Shaking my head

Well at this point I got out for abit from the house here.  Since there are some things that I am just leery with anyway here with the one aunt that I do not like at all I am better off just getting out of the household totally at this point in time.  So now at this time here I have to load the truck up with the stuff that I have here in Illinois and go tomarrow morning also.  I am leaving early so that is not a worry at this point in time here and I am thinking of a hotel room for the night also here.  Maybe that will be easier on myself also here for the night.  I have to make up my mind about it here soon anyway.  The bad part is that I know I will not get much sleep either way I go so now to just get things done so I do not have to worry about it this evening at all here.  With alot of things that are going on I am just unsure at this point of what to do for the afternoon anyway.  I know that I will be the cheap one either way that I turn here and go from there.  Maybe I am unsure of myself since I have to drive back up to NY State at this point in time also.  So now at this point here at least I know that there are some things that need to be done around here in the state of Illinois and I just want out also at this point.  Since I am the outsider around here still after all of these years I may as well do what I have to to keep my sanity and keep things on the cheap side of life so I know that I will make it totally without the help at all still.  So if it means in not running the dryer at all still along with other things in the household when I get back tomarrow here so be it.  Between that and using alot of the coupons also that I have in my stock pile also here it means alot to me for the household.  So now to really get to the cheap side of the household it will get done without any problems at all.  At this point in time I will be cutting down on the cleaners also in the household so I can streach them out also here along with the cheaper part of the cleaners it will not be so bad after I get done at all.  I will be going to Big Lots for the dish soap and afew of the other things also here while I am at it.  Also since things are going to change for the best around the household here some folks that do come over will not like in how I will be doing things at all from now on for the place.  I guess the worst part is to get everyone on the same page in what I will be doing for the household.  So now at this point in time here my mind is a jumble in what to do here for tonight and tomarrow to say the least.  So now to just do by the time I get back to the house.  I guess what it is around here is that I am the cheap one and do not mind it one bit.  It is all the back stabbing is what I am worried about at this time I guess.  That and knowing that some will say that I am the no good one anyway nomatter what I do.  Maybe that is why I do not trust my one aunt here at all.  That and I got blamed for alot of things also over the years so I just have stayed away for a good while.  Also I did not have the money all of the time to travel.  So now that that part has been settled also that I am going back to work on top of things here so I can save some money up while I am at it all.  And yes I will still be cheap while I am at it all.  So who knows what will happen here.  All I hope is that nobody really worries about in what I will be doing when I go back to NY State also.