around the place.  As I told her that we will be out of here within acouple of weeks anyway and I am a phone call away and if anything happends call the cops then call me after and keep me on the phone.  So now at this point I have been going cheaper around here for the new place and I will get everything down without a problem at all.  With the truck around here I know I can make a tank of gas last for at least 2 weeks since I do not do much driveing at all anyway unless it is up to the store, out to the res, or to the doctors office.  I got to laughing yesterday about the V8, 461 engine in the truck.  Ok so I went totally big and do not mind it at all.  As I told acouple of people yesterday I am a short woman behind the wheel of the truck.  So when I go to Illinois this time some will freak out on me only becuase, I did get the truck and do not care what others think.  Eather way some are not going to like what I have to say when I get down there and tough.  My one Aunt has told my Grandmother that I am the cheap one out of the bunch and not to worry about it all.  With the truck at this point in time it will be easier on me to drive down and haul stuff back also while I am at it all.  I will be cheaper than snot by the time I get back and then I will share the joy's of that for the place.  When I get to bad and it is non stop hollering around the new house then I know I am doing something right then.  As I told my Niece that I will be going that much cheaper around here her first answer was oh no please don't the next thing was how can you go any cheaper around the place and I don't know how you can at all.  I started laughing and said yes I can and wait till I get back since I am going down to the King and Queen of cheapness when I get there.  And I am sure that I will pick up some bad habbits from some folks while I am down there this time around.  Also I can get my legs back under myself when I get out of the truck this go around and not freak out my Grandmother at all.  As a dear friend of mine told me on Monday oh good you brought your sea legs with you after I stood up.  That was after 2 hours in the Jeep.  I should be ok if I am driveing down by myself.  Also I will be packing a cooler to take along with me this time.  Then this way I can grab a sandwich and water/soda while I am in the truck also.  For coffee I will wait untill I fuel the truck up and go from there.  Eather way I will be doing all of this on the cheap side for the travel part.  There are always cheap/furgal ways of doing things.  Some have to look harder than others and think about it all.  Like takeing the cooler on a long haul works wanders.  WIth children on the ride pack snacks like veggies, some junk food, sandwich fixings, and drinks the kids keep calmer on the ride and won't yell are we there yet and I'm hungery in the voice that just nails ya along the way.  Since I am traveling by myself once again I will be able to stop when I want to or when the gas tank says so.  So now to get some things done for the day around here and go from there.

Finally

Well I finally get to sit down for a bit and try to think around here.  At this point in time I am looking forward to moveing now around here to say the least.  I am totally done with the park.  I know what is going down and I want no part of it anymore at all and the so called manager and the owners can keep the place with the crud that they have let into the park after I am gone here.  At least I will have a pice of mind that I know that the place that we have is quiet and now to really close on the house so I can start moveing things out of the can.  With some things they are ready to go around here and I will make sure that there is at least heat and power before I move in for the feather balls that I have around here.  Now this should be good around here when I do move out and nobody knows where I am at after this.  That is the funny part about alot of the things around here is that I can slip in and out and not have to worry about it at all.  As my Mother use to tell me is that I moved and hardly told anyone at all while I was at it all.  The woman was right on that one around here.  I got to thinking also on alot of things that in the past 17 years around here that it has really went down hill for Sabre Park and I am done with neighbors who think they can do what they want when they want just becuase they kiss some toush around here.  It gets old after awhile around here when you see the crud move in and they all get special treatment also when some of us are quiet enough to when the neighbors do not even know you are home at the time.  I will be thankfull for a quiet neighborhood again when we all move out of here let me tell you.  So at this point in time there is so much I can and can not do still and I do not care if I have to pack the rest of the can myself here at all.  I have came to that point once again of I have to kind of keep busy around the place or go totally nuts.  Also I can deal with boxes that are packed around here and out of the way totally.  It seems wierd that I need a pathway and a clean place and yet I can deal with boxes that are packed.  So now to really start after I get back tomarrow from the truck and start packing yet again since all of us took the day off today here.  With the truck that I have now there will be nobody barrowing it at all off of me also.  I will drive the person to where they all need to go.  So when I pack the truck I will be in the drivers seat and I don't care if they all like it or not at this point in time at all.  That is part of what is wrong with the one couple always barowing money from me.  The guy has a Led Foot and at this point the truck will not leave my sight at all.  With the van I did not mind at all when they took it becuase I got 45 mpg out of it.  Now after what I was told this morning I know why some were trying to barrow money off of me.  Well at this point I have to worry about my own gas tank for the truck and nobody elses.  Granted I have a led foot at times and I know what I can get by with around town and on the highways.  With that being said around here I do not stomp on the gas peddal to start the truck nor van at all I know better.  I learned from an old car that I had (4 berral cab in a 76 pontiac).  Now when some folks told me that they were getting a Mazda I looked at them and said are ya sure on that becuase the repair bills will eat ya up they all thought I was kidding around.  That is part of the reason I let my Honda go also 5 years ago.  Now I am happy that I had the van in the accident in Augest of this year.  Pluss I got told how to work the 4x4 system today while I was out and it is almost on the fly type deal for that part of it.  So eather way I can do some things when they all close the roads down around here in the winter time.  Some folks are just out of luck to barrow my truck.  Also with alot of the stuff that is going on here some do not need to know squat around here at all.  Another thing is that I am not saying everything at all here in the blog at all and I will when it is all done and over with for some things around the household.  Even my Niece was shocked that I only spent 2 dollars and some change at the one grocery store this morning.  I took almost everything in the deposits around the can.  That is what gets to some of the folks that I deal with all of the time around here.  I know in what I have and what I can spend on groceries a month for the place.  This is what some do not understand about me at all is that I wait for some things.  Pluss I get alot of things on sale around here just so we can all eat for the month.

