Wandering here

Well I guess I will always wander in why I am getting cheaper all of the time for the household.  That is besides making some folks mad for what I am doing for the place.  One of the kids that goes next door all of the time asked in what I had planted already in the back yard and I told her.  All we could do was laugh about it and I told her if she wanted tomatoes to go for it while she was over.  Also now here some of the kids do not mind what so ever in what I am doing to be cheaper than snot here for the place.  With that being said here the youngest nextdoor knows in what is going on and thinks it is just cool beans in what I have been doing.  All the girls said lastnight was that they were learning off of what I was doing outside so far and would love to try it out once they got out of the household.  So at this time here I must be doing something right for the place here and like it.  I will always wander if I am doing things right for the place nomatter in what is going on in life.  Now here I can say also that somethings will get done here and that I just do not care in how some folks try to cut me down anymore.  I told my Husband yesterday that it has been a very long road for me this year on trying to get things done still and be at peace with it all.  I think the jabs just bothered me more since I could hardly do anything at all for the place and try to keep up with it also.  This time last year I was in alot of pain still here and knowing why did not help out in matters.  Another thing is that if the doctor knew in what I had done right after surgery here and what was done to me he would freak out and put me on total bed rest for the 2 weeks that I needed to just take it slow.  Also with all of the stress from some folks it did not help out the matter in my eyes.  So after Febuary here I noticed that I started feeling better after some had dropped me on the curb and I started cleaning the place up even more.  Pluss I still have to watch it so I do not over do it here in the household totally.  That is what gets to me the most at this point in time.  Also that the bills went down after that here.  There is alot of things that I have noticed in what was going on and could not say a thing since I was supposadly the stupid on out of the bunch while I as at it with some people that were coming over.  Knowing that it did not matter in how bad that I was feeling after the surgery and with the pain that was going on some people just piled into the house here and never thought twice about what I was feeling.  So I tried to take it out on the place here and got alot cheaper to prove a point that I could over compansate on things by just doing nomatter what.  It did not help out untill everyone stopped coming over did I realize that it hurt me worse than what I thought.