Shaking my head

Well after the pile of dishes are back in the sink along with other things that need to be done here for the household I should be busy for the day here yet again.  It makes me wander in why I bother some times to do anything here in the household totally.  So I will see where I end up for the day here along with some of the paper work that needs to be done also here for the doctors appointment.  It is a never ending battle around here with the housework and it amazes me at times in how I can get that backed up when I think that I am caught up.  At least it will be a cheap day here totally and things will get done here weather I like it or not.  Since alot of things will be done today here and alot more next week around the house so I can leave for PA also it should not be that bad here at all.  I am having a hard time trying to get motivated for the day here is what my problem is for the moment.  Also I have alot of things on my mind here while I am at it all for next week.  Since it will be a weekend trip and as far as I know I will be taking at least one child here with me when I go to PA.  What is on my mind here totally is that knowing in what some may do if my one niece does come with me on the trip.  With some people I just do not trust at all here still to this day and never will after in what I could remember that some have done over the years.  Alot of my memory has been erased about the person except for very few things that I do remember in what has happened.  In what I do remember it was not good and that is why I have stayed away from the person totally after the accident here and she still has tried to push her way with me.  There are many things with some that it just does not feel right here at all in what is coming up.  Since I am up in the air on alot of things here still and knowing in what can happen totally here with some folks, maybe that is what I am feeling and think about at this point.