Shaking my head

Well I have been in pain since I went to bed last night here and when I woke up it was worse here to say the least.  I have also had a count of the heavy pain pills that I brought with me and there is 10 missing out of the count.  Knowing that I did not take them at all here and there has only been one person there on a constant basis there and it was not my grandmother at all, while I have been gone and knew where they were totally also.  Now I am mad about this one totally since I knew who took them.  That was the last straw with me here.  I will not be back at all here to Illinois what so ever.  Since I can not do anything right by my aunts standards around the household at this point in time and according to her I am to damn stupid period on alot of things also I do not need it at all here.  With in all the work that I have done here to help keep a house clean at this point and you could and can lick the commode and the bathroom floor here by the time I got done totally and it still was not right by some standards at all.  To how some do the floors and other things I will not walk in my socks nor bare feet anymore around the household.  It will not happen untill I do the kitchen floor myself and the bathroom floor again and will tell the one aunt that is coming in here on Friday in why I refuse to stay at the house anymore at all and why I will not be down anymore after this.  Knowing the woman that is coming in she will not be happy at all in what I have to say and that I have been keeping my mouth shut so far.  After today no more around the house and I will explode totally if more is said to me at this point in time.  So now at this point in time I am in alot of pain here still and need to cut the stress around the household totally.  So I will get a hotel room totally here as of tomarrow and will be done with it all here also.  My stress level will go down and that is what stinks about it at this point in time here and I can care less in what my one aunt has to say anymore.  I guess the stress is trying to bite my tongue to where I will not say anything to her at all.  Alot of what it is and 2 people said it to me in the past 4 days here was that it is jelousy in how I turned out over the years.  That is not it at all in my book.  What it is at this point is that I have steped on the one aunts toes and told the truth in what is going on from what I knew and was told here over the years.  Another thing is that I have not asked for any money like my cousins have to this day at all and that is how I will keep it while I am at it.  Since I have went to the cheap side here years ago when I was first on my own and never ask for squat at all since I did not want it held over my head I was better off for it.  Still am at this point in time here.  Over 18 years ago I got out of Illinois here and went to NY State I noticed that things got calmer for me within the first 3 years also.  Now I know where I am needed totally and will stay there in NY State totally here without looking back also.  So now at this time here the time is now I guess to make a move at the next nasty comment that is made to me at the one household and go from there and I have held my tongue long enough at this point also.  With the things that are going on and some people figureing that it is ok to start hounding me totally also here with supposadly not doing enough at all also oh well on them since I am the one that works without saying much in what I do.  Oh well at least it is not forever that I am here and I will not be back.