Seeing what I can do.......

Well with today around here I will be seeing in what I can do around here pluss get some running done today while I am at it.  With today it will be somewhat easier to get things done around the place without a problem at all.  So now at least it will be a cheap day weather some like it or not around here.  My Husband had asked my Niece last night on when I turn on the modem for the computers and phone.  I had to laugh about it when she said about 3pm and 5 pm around here.  It may be a good thing around here that I do that part and not useing the dryer also.  At least my Niece is use to it during the week around here to say the least and I will get worse before I get better also.  I will regulate the bills weather some like it or not.  Eather way it fried me yesterday when I get hit up for money around here and not from my Niece niether.  Since some knew that I was getting the truck around here yesterday and did not know how much it would cost me to get it up and going then to ask myself for money around here.  When they asked about it I about fell over around the can and asked the person you do realize that I am broke still with the truck and down payment coming up around here for the house.  I have been trying to streach everything out around here in the past 5 years even more so than ever and I get hit up for money.  With that being said it has been working for the most part for the household.  When I am even hanging laundery in the can some do not see what I am trying to do for the household at all.  I have 3 drying racks to hang laundery up for the place and some have got mad about it all.  Now the towels, and comforters I will throw into the dryer around the place untill we all move and go from there for the time being.  As I sit here thinking of yes I am mad about being asked to let someone barrow 50 dollars around here.  Pluss the people who asked me still owe me 30 dollars anyway with what they barrowed from before.  And how I am gonna manage to get all this done with what is going on otherwise for the place when some love to barrow and 6 months later if not longer to pay me back around here.  Also what gets to me the most is that here I am on a tight budget and stick to it all.  Since I have been trying to stick with a tight budget and streaching everything out it seems that some figure that I have money eather way I go and can lend it all out without a problem.  When someone brings in about 1200 dollars if not more a month for thier place and they are still broke even with the food stamps coming in there is a problem here.  When I have more bills coming in also than the folks trying to barrow money off of myself I know what is going on.  Yes there was a time that I was bringing in food stamps into the household here and I always waited untill they were in the account to do the shopping and there are food pantries out there if you do not bring in enough food stamps and are not qualified for them.  I also took 20 dollars for the household needs.  Now that I have cut way down on the paper towels and the paper plates do not exsist in my place it is more money in my pocket around here.  Since I have to wash dishes anyway may as well get the glass plates out also.  So eather way I have been cutting back around here weather some like it or not and they can not believe in what I do also while I am at it all here.  Alot of people holler at me for not haveing the T.V. on during the day around here.  They need back ground noise I guess. 

