Holding back

Well for the past 2 weeks here I have held alot of things back to say the least.  And I will be happy to be out of the mess totally tomarrow here.  The bad part of the whole mess is that I have a short fuse and have been holding back on alot of things and will continue to do so also untill I leave early here in the morning.  With that said here I guess I should be happy that I came down around here also when I am not happy except for acouple of people that I did get to see totally while I was in.  So now at this point in time here I am not moving to fast around here at all to get back to the house.  Maybe I am not suppose to as of yet.  I could feel the the vibe when I left the house acouple of hours ago here.  Since I have not drank at all today and that is part of what is getting to the one aunt totally here when I did leave today here.  So now I know that somethings up around here totally at this point in time.  I just have that feeling here on it.  At this point like it matters anyway.  When the one aunt that I do not like at all asked if one of my favorite aunts got a hotel room lastnight there is a problem totally.  So I will probably go and get one tonight here and be done with it all.  Just to save face and go from there.  Oh well at least I can say that some things are not right and never will be at this time.