Wandering here

Well now it really makes me wander if I hit the nail on the head with some people here in the area totally at this time.  After almost 8 months here without one person I feel better here and even after the text that the gal sent me at the time made me mad of course and that can not be helped at all.  I told my Husband yesterday that he knew after I paid back the gal that the friendship started falling apart right then and there without even a problem.  My poor Husband said that he noticed it and did not want to say anything about it at all untill I said something about it.  What got to me was all the cut downs that were said to me here knowing that I was not feeling good at all at the time and some still would pile into my place without caring at all about what was going on here.  All I know is that after I said what was on my mind and got it out in the open here I felt alot better after that point.  Also I was trying to get the household on track with alot of things and had to give up on it all untill the blow out of that part.  Then I was reminded of where I stood with someone that use to come over with the gal and he did not bother to come in at all here.  I will not stop my Husband from having friends at all and refuse to say nay on people coming over to see him also here still to this day.  Worse comes to worse I get an extra walk in while some are here.  Anyway things have changed so much here in the household in the past 3 months that it is not even funny at all.  I have got back on the waggon totally to get the household cheaper here once again.  None of us will do without anything here at all and somethings are a treat nomatter in what ya do for the household.  Since I do have the back stock in place here for the household that has helped out totally for not spending much at all for that part of the house.  That was the main thing that I was getting cut down for along with hanging the dang laundry for the most part for the household.  So now here since some have dropped me I ended up getting alot of things on the cheap here and did not get torn down on that part of things here.  Now it is full blown in what needs to happen for the place to get the bills that much cheaper here and I will struggle with that part for a good many weeks again for the household.  After all said and done my Husband ended up putting in the umbrella lines with the back yard and that has helped alot here for myself.  Also now there will be alot of laundry done this week here on the good days totally.  This is what some people have not got as of yet in what some of us do to try to cut costs every step that we take here at all.  So at this point in time it feels good that I am not getting cut down for what I do anymore here for the place.  Maybe that was the problem from the get go with myself feeling so bad along with some that just did not give a Damn in what they did at all to use others.  Now also once I think about it also nobody has complained about my cooking within the 8 months niether here it makes me wander totally in what some were up to about that part since she was here twice a week eating alot of the times.  So at this point I am seeing alot more without the pain and I am trying to get alot more done here for the place on the cheap side also while I am at it all.  Now at this time with watching the sales and it has to be a really good one here in order to get out of the household totally unless it is to walk here totally oh well on some people here.  The best part about all of this will be that the bills will come down again for the place and I will meet the goal that I have set up with the household here from now on.