What a day

With today holy crud muckers.  That was just a totally long drive out there and I am in pain once again around here.  Well it started out all of us were running late this morning.  Now the truck is here and I like it so now that it took myself most of the day to get it I am more than likely not going back out tonight around here at all.  I will go tomarrow for some things and go from there.  I have no choice in the matter at this moment.  So now on the way back home I knew that a curv was sharp and totally forgot about it around out in Collins.  The look on my face must have been good when I got done.  Well I am use to the van and now I have to get use to the truck.  Anyway with that being said around here I did have a pretty good day around here eather way and it was a cheap day.  Now with tomarrow I will have the phone off around here along with other things when I get home tomarrow.  Not a huge deal for me to do all of this at all.  With alot of things around here I have been doing and it has sunk into my Nieces head also and she knows I am about to get worse with the new place when we all get there.  Eather way I am living as a broke person and going from there in the new place and even worse that I have here.  Well after this morning some folks asking for money that I did not have at all around here and I said no.  I will say this I have stopped lending out money around here totally.  I can not help that at all around here at all with the new house and I have to gas the truck up around here also.  There are alot of folks hurting around the area at this time.  This is why I have been trying to streach out the money as much as I can for the household around the can.  In the new place it will be even worse when I get done to say the least.  Even the other day my Niece told me not to worry about the milk that she picked up for the household.  I told her were the cheapest milk was and she took a 3 min walk around here for Walmart.  So here I am streaching out in what I have and there are some that do not get that in what I do around here at all.  The folks that I am talking about come over every so often and holler about in how broke they are eather way I turn.  At this point I ma not even useing the dryer so I can get a cheaper power bill around the place.  There are alot of things that I have to do around here that some do not realize that I do behind closed doors also.  One thing is to turn off the power to alot of things around the can and it will still go on in the new place also. 

Can't make me..........LOL

Well I have to go towards Collins today and I really don't want to.  I will be picking up the truck today and going from there.  Then on the other hand I really don't want to pack here at the can niether while I am at it all.  There is hardly enough room in the main room at this point that is how many boxes we have packed so far around the can.  And I have only scratched the surface of the kitchen and bathroom around the place in the past several days.  My saveing grace is that most of the bedroom is in totes at this point and alot of the bathroom that is left is in a tote also.  I have not touched the spare room at all at this point and I will say something when I get home today with my Niece about it becuase I know she needs her bed filled once again here.  So I will start in on that room when I get back around here this after noon.  That is the bad part about the whole thing at this point is that I have out grown the can.  Now I will have the room in the new place and I refuse to let it get as bad as the can.  One of the couples that come over all of the time around here was impressed by looking in the windows.  Then realized that I had a full bath on the main floor.  Also now once I think about it I will have enough room for the plastic for the kitchen while I am at it all.  The bad part is that I have to think on how I will be doing this all and then set up the kitchen in how I want it all.  The funny part is that was one of the reasons why I wanted to go to Illinois also to pick up a cabnet and see my mother alive one more time.  I coulden't go down after the gal damaged my van and 2 blown out disks in my neck.  So now to figure out in how I will be doing this also while I am at it all between the move and getting down there without being in total pain at all.  I will have help eather way when I get down there.  Also I have been holding up better than expected around here.  Between running to the doctors office, packing for the new place, my Niece, and what I found out last week I will not break untill it is all over with.  That is the wierd part of the whole thing at the moment.  My sisters are the basket cases at this time also so I guess I can fall apart around here after the fact.  That is one of the things that both of my Nieces are worried about with me also.  The one that lives with me found out when I got the call and hung up the phone with the death here last week.  So I am hoping around here it all goes smooth enough to make it helpfull. 

Unreal

When I thought nothing could get worse it seems like it does around here.  And the worst part about it is that I knew before I was told around here also.  My Sister asked in how I knew about it all before she said something and I told her not to worry about it I would explain later on.  So now to go very cheap around here and be done with it all.  Also it just will work better on myself eather way I go around eather place.  While I am at it all around here maybe it will do some good to keep busy also.  I have already made a list out around here for thing to be done yesterday.  Pluss I have to teach my Niece in how to pack and move things out of the way instead of the middle of the floor to where I will trip over everything.  Now that I have been stressing over some things around the place since yesterday it is not good at all on none of us here in the place.  Pluss on top of it there is alot of other things going down also while I am at it that I am not saying at all also.  So I may be going home sooner than what I thought.  Of course I am going to be as cheap as possible when I do get down there without a problem and have everyone freak out in what I am doing.  Well some of my family are big spenders anyway and I just plain out refuse to be like that around here in my household.  So now to really get everyone and go from there while I am down there.  I know some will start in on how I do things while I am there.  The fistfull of coupons will help out also with the hollering.  So now the week from hell will look calm once I get down to the St. Louis area of course.  Now to get some other things done around here and maybe get up to the bank while I am at it all today. 

