Shaking my head

Well since my Husband either thinks it is funny that he did not grab any wood from out side last night or he just does not care about it at all at this time.  Plus he has been flip flopping on the walks also here that I have been doing also in the past 36 hours.  This is what gets to me here totally along with my Husband saying that I am the one that had done lost it around the household also.  I guess this is why on alot of things I have not bothered with for the weekend here at this time also now and when I get to it is when I get to things that need to be done on my part.  Knowing that I have been on total overload for the past 3 years has not helped out at all on my part now and it seems more gets dumped on me every weekend also now.  So it all makes me wander in what I am doing wrong or right here for the household at this time.  So now at this time I will have more walks in this week weather my Husband likes it or not here along with other things that will put me at ease for the household at this time.  The money that I pick up will not hurt me also while I am totally out for several hours while I am at it all.  I guess that I have to prove a point at this time that in who does what and when for the household.  This is why I push for the walks that I get in during the week here and have not been sick at all because of it now.  Another thing that I have realized and thought about at this time over the past 3 years is that my Husband wants the gas in the truck really low so I do not get out of the house also here.  So now at this time I have to really think on things that are still being done and I have swept it all unter the carpet for way to long also.  When I do say something here about it then I get blasted so I have shut up about alot of things and delt with it also for the household and myself.  So this is why I do not say much anymore here period now.  With that being said I have started thinking on alot of things in the past week and it will come togeather here in the coming months also.  Also I have figured out that when the cut downs totally come my way for the things that I am doing here on my own means nothing at this point in time since I am doing some things without even bothering to ask on anyway.  Ok so my Husband pushed for one more account and he can not touch it at all at this time.  Another thing is that I will not keep cash in the household anymore here while I am at it except the things that I have not cashed in as of yet.  Some people do not like to get out to the Tomaras to put in the nickles along with taking change in also.  This is why I do save the change up along with the nickles and go from there at this time.  Now here I have to wait for the mail this week and go from there of course.  This is part of the reason of why I have not got up to the store as of yet to do that part of things for myself here since there is limited slips at this time.  So I will see in what all happends for this week and go from there also at this time.