Shaking my head

Well I was suppose to be at the doctor's office yesterday and they canned the appointment on me then rescedualed it on me and that is fine by me.  Well I got called a liar over that part here and that is ok also now at this point in time.  All work and no play makes a person just plain out crazy here and the doctor needs time away period.  So now since I got nailed over that part of things I have figured that I was suppose to walk away years ago after all said and done here anyway.  I could have stayed in Illinois at the time when I left since there was a place open at the time and did not stay at all figuring that it would be better on me.  Knowing that it was the best thing at the time years later in what I had done it has not been so bad except the mess that I have had to mop up along the way thru the almost 19-20 years of being up here in another state.  So now here at this time since my Husband and myself have the house here and got things going here in the yard along with other things that have been bought and paid for I do not mind being here in a crazy state now.  After all said and done here knowing in what I can do still to this day to put food on the table along with other things that have to be done for myself and the household here it is not that bad at all.  I did not even bother with some things that someone had told me to do in the first place since it just won't work at all without blowing up in my face here anyway at this time.  I guess that is why I have been trying out new things to see if I can get even cheaper for the household to make ends meet that way instead of living off of the government here.  Also I have been thinking of other ways to get things done that are even cheaper now than what others have wanted me to do anyway here for my own place anyway.