Wandering

I am wandering at this point in time around here to say the least here.  I will start the packing eather today or tomarrow around here.  After yesterday I was not doing to good for squat eather way I went.  So now for today I have to get something done around here and go to the doctors yet again around here.  Pluss I am waiting for a few things around here also while I am at it all here.  My Niece about freaked out when I was looking at something also here.  With alot of things around here some were wandering in how I was still standing also as of yesterday.  Now I am to the point of I have to do alot of things around here to say the least and have no choice in the matter at all once again.  With today I will start with the bags and pack them first then go on the hunt for the boxes around here also.  Pluss I know I have acouple of bins yet around here that I can use to pack some things while I am at it all.  I will figure all of this out without a problem at all for the place and I have the time crunch also.  So I will end up doing all of this on the cheap side of life while I am at it all here.  With alot of things around here they will be getting alot cheaper also once we get out of the can and into the new place around here.  This is what is getting to everyone also in the household at this point in time is that I will be going that much cheaper around the can here.  With alot of the one cabnet that I have will go in the goody bucket that I have for the dog and cat around here.  I just stuck them in the one becuase I have not been able to work on the can alot around here at all still.  So it is easier for me to have something at eye level and to be able to reach for it also.  Now to really get started for the day around here and make the effort of doing some things.  My Niece will understand this all today here.  Even funnier is that alot of things are are a pain to pack are already there packed.  With my Niece she is totally wigging out and asking how we are going to manage this one all together around here.  I have a few tricks up my sleeves still to this day on packing for the place.  Even my Husband is wandering in how I am going to do all of this.  The trick is around here is to look and I have the bags for part of it around here still.  With the seed for the boys I have put into a bucket to make it easy for myself to move.  It does not help that I get 18lbs worth of food at a time and mix it so that is where the bucket came into play also for them.  So once I get organized enough around here I will be getting things done here today without a problem. 

Shakeing my head

Well after yesterday during the day around here I did alot of running and forgot about a bill.  So that one will get paid today around here and lets see what the MRI does for another view of my back here also today.  On top of everything the one that asked me to have sex with him about 2 weeks ago is back on S5 as of last night again they came and got him.  My Niece just so happened to look out the kitchen windows and seen a fleet of squad cars and the fire rescue truck for the kid on the other corner.  Now we won't be bothered while we move around here.  The cops could not believe that us girls were high fiveing when they put the kid on the ambulance last night.  We got accused of calling when we all did not do it I was on the phone with my Husband earlier with someone standing right there when my Niece handed me the phone and said it was the old man calling.  Eather way I did not even make a call going out around here at all last night.  So now I will be more than happy to get out of here as fast as we can eather way to get away from the rat hole park.  With the one gal that takes the paments for the lot rent I told her I may be in and I may not be next month around here eather way.  She got the point of that some of us expect anything and everything around here out of the manager.  Now I have made up my mind on going really cheap for everything around here and go from there now.  It has worked for the power bill even so far I got that yesterday in the mail.  It went to 86 dollars for the month around here and I plan on keeping it that way to say the least.  It may fall again around here once we get out of the can also.  Since we are hanging the laundery up and cutting the power during the day around here it is nice to see some of the bills go down here.  Eather way the 3 of us are going to beat the bill game for the household.  So now to start packing for the place and getting more done.  This is what is getting to me around here is that I am at the doctors appointments so much and I do not feel like doing after the appointments at all.  With today I am hopeing to get something done for the place in the packing department around here.  Well I better get on the move around here and see what I can get done before noon.

