Something Wierd

Well it has been wierd here for the past couple of months around here to say the least.  Some will understand what it means to cook with what you have around the household.  And without help at all from the welfare office.  That is what some folks do not get at all around here is that I am not on food stamps anymore for the household.  Also there is nobody to help me in the time of need anymore even when I am totally broke for the food to get some shopping done for the place.  So eather way I am getting tough around the can weather some like it or not around here.  It is getting some into gear for when we move into the house.  Well now my Niece is finally realizeing that I am on the road as of a week from yesterday and will not be home for a week or longer around here.  Well the girl knows that I can tell with the power bills on who did what and when around here.  Well all I can say is that the drama finds me around here without a problem around here at all.  It is one of the freak things of life that some want to try to create more stress on some of us that just do not give a rats behind around here at all.  Alot of things I have let roll off of me now I am just plain out mad about it and the change will come when I get back up here to NY State.  I have kept my mouth shut on alot of things around the place and I kind of let loose on the Niece that is here with me at this point in time.  At this point I am right in what I said becuase her sister really does not care at all on what is going on nor down.  With 2 days of empty promises that the hopes were up around here and they got squashed like a roach in heat screw that at this point.  I have read between the lines around here and I am the one who had to do instead of my other Niece around here to get paperwork totally.  I knew it that the girl did not get in what I was totally saying around here.  I have done gave up and just do not care anymore.  I will back off totally and let her go and that means no more cooking nor pushing myself anymore around the place.  I know it sounds harsh but, I have to do what I have to do around the place to keep the sanity.  And in the middle of chewing 2 out at the same time around here.  Called one a total liar and oh well that is what she is and the other is totally ignoring me around here.  I am so use to getting sworn at that now it does not even bother me at all.  The one knows in how I feel and act around here.  And she ain't nothing but lieing around here.  Now I have always told what is on my mind to everyone for the most part around here and why should that change at all.  Not only that I hardly swear at all and when I do it is eather Damn or Hell.  I did not swear at on and I got the f bomb droped on me and I let others read on what I called a liar and maybe I have been right all along around here and trying to push some in the right direction all along here.  So now I know why and I will back off from now on I just do not care anymore I am so tired of all the crud that is going on that it is not even funny around here at all.  Well I have pieced it all togeather and that is what some do not even realize that I have done in the past 5 days around here.  All I can say is keep the promises and do it.  So I told my one Niece that is here under my roof to find a job and be done with it around here.  I will not break a promise of she has a place to stay at for the time being and always here in my place.  So from now on I will be teaching her more in who to be cheap and be done with it.  Then when she does fly the nest at least I know she is ready for the real world instead of getting prego first with an abuser then going from there in life.  So now it has came down to the point of I am tired of doing for everyone around here and I can not do much on my own hardly since 2 crushed disks in my neck and a few other problems also.  I see where I stand totally and that is ok by me.  Eather way the Niece that is here will make out better than the rest of the other sisters and her brother and I am not worried about it anymore.  Now I will teach her as much as I can around here without her thinking about it of being cheap and go from there.  Also since I have been packing around here it has gave me enough to think on and the whys also.  I already knew why and nobody has taught the girl squat at all.  So I have steped up to the plate to do alot of things and show the girl in what to do around here.  It is enough to make anyone just turn sick on how some have been treated around here and I have put an end to it all and stood up for what is right in the world.  Maybe I am passing alot of it along in what my Momma did for me in my life time.  The pitty is not there and I have had to suck up alot of things and refuse to let it happen to others while I am alive now.  So I will be going that much cheaper around here to prove a point and be done with it all.  Maybe some will learn about the real life off of welfare for a change after being in my place.  Now starts the grit part of being cheap around the place.  I am up for the spite and I will come up swinging.  So now I will start teaching more and be even more cheap/frugal around the dump that I am in and the new place.  Some just do not know what I am up to nor capable of doing for the place at this point in time.  So now to plot away and go from there and get new ideas while I am down home.