Thinking again

Well this is getting really old on going an hour out from the house here totally week after week here.  At this point in time I pretty much know in why my Husband wants to go once a week here an hour out to the office now.  Or at least I have figured it out here totally.  This way he leaves the gas tank almost empty and I have to walk almost every place after we get back.  It all hit me after yesterday morning here when I went to the one appointment and it took me almost an hour to get there because of the weather and slicker than snot out on the roads.  Where I was at with the tank I would have not made it period yesterday unless I filled up with gas since a 20 minute drive turned into an hour and a half to get out to where I had to be.  Plus I know better at this time of year when I travel to have a full tank of gas just in case with all the storms that have been going on and that have happened.  So now here I will not bother to listen to my Husband about getting out on some days after this week here and knowing that I have to anyway just to let some of the stress out.  I have been in total pain for the past week with my neck along with other stress that has went on that was not needed at all.  After all said and done here for myself I am tired of being broke also at this time with the household totally while I am at it all.  In what money I do get from the walks helps with the that part of things at this time and will have to just do from now on.  Another thing is that my Husband is figuring that he can walk all over me once again nomatter what is going on.  I have a saying here keep me stressed out and I will not say much to my Husband at all in what he does.  The man has done this all the way over the years and when I say something about it I get told straight out do not treat me like you did with your ex husband at all all of the time.  It all started with looking at houses at the time several years ago here in the area.  When I get told with others oh this is what Cricket wants and this is how it is.  I was thinking of what if I had to walk to someplace at the time for anything because the car,van, or truck went down and I did not want to be stuck in waiting on someone to pick me up also.  That part has happened already in the past almost 3 years here and I got stuck walking to pay a bill not even a week after the neck surgery.  I told the person that I already took care of the bill and do not worry about it since I walked at the time to the one store and then I was going to bed after I got off the phone.  It is little things like that here totally that I started to thinking that I am really on my own here in the area and my Husband did not help me out on that part of things at all at the time.  After that I have been on my own in just doing nomatter in how much pain I was in for the household.  In what saved me was that almost everything is within walking distance of the house here totally and my Husband still freaks out over it all in the why's that I gave him on the place.  Now it is the same battle that it has always been on alot of what my Husband does in the household that makes me wander in why I am still trying to get that much cheaper at this time for the place.  I have almost gave up at this time since everything is undone by the time he gets home anyway for the weekend here.