Knowing now

Well now I know that some folks are right in what they said this morning to me and I am waiting for a reason here to start making phone calls here.  As I say it is a cooling off period for me what was said yesterday in the one office joking or not.  It really upset me in what was said.  I still work hard on the good days and there are days where I am just drained period still even though it is almost 8 months later here.  I take it as it comes around here totally.  Now at this point in time around here I just do not know what to do other than what I have been doing around here to say the least.  While I can do some things for the place there are other things that I still can not do what so ever nomatter how hard I try here.  Now I know what I have to do for the day and it is not working out in how I had hoped it would and that is rolling with the punches around here to say the least.  I know where to turn to and it will not be pretty around here at all if I do what I have to do for the place.  Also I feel guilty for my Husband around here only because I know I can not do everything that I need to do at all.  So now I will try harder and see what I can do to get things done for the household here from now on.  I have no other choise in the matter at this point in time and may as well start doing what I have to do here.  I am done around here totally and I know this part and what else can I do here other than throw up my hands and go from there.  So now I will start doing here and be done with it screw the people who cut me down at the ankles here.