Some are getting it

Well after yesterday and the question I got from someone else also I think it is time to move around here without a doubt.  Now with that being said, I did get the house and as soon as I can get more boxes my Niece and I will start packing more around the can.  With my Niece I already warned her that I am going cheaper around here without a problem at all once we all get into the new place.  And yes it did scare her in what I said.  So now I will figure out in what to do for the new place.  It will not be that hard to figure out in a new place at all and the first couple of months are always the roughest in the new place that you go to.  So now with the new place there will be changes in alot of things that we do around here without a problem.  Alot of what I do now already will stick and then I will be adding new things to save money around the place since I have to pay the taxes.  Pluss I am use to haveing to pay all the bills anyway around the can except the taxes around here it is a small price.  So eather way what I have taught my Niece already she will understand why of what I am about ready to do for the household.  Since I have alot of things down around here anyway and my niece has finally got it around here to the point of understanding why I am trying to be cheap for the place.  I have been cutting back on alot of things over the years around the place and will be doing more so after we all get over to the new place.  Also with that being said I do not have alot of counter space nor cabnets at all at the new place.  So that is when the cutting boards come into play also for more things.  I have not hollered to much when my Niece has cut things on the counters around here as of yet at the new place she starts that then I will have her toush in a sling.  With all the new changes that are going to take place in the new place the girl may not like me after I get done at all niether.  With alot of brand new things in the place like the counter tops and a few other things I will be working that much harder to keep it like that.  So yes I will have the cutting bords out that much more around the place without a problem at all.  Anyway there are alot of things that my Niece just needs to learn around my place that I will rule with an iron fist on in the household.  There will be more rules popping up also while we are at it all.  With everything that will be going on around the place at this point in time I will be even more moody around here.  That can not be helped at all.  I will also go very cheap around the place eather way we all turn and some will get why I am doing the what's and why's of it once they all see me doing also.  What my Niece has not got as of yet is why I do the dishes in the morning time for the place.  Then this way the counter tops are not a totall disaster and I can cook also when I need to at any given time.  There are things that her grandmother taught her that are just plain out nasty also that she does.  Slowly I have been trying to break the things of what was taught to her that are just plain out wrong and working with her.  Now since I have a long day ahead of me today the girl will learn that I just have to do somethings for the place weather she likes it or not and maybe gone for hours for the day today since yesterday was a holliday.  So this will be my Monday without a problem around here at all.  Pluss I have to hit the doctors office up today while I am at it all. 

Still hurting

Well I explained to my Niece lastnight that I was still hurting around here and she finally got the point.  Pluss she has never seen me that hunched over in that amount of pain after the doctors office also.  So now I told here I will do what I have to do and it will be slow in what I do around here eather way.  I can only get done what I can during the day and that is it eather way that I go around here and I know that I have been over doing alot of things around the place in the past 2 weeks.  I may as well work thru the pain and try to forget about it all.  The girl finally said to me that she was pretty much slacking and that she knew it.  So more doctor's visits this week pluss an MRI to really see what the heck is going on with all the pain that I have been in after the accident.  Maybe that is why I have been going cheaper around the place also in the past couple of months besides my Niece being here also.  Pluss with the stress of trying to get a new place on top of it.  Well all 3 of us were in agreement lastnight around here that we have to get out of here totally becuase of the neighborhood.  I tried to say something to my Niece when she first got here about some people and she finally understood in what I was trying to tell her after we all broke out laughing.  So with today I will be watching football and writeing down on ways to be cheaper around the place then this way we are all on the same page here in the can.  One was about the T.V. in why during the week days that I have it off totally then the weekends I leave it on the cooking channel all day on the weekends.  Both of the birds like it pluss I have snagged alot of recipies off of the one channel.  And of course I do it the cheap/frugal side of life.  I am not lucky enough to have a river nor streem out side of my back door at all and that is why I do not cook with fish and some have alergies to the sea food in the household also.  So now I have been coming up with a few ways that I can cut the bills down and it does not hurt anyone at all around here.  Even my Husband shook his head at me yesterday in what I wanted to do for the place here.  Then he rememmbered that I have the drying racks here in the can and said never mind on that part of it all.  That is the bad part of it all around the can is that I have 3 drying racks that are in the main room and they take up space.  It was and still is well worth the money spent on the racks to hang the laundery on around here when it knocks off between 75 to 200 dollars a month for the power bill around here to say the least.  At this point in time I can drag out a few things from the washer and hang them on the racks with or without pain.  What helps with the pain is that I get up and start doing and try to think of new ways of doing around the can here.  Now with it turning cooler out I will say something to my Niece about keeping 2 of the windows blocked weather she wants the to be or not around here.  They are nothing but drafty eather way I go around here for the past 17 years that I have been here.  This is another reason I have sheets and blankets up at the windows around here.  The funny thing around here totally is that when some people walk in they do not get of why I do some of the things that I do here to save money.  Like with the power bill here.  I just do not like useing the dryer at all and try to keep most of the lights off untill night and I only use one light around here for the feather balls also here.  So yes I have my ways of saveing money around here to say the least.  My Niece still does not get it all the way in why I do things the way I do them and that is ok by me.  The girl will find out when she is on her own of the why's.  Here I am thinking of other ways of doing around here that are on the cheap side of life.  Pluss I am still cutting on the budget around here even though some do not think I am doing so for the place here.  Now to really crack down on myself and others around here to start cutting alot more for some things around the household.  Also what gets to some when they all come over is that I streach everything out and still I am useing the crafe for the coffee here.  There is one person that has hollered at me for it since I have got it here.  The person who hollers about it gets her disability check once a month and half of her husbands pay once a week also while she is at it all.  What was going on was that I was cutting dryer sheets at the time and was out of coffee at the time she walked into my place and I diden't move fast enough for her at all.  Well now she does not even come over anymore and it is no skin off my nose at all.  So now I still cut the dryer sheets in half for the place and I have added more things to the list to streach out things that much more around the place.  That is what some still do not get around here at all even the kids that come over for my Niece.  I cut alot of the things off during the day becuase I can and it saves myself on the power bill later and that is what they all do not understand.  I guess thier parents never cared on what the kids did and they bring in enough in thier pay checks also.  Well at this point I am not rich at all and do not want to be rich at all.  So I will streach out what I can around here and I do not mind it what so ever.  Then this way nobody can say that I am spoiling my Niece around the place at all.  Not only that I knew that some have not got the girl ready for the real world at all so I have been trying to teach her alot of things for when she does fly the coup around here.  Now to get dressed around here and get the paper.

