Shaking my head

Well now I know why I have dropped some here along with do not mind being calm here also while I have been at it all.  Since the stress levels have went thru the roof along with the pain coming back here along with the migraines also it all makes me wander.  Also this is why I have been taking my walks very early in the morning or late at night here totally.  It is not about the weight loss anymore here on my end.  Since my Husband has hardly let me out of the house here in the past few months I know why now.  With the pain from my neck and the migraines here the walks help ease the pain and takes part of the stress out of the whole thing for the day totally.  Plus it helps out to bring in some money also for the household.  At this point in time here I may as well get out twice a day here starting tomarrow and seeing in how much I can get on my walks totally.  I know that I can hide the money without a problem at this time here on what all I can get during the week.  After a few comments that were made yesterday here in the household I will be setting up another account here and go from there and tell them that I do not want to get a statement on the account untill I deposit money into the account totally.  So all of the change will go into the account also that I get while I use cash out of the household along with other things that I have in mind here at this time.  At this time I am fighting mad about alot of things that have been going on here in the household and at my Husband also now since I am apparently the "Stupid One" on alot of what has been going down.  So I will see in what I can do for the place and be done with it all after this.  Another thing that I have seen here for the place and with my Husband is that I have been stuck totally with what has went down over the past 6 months here totally along with there has been nothing that I can do about it hardly untill now after I have thought long and hard on alot of things over the months.  With the walks that I have been on as of late here I have been doing well on anyway and may as well pull the money back along with what I get for what I spend in nickles for the household also now.  Also I have several crush em things for the scrap yard also at this time.  I will not turn that part in at all untill I get the 6 foot bed of the pick up full here.  There are times where it is well worth waiting here totally on some things.  When there is a will there is a way in my eyes and that is how it will all go after this.  With that being said here I did pick up a good winter coat for next to nothing yesterday while we were out and about since I had to get out of the house here totally before I went bonkers.  The nice thing about all of it is that all I need is a seperate hood for the coat and I am ready for the total cold weather here now and that is where the extra light jacket comes into play for my walks.  Another thing that I have noticed out of what has been going on here is that I can not win nomatter what goes on untill I just start doing here totally for myself.  Some people have told me to wait untill my Husband gets home and let him do period and I am not that type of person to let things go at all and have others do for me here.  Also I refuse to let a man just take over totally in what is going on so I can have a break on things in the household here.  I learned that early in life that if I did not do then things did not get done in the household period.  Now at this time my mind is made up in what I have to do for myself and just be done with it all here also while I am at it.