As I sit here

Well I am plotting for the day and I did not get anywhere yesterday after I got home.  So it is all good at this point in time around here and laundry has to get done weather I like it or not around here.  So now all I can do is try to keep up for the next 2 weeks around here and go from there totally.  The wierd part about all of this is that I have started writing down some things that I have wanted to get done around here that is the lightweight stuff that needs to be done around here.  My poor Husband looked at me and asked in what I was doing for the household here or thinking of.  I told him what I was plotting out and he shook his head at me about it all.  The bucket system will come into play again here on the main floor and that is ok by me totally here.  It all helps out around here with me here at the household to say the least.  So now I will have to remember some things for the week of the surgery here and that is where the buckets will come into play totally untill my Husband gets home after he leaves.  To bring down 2 buckets for shirts and undies along with sweat pants here for that week since I can only climb the stairs twice within the day here.  I already know that I will have to take it easy so I will not over do it niether at all.  Since I have been wanting to go cheaper around here I will have my way about all of this also while I am at it.  Figuring that it will be hard to move the first couple of days around here totally and that is why some are staying home totally the first couple of days here.  Since I will not be really going anyplace during the one week here this is where the bucket system comes into play and I do not have to change at all except once a day around here.  So that is a good sign there.  It goes hand in hand with less laundry also here.  Also I have came to the terms here that some folks do not know in what I have been dealing with while I am at it all.  So now I will go ahead with the surgery on my neck here and see where I land up for it.  Since some have refused to come up to NY State period in the past 12 years here and after the accident I know what I have to do for myself.  Since the one nurse at the doctors office said that I will be in the 85% range here for the neck fusion I should be ok with the healing rate totally and back on my feet with some flair ups down the road.  I gave myself a 50 50 chance here totally.  I just wish that some would just listen to me that have not been that I know and things would be better also.  The old way as the doctor put it yes I would be out for at least 6 months and the new way I may be out for 4 months tops around here totally.  So with that being said here at least some people know that I will come up swinging also when need be.  At this point I just wish that I could be supported by my father just once in my life and knowing that I will not get it at all here.  Now that I have to deal with that part again out of my life it is ok and I will come to terms with it again.  So now it just gives me the chance to really start thinking about things also here during the next month and a half and I will come up with something for it all yet again.