Getting more done

Well I am getting more done around here today weather or not I am hurting.  Maybe that is what is getting to me around here also is that some do not even bother to help out hardly at all around the household.  At this point I can sit still eather way I go only becuase if I do nothing would be done around here at all.  I proved that one while I sat around for a month and then some around here becuase I could not do squat, now that I know that the pain is not going away around here I am doing anyway and hoping that I can work thru the pain and somewhat forget the pain.  And yes I am trying to do everything on the cheap side while I am at it all for the can.  I already threatined this morning to go on the very cheap side from now on and my Niece begged me not to and I said tough.  So the modem is gonna be off for most of the day around here and I will start blocking up the T.V. even longer during the day and night around here.  Pluss the candles will be out at all times for the mornings also around here.  I have came to the point of I just do not care and I have not gone as far as to split the double ply Paper around here niether.  Well now I will go cheaper around here eather way weather some like it or not around the place.  Pluss I will get mouthier around here and start swinging that much more.  This is what hurts others more in the place than it does me for all times around here to say the least.  So now I will start as of tomarrow with alot more that I have been wanting to do for the can and go from there.  My Niece is totally out of luck from now on since I will make it all stick around here also.  This is another thing that she does not understand for the household is that there will be more rice and a few other things going on from now on also.  I have to start getting ready for the move also while I am at it all if the bank ever gets up off thier stick about some things around here along with the insurance company.  This is what bothers me the most around here along with some lazy people thinking that I will turn around by them calling my Niece also as of yesterday.  I drop squat for anyone around here unless it for a child under the age of 15 around here.  With that being said with a child who is running an above averadge temp becuase of shots guess what the baby gets before I do around here and I do not care.  It is one of them things of being a parent and raising children around the place.  So anyway what some do not know is of the why I did something yesterday and will understand when they do not have the extra in thier paycheck this week also.  I have paid bills this week and that is what bothers some people around here also becuase, I refuse to kiss anyones toush at all.  That is for the so called Park Manager here in Sabre Park.  Even my Niece told someone yesterday that you don't wanna move in here and don't even bother becuase the free rent is not worth the touble at all in the dump slummy Park.  I started laughing and she said well it is true since I have to put up with someone who needs a shock collar also across the street.  So now she has a point of that she is sick and tired of the kids even around here to say the least.  So now that I have some things in the oven and the girl was not even watching in what I was doing of course.  Oh well at least I do remember in how to do some things around the place weather some like it or not.  Some will say that I am sick for doing it around here and "Oh that is not how you do it around here".  Well I learned from the older folks from the family so now the folks that wanna say that that is not how ya do it guess what then they at this point are wrong now around here. 

