Knowing why as of now

Well I refuse to deal with HSBC Bank totally at this point and I am still not walking to the water company period around here at this point.  It has been nothing but problems around here totally with the one bank on trying to pay the water bill and they are done in my eyes at this point also now.  I said it loud enough to where the lobby and the manager heard me saying and ya wander why I will not deal with you for a bank PERIOD around here in Niagara Falls NY.  So now at this point in time the bill is already late as it is and HSBC refuses a payment around here no wander they got bought out by Key Bank or any other bank here in NY State at this point in time.  And yes I am still mad about some things here and will be from now on and I did put out a warning to my one aunt with her Husbands meds totally.  If some want to take my meds they will take his also without a problem at all since the rest of us are on a budget here to afford things and meds that we all need without the medical here there is a problem totally.  So now at this time I know I will not be back to Illinois any time soon at all and some have to beg me to come back down after in what I was told totally also now after this go around.  So here I am up in arms about some things and the only way I know in how to take all of this out is cooking and getting that much cheaper for my household here totally for the household.  Now at this point in time here I am done and will be done with some of the family and what some thought I was harsh on ain't got a clue at all at this point in time with me.  So now here I am and some will figure me out here and I just do not care at all now and they will see me for the real me from now on here again.  There comes a time where I do not care if some like me or not and others can not help at all at this point in time also with age and other things.  So now I will be looking at the grand kids totally and I am still an outsider around here without a problem with some families.  At this point I will update more and go from there with that part.