Now I know why

Well I am knowing why I have been slacking around the house at times here.  I do not ask for much around here at all and it seems that when I do nothing gets done except for when I do for the place.  It looks like also that I will not have the sergury at this point in time if the one office has its way about it.  So I guess I will have to live with the disks laying on my spinal cord totally for the rest of the days that I am alive.  Since it is still a pre exsisting condition I am totally unable to get any type of insurance around here to say the least and some refuse to give me the green light for what is left in the no fault account.  It also looks like I have been deemed well but the no fault at this point in time after about nine and a half months of totall pain.  I guess this is why I have tried to keep busy around the household at times to keep my mind off the pain when it gets to bad on me.  Also I know why I get down alot of the times around the household here.  Knowing I can not do all of the time even though my brain says yes and the body says nope we ain't playing one bit girly.  I guess this is why I am willing to go that much cheaper for the household here without a problem at all.  There is a part of me that hope that it all will work out around here and the other part just wants to give up also for the house.  So lets see what I can get done for the day pluss I will have to pick up my Dear Husband while I am at it.  With that being said for the day I am going to try to get alot of the things done around here that I have been ignoring again.  Since I have to be in the basement for part of the day anyway I may as well get some of the boxes moved while I am at it all around here and get laundry done also for the place.  Of course it will be hung up in the basement while I am down there also.  Also looking at the weather report for the week here in Western NY I will be running the room unit for at least 3 days around here.  Thank goodness that I got it when I did around here.  With summer coming up here shortly it will work for what I want it to do here.  Also worse comes to worse I will get one more for the upper level of the household here so we all can sleep.  So now lots to think about for the household here and go from there also at this point in time of course.  And I will still be doing everything on the cheap side anyway here at my place.  When it starts the rain junk the room unit goes on around here totally.  Along with I will still hang the laundry around here and turn off other things here during the day for when I am the only one here.  There is alot that I can still do for the household here and that is how I like it also.  Pluss since I have part of the leftovers in the freezer here from this past week all i have to do is yank something out and reheat it and or reheat and make something else out of it all.  I have been craveing the burger and fry cassarole around here that will be made tonight out of part of the leftovers around here also.  So it will not be so bad around here at all tonight.