Thinking way to much

Well I am thinking way to much again around the household.  With that being said I have been finding the answers to questions that I already knew about and the why at this point in time.  This is what happends when I have to much time on my hands at this point in time here.  While I was mopping the kitchen floor it all hit me around here of the why's in alot of things that have been going on around here totally.  I have came to the fact of I have been droped on the curb so many times at this point that it does not matter in how cheap nor blunt that I am from now on from today forward.  Now I refuse to hardly call anyone for help no matter in how much that I have to do around the household here at least I know that I will be doing alot more on my own here as of today also.  I am not suprized in what has happened at all at this point in time here.  So now I can say that I have been also pretty much thinking of other things here in what I can do to get that much cheaper while I am at it all.  I have stopped drinking totally around the household here after the surgery that I had last week and I have noticed that I have been trying to sleep more around here along with other things that I have been doing also.  Now I know why that I have been keeping to myself more in the past 2 years also while I have been at it all from the trailer to the house.  I have figured out that it does not bother me to be totally alone most of the time and that I like it like this also.  I can not get blamed for things as much if I am out there in the area and what people say about me is on them at this point in time also here.