Sitting here

The great wait is on around here of course.  With yesterday around here it was pretty bad after I diden't get "Home quick enough" for my Nieces boyfriend around here.  Sorry I am not dropping in what I have to do for a lazy 18 year old at all just becuase the little boy called.  My Niece asked in what I had to do yesterday and I told her the list of what I had to do of course and she looked at me and said lets get the move on around here.  I started laughing of course and that is how the day started for the both of us.  With the running it wore me out.  Then I get a voice mail while we were in the one supermarket and the look on my face had to be good when we were still sitting in the lot to come back to the can.  Well another 2 things got out of the way and quickly around here.  When I was on the way out that is when the little boy called and I diden't drop everything for him.  I will be giveing the boy a piece of my mind and then some around here without a problem at all.  Since my Niece has not got a job yet to pay for her own phone guess what then do not abuse her over my phone that I pay for at all around here.  I think that is what is getting to alot of the kids that my Niece is hanging around is that I turn off everything here and do not give a rats behind in what they all think about it.  Once they start paying my bills then they have a say in what happends around here untill then they do not have any say what so ever.  Why should my household change in any way just becuase of spoiled rotten teenagers of todays world want.  If I want the phone off around here and other power related items to save money then I will do it and tell the kids tough from now on.  Just becuase most of the children out there in the world now still live in thier parents home and the adults do not care in how big the bills of the household are, does not me that I don't care at all.  Since I am use to running on a tight budget around here and have kept the tight budget I do not care what people think nor say in what I do.  When the boy told my Niece over the phone that she should be picking up the phone and not me around here there is a problem with the kid.  I have asked my Niece is he that obsessed with you? And I will put an end to that right quick with the crud he wants to dish out.  That is alot of the problem with some of the kids out in the world today also they have had free rain over the household and untill they bump into me I put a stop to it and don't care what they think about it.  There is no reason for the mental abuse at all.  So my Friday was a Monday for a change and Monday was totally nuts around my place.  Some days are worse than others I will admit to it for the place.  So now I will be turning off everything around here even more and lets see what happends.  Not only that when the power is down around here nobody can get thru with the house phone anyway.  This is what happends with the cable phone around the place.  What is getting to me the most I guess is that some just do not care in what goes on and how much money they waste on the power bill and other bills at thier place at all.  Pluss the house phone is a privlige around my place anyway.  Also with alot of things here I do not have to have of course and if I really wanted to I can have them cut.  Like the T.V. and phone.  I have pretty much cut the dryer also around here.  I have told my Niece don't touch the dryer at all this is why I have the drying racks and the lines up in the can.  Once I can get her to hang the pants up to where I am not running into them and make her realize this then it will be a bit better around here also.  So I will be telling her again in how to hang up the laundery around here and save on space also while we are at it.  With alot of the things around here since it is a tight space of course some do not realize that in how I have the place set up around here at all.  As I have said before I have 700 square feet and that is it around here. 

Still upset

Well I have never know an insurance company to ask for the title for anything right after an accident.  It seems strange now when I got the letter in the mail this week around here and got told this also over the phone yesterday.  I am still shakey after the fact and got mad after.  Now with that being said I guess there will be more sleepless nights around here once again.  So as I sit here this morning and wander how I am going to push myself around here for alot of the housework around here.  Maybe that is part of the problem around the place is that I am trying to keep busy to keep my mind off the pain around here also.  It sounds sick and it works for some of us eather way.  With alot of things that are going on around here it is just totally nuts.  I ended up over at Walmart and it was not pretty by the time I got done.  I am just wandering in how much cheaper I can go around here besides in what I picked up for the household in the past week around here and go from there.  And I will start and hope that everyone is on the wagon with me when I start going even cheaper around the place.  It is like alot has piled up on me in the past month and a half around here and it is not cool anymore at all.  I have moved alot of things around here after my Niece has plunked stuff down around the washer also.  That just drives me nuts more than anything around here while I am at it.  In how the place is set up the washer is right next to the cammode at the moment and I do not want stuff inbetween the washer and the other becuase that is just plain out nasty in my eyes.  So with today I will tell her to organize under the counter in the bathroom and that will be her job for the morning of course with a few other things.  I will also be getting some of the laundery done while I am at it today.  May as well get something done around here and try to keep occupied.  I know some do not understand in why I do things like this at all.  Pluss alot of things are going to be on the cheap side of it all.  That is what my Niece has not understood at all around here with me.  Pluss I have to think about dinner while I am at it since my Niece has not bothered to cook at all in the past 2 months here.  I think she is scared to do so around here.  Nobody really has taught the girl in how to cook at all so I have been teaching her to do that also for the household.  It seems like every time I turn around I have to holler at her at one form or another.  So the girl will learn that I am pushing her to a point around here.  What really gets to me around the place is when folks ask me why I do the things that I do around here.  And why I try to do things on the cheap.  Well when you have been broke at one time you figure out in how to do things on a very tight budget for the place and then get creative on top of it all.  I know several folks who have lost thier job around here and have asked me in what they can do to save on things around the household.  I tell them to cut alot of the name brands out of the household and try that first then when the paper plates run out then do not get anymore of them for the place while they are at it.  Pluss use less of everything like dish soap, laundery detergent, and other stuff in the place at all times.  When I tell them things like that they all look at me like I am crazy around here and then they find out that I am not.  Just like when I hit up the sales and use coupons around here some folks do not agree with me when I do that untill they see the bill by the time I get done around the store. 

