Shaking my head

Normally I do not even get bothered on my walks untill this week here totally.  I have not gave up at all on the walks and I think it is just plain nuts when someone figures that there is something wrong for a person walking with a clear plastic bag that has the nickles in it here.  So after all said and done I did not get much this morning out of 2 spots that I normally hit up anyway here for most of the mornings.  Now I am frustraited with some people still here and still it does not make any since for some to bother others still almost 3 hours later to me.  So now after much thought about some things that I have been doing and the one area that I have not got much out of for the past 7 or so months it is time to switch to another place here for that part of my walks.  I guess that I had the stupid button on my dang forhead for the morning and trying to get some peace for the morning way before the day really started on me.  So now knowing in how my day will go and knowing that my Husband will not even bother to flapping stop for any reason at all for me here I may as well get use to not going out of the way to get another walk in for the days we are out anymore here anyway.  It is frustraiting to me here since my Husband has been the main one to cut me down about the weight gain here and he will do nothing to help me out for the weight loss anymore except to say that I have not lost enough here as of yet.  So I am still damned either way that I go at this point in time and have got use to that fact of things here on my part.  Maybe I have to start really screaming again to let me out of the flapping truck and for him to pull over also along the way.  I have the feeling that I will not win this battle at all and may as well hang it all up and walk the areas that I get less money in from now on here also.  What else can I do besides waste the gas in the truck from now on and be done with it if I have to here to get the extras and my point accross also here to some people that are in the household with me.  So as I think about this now here I may as well start screaming for my Husband to stop at times so I can get out and let my back calm down also while I am at it from the 2 hours knowing that I can not sit and wait also here without being in total pain by the time it is all done and we get back to the house.  At this point the guilt will not even stop my Husband from doing in what he wants to do and never mind in how I am feeling at the time and it always works out that way on me nomatter what goes on.