Shaking my head

Well I have just totally lost here as of yesterday.  I am tired of just being railroaded by what I supposadly want here.  As an earlier post I had said that my Husband wanted to be farther out than what we were when we got the house here and I said no that will not happen at all.  Within about 6 months I had to walk all over the place because of the surgery.  That is when we ended up with the pool also here at the house that hardly ever got used.  The dang pool was a monster on its own here that I got blamed for by the one neighbor also.  The ring needed to have air in it and I did not realize it at the time since it was right after the surgery and it leaked out all over the place.  Now my Husband wants something else here and we do not have room period in the yard for what he wants to get.  When it comes out of my mouth of why now as of lastnight and he blames me for it here yet again.  The whole thing in a nut shell here is that I get stuck doing and not anyone else at all for things.  Here I am trying to get cheaper so I can put gas into the truck along with other things for the house.  That part is a never ending battle and I am on the short end of the stick here totally.  I guess that some things will never change and I will have to come up with a way to get that much cheaper for the household here without even bothering to think anymore.  That is the bad part of things here now at this time and it is looking pretty grim for what I have to do instead of what I have been doing for the place so far.  It means no power period for hours on end along with not bothering with other things.  Also I guess that I will be walking more after all to save on the gas in the truck after today.  That will give me the chance to go ahead and get the nickles along the walk here anyway nomatter what is going on now for the place.  So I guess I will survive this one here and see what I can do on things after today of course.