Knowing

Well I know that I am nothing but trash in some folks eyes around here and that is ok by me at this point in time.  Since I have went to the cheaper side of life here that is the comment that I have got more and more from people is that some of us are nothing but "Trash" for being a tight wad in the household.  The new neighbors have not said much to me at all about where I go to for shopping at all at this point in time.  As someone told me yesterday that she got the same thing for shopping at Aldi for part of the household food at her place.  I started laughing about it and said that my Husband does not care if and when I shop there since I have 2 kitchens to run at this point.  Some folks understand totally in why I shop at some places now to where others do not.  So here I am thinking of ways to cut on things and figure if some want to throw stones let them at this point in time.  There are times that some folks should take a huge look in what they are doing for their own budget in the area and if they bring in the money and want to spend it is not on me at all is in how I am looking at it.  All we could do yesterday for the Tuesday crew is laugh and say in how cheap we have became over the years.  We have also listen to each other for tips and tricks on what we can try out for the next thing that is cheap for the household while we are all waiting for the doctor to get in.  I have thought about some things over the past couple of days here is that Liberty Ann is better off than what I am at this point in time with working in fast food.  I have known some to make 10 grand plus a year after taxes in other parts of the country and do fairly well on what they bring in.  With Liberty Ann she wastes more than she brings in a month and wants to tell some of us that we will never change at all when it is not on some of us at all between NY State and PA State at all.  In a way yes I am a hard woman and other ways I am not at all that hard.  It also comes with knowing the real world also in what goes on in other states also is how I look at it and why I do the things that I do after being bounced around for so long.  Some folks have realized here in NY State that I am wise beyond my years also and it is how I grew up also.  I will not knock anyone for doing the right thing at all when the times were different.  If and when ya got knocked up you either got married or gave the child up for adoption in the 50's and 60's along with before the dates that I said.  And the parents not being scared of their children also came into factor.  I have respect for my Momma here still to this day mixed with some fear that she could have took me out if need be unlike the children of today's world.  In what ever you call it CPS, CYS, DFH, and many others they are for the children and the parents make a wrong move the children get taken out of the home now.  I told one social worker years ago for Liberty Ann I refuse to run scared of anyone at any time and do not care at all in what they could do to me at that time scared the worker totally.  What the person did not know is that I was on the reservation and had 7 Big, Huge men running from me over what I said over the phone.  I am sorry I will not put up with a spoiled rotten brat for nobody around any state at all and said my piece on it.  I have learned to put my foot down years ago and meant it and still do.  With some not knowing where I have moved to and others not taking things at face value here between NY and PA States that works out to my advantage also.  Oh well at least I can say that I just do not care about what some do not to make things right in the world at all and they have to prove to me that they are on the right path now at this point in time also.  When I found out that Liberty Ann lied about some things here on me I knew that I had to walk away from her and do what I had to do on my own without her being in my household at either place at that point in time 6 years ago almost 7 years now.  So I went cheaper and figured out in how lucky I was in what some others seen that the girl could not get by with at all in my household via the trailer or a house at all.  Myself and alot of others got called "Trailer Trash" also for where we were at, at the time and blew up over it.  That set the mode of that I did not want the girl under my roof at all period and her supposed sister ended up with a trailer and was paying rent on a house that she did not own at all.  What went on is that Liberty Ann was nothing but a welfare baby and who signed the B.C. was not her real father at all.  I have said this time and time again and I know who her Bio Mother is and it is a toss up between 2 men for the girls father.  So alot of folks have lied to Liberty Ann except for myself here when I have told her the truth totally.