One of them weeks

Well ok I can understand here when the one marked car stopped me for a moment on Thursday here and this morning another off duty officer said something to me here on my walk already this morning.  I walk in some areas still and often at this time during the week or on the weekends.  It all depends on what I feel for the day when I get out and walk.  When I got home here and it all hit me when the guy asked if he could help me out I should have said yes I need several boxes of snot rags and some food staples for the household along with my gas tank filled up for the week here.  Now I am really shaking my head for the day here and it is not a good thing.  At this point I have a feeling that I am failing on what I need to do for myself and the household nomatter what goes on.  Ok so I ended up with over 6 dollars here so far since Sunday when I did the big cash in here for the place.  I wanted some room to move in down stairs in the place so I cleared out almost 3 bags of nickles here along with $12.05 in the truck that I was hanging on to.  At this point in time it is either that I walk for to have the weight loss continue along with picking up the nickles here or just plain out give up and gain everything back that I have worked so hard at in the past 3 years here so far for the loss and the gain of money along with getting the cob webs knocked out of my brain.  Ok so I also had enough cash on hand to get the oil changed in my truck this week while I was at it.  The oil change was a free one here since I used the cash in of the nickles here also from my walks.  So that should say something in what I am doing here also now.  Yes I will be a tight wad here alot of the times for many things.  I have no choice in the matter at this time.  All I can do is try and knowing that I am in failure mode here at this time on things it is not good on what I need to do.  So this week I will see in what I can do here for that part and try to stay away from alot of people still on my walks here.  This is why I try to get out early in the mornings so I do get left alone and it gives me time to think also on what I need to get done and my mind straight on alot of things that go on.  Now with this week I just hope I can pick up enough money here for the household along with other things that have to be done here also for the rest of the month and next month here.  Also I am getting tired of being cut down from family and others for picking up the nickles and the change that people drop and it is my gain anyway in what others do here in the area.