Shakeing my head

Well after yesterday I had to get out the iron fist and foot once again.  Now lets see if it works totally around here with my Niece.  I told her straight out that I can not keep all of this up and she had to start helping more around the place.  There were afew other things that I had to say around here that she needed to hear also and now she is understanding of why I said them.  With everything going on and I have a strict budget around the place it started clicking in why I haven't been to the regular grocery store also around here at all.  Pluss I have been breaking out the coupons more around the place to help with the budget at some of the places.  It helps to have the coupons no matter what around the place.  With things going like they are around here from the last few months around here I have got alot cheaper for the place and I think it is bothering my Niece all the way.  Pluss I am getting cheaper by the day while I am at it.  I have the box turn off at times during the day around here and it has helped.  I reminded her of the 154 dollar and some change power bill and that it had to stop weather she liked it or not around here.  So no more 3 am on the computer and watching T.V. anymore and the dryer is out totally also.  Pluss if now I can get her to light candles around here by 9:30 pm it would be even better around the place.  I am always thinking of how to do some things better around the hell hold.  Some things are easier to do than other things.  As I tell my Niece all of the time look around the place and see what needs to be done and do it.  With the grocery store I will be hitting Aldi this time around and go from there.  My Niece asked why Aldi for the big shopping trip this time around and not the other store.  When I can get more for less I will do it for the household.  That is what some do not understand about myself when they all come over to the place.  Just like yesterday I told my Niece that I thought that paper plates were a waste of money for my place.  She did not blame me at all around here after I explained it to her.  Since we have to do dishes anyway it makes it easier for to just throw in the plates also around here.  Some folks do not get it around here at all and that is ok with me.  The funny part of it all is that I have been doing this for years and I am getting cheaper by the day around here also.  When some ask why do you streach out everything in the place like you do I tell them becuase I can around here and it is money going out the door if I do not do it.  So I have cut things down to where it is not flying out the door and went from there around the place.  Another good thing is that when I really started alot of this it has stuck with the household to say the least around here.  Just like being stocked up around here also is another big thing that I have here.  It has saved us more in the long run and we did not have to buy in January alot of the times around here. 

Plotting for the day

I am plotting for the day since I did not get much done yesterday around here at all.  I did get the extra rack for the place while I was out.  As I told the cashier that I will save over 200 dollars a month with the 3 drying racks around my place eather way I go.  The guy said that most of the racks were flying off the shelves in June over at Ollie's and have leveled off just recently and if it saves money go for it.  Well on top of it last night my Niece told her friend that I was the cheapest person in town and that I was working more on the cheap side while I was at it.  The poor kid couldent believe that I had made soup for dinner and said it was good after he got done.  So now at this point in time around here some have realized that I am that cheap and yes it adjatates some folks that come over.  Along with the drying rack yesterday I did pick up some books while I was at it.  For 1.99 a book it is a good deal around here instead of beating up my car for the libary.  My Niece just looked at me in shock when I walked thru the door and shook her head when I said to help me put up the drying rack also.  So after we did all that my Niece is like ok what are we gonna do for today around here and I told her we had to start picking up and cleaning for the household.  We got part of the kitchen done yesterday and afew other spots in the can.  Well there are alot of things that the girl just does not see around here at all that needs to be done at all.  So I was telling her about what we could all do for being even cheaper around the place also.  After that the girl realized that I was not jokeing around here at all and we had to do what we all have to do.  I told her that she did not see me pay the cable bill becuase I was on line and paid it before she even bothered to get up.  Also now that we are going cheaper here in the can and getting ready for the move for the house it has been nuts around here to say the least.  With such a small space here of 700 sq feet alot of the stuff has ended up in the main room around here.  Also with it being cramped around here when the green light starts I will start moveing alot of the buckets to the new place.  That is the bad part of the whole thing around here is that some of the stuff is already packed and ready to go.  And yes we are going to do this on the cheap around the place and during school hours for the main balk of the move while we are at it.  So now once I get the keys around here I will go over and clean then start with moveing stuff in around there.  It never fails that I want a clean place to say the least to start with.  This is what my Niece does not understand at all about why I have been trying to clean and keep the place clean.  So with today I will start cleaning once again around here and see how far I can get for today of course.  Also with that being said I told my Niece that she had to do also around here and not just me.  That is the bad part of the thing around here is that I get stuck with alot of the work and some wander why I am so tired around here by the end of the day.  Another thing around here is that my Niece knows that I ment it when I said that she had to start helping around here also.  So now to get started around here and go from there.