I am still in shock

Well I am still in shock this morning around here to say the least.  I have been doing as much as I can around here thru the pain.  Now with that being said I got a call from the bank around here and they want another 1300 dollars.  I have done gave up on the house totally around here.  I guess I am stuck in a neighborhood that is really bad to say the least around here and will have to put up with the slum landlords still.  As I told one of the office workers that here today gone tomarrow and ya never know when the evictions are coming around.  She laughed and said that I was right.  Pretty bad when I still expect it around the place for minding my own nose.  So now I will be going on the cheapest rampage around here to date and nobody will like in what I have to do to get to that level around here.  I am done with the whole mess around here totally with the insurance companies, doctors, and several other things.  The one doctor will not even bother to see me at all unless I have back up insurance around here, and I got another slap with one insurance company also while I was at it yesterday.  I looked at the total on what they wanted to give me (300 dollars) and that is for the crushed disks that will affect me for the rest of my life around here.  The letter also said that I had no cause that they could find at all for the pain.  So I called a lawyer and have an appointment for him today.  My poor Niece has to go with me so she can tell them also in what is going on and of the memory loss, pain, and she cant even keep track of all the doctors appointments that I have and she does not expect me to do so niether around here.  I told the office straight out if I show at 9:15 in the morning 3 days a week around there for the one appointment then I can remember the other time for the other doctor.  After all said and done I have to be in Illinois also this up coming week.  I have no choice in the matter at all.  Now to explain this to the Laywer also while I am at it.  It will be tough let me tell you.  I am tired of hurting for one and tired of crying at this point in time around the place also.  I have been hideing the tears and crying at night and when my Niece is not around.  I can not deal with much more the stress is getting to me totally and I can feel it.  I will figure something out around the place to say the least.  I will make it some how around here.