Wandering

Well since some are just totally out yet around my household here.  I found out on Thursday with a funeral 4 weeks before and some can not even say they did not have phone numbers for some of us at all here over the years since my cell phone number has not changed at all here in about 8 years at all.  That was only part of the cruddy week here and some are going to be out of luck since I have got alot cheaper also while I have been at it here over the past 10 months totally.  Now all I am doing here is trying to catch up with bills here and go from there at this point in time.  I just hope that nobody is going thru in what the Bigen Trucks are going thru at this point in time totally broke and going from there.  The past 4 years have been hard and it just got harder with some of us here at this time.  I am just thankfull that I am somewhat stocked up at this point in time here and some people dropped me to the curb from 10 months ago and then some around here.  I have also learned that life is better without the cut downs and the lies that some will say to and about me at this time here.  The less I know the better and the more I give a rats behind on what some think about me still and it proves a point that I just do not care.  When I am sitting here and my power bill has been under 45 dollars this month here without the dryer going here and all of the lights it tells me something here totally.  Also I have found out that I still have a say in how much I pay around here for alot of things totally.  So the fire place will be going more here for the household to keep it all warm nomatter what goes on here along with the gas bill will not go up that much around here also now with that going when it gets to cold out.  So it makes me wander in what some have been thinking here and others at this point they just do not give a damn period at all.  So no wander I have been trying to get cheaper here and got cut down for what I was trying to do for the household months ago here.  So now it is like I feel alot better after after I got dropped and realized why here totally also after some other people that got lied to also in why I was doing what I was doing or just lied period about me.  Knowing in what I know now I wish sometimes I did not push feallings aside for some people even though they were married to some that were close to me or lived across the street also from the trailer.  SO now at this point in time if some only knew in how much of a tight was that I am now here they would be shocked totally.  Yes I did get everything switched over to the cheaper ways that I have here from the trailer to the household now and some have to deal with it since they wanted to drop me on the curb and take others with them from me here now.  I guess it did not matter in how much pain I was in since it did not matter at all here and I had the feeling more was going down and 2 proved it to me in the past 10 months or so that I had the feeling period at the time.  But then again I am supposadly that damn stupid to some people that I am not suppose to know what the Hell is going on also still to this day when one dropps me and the other ignors me also here.  Oh well at least I know what is going down and let some know also after 4 weeks when I was told here also about a death.