Sitting here wandering again

Well I am wandering still if I am making the right choice about the surgery around here and I can tell already that maybe I am not.  Either way I have no choice in the matter around here to do what I have to do for the household.  The phone call that I made yesterday the person did not blame me at all for being upset and coming up swinging on things that were said.  So now I will go that much cheaper for the household here in just what was said on Monday around here totally.  Not that it matters to some doctors in what I do to get things done anyway around my place.  Now I can say that I will be going out for more walks around here just to be thinking of what else I can do for the household that is cheap.  This is what scares some folks about myself here in the area is that I just do not care about having everything that others have.  At this point I will end up getting more nickles in the long run of course and that is ok by me now.  Pluss this weekend here I will get out there and see what I can do for my fair share of things and start walking again.  With the weekends around here it seems like I get more of the deposits anyway so that is why I really do not mind the weekend walks.  It seems strange I know and it does help out for the place.  It could be worse around here to be honest and it will all work out to my advantage around the household.  So now to see what happends between now and what the one doctor says tomarrow here.  As I told the person yesterday yes I am scared about somethings here and yes I will end up walking to think about all of what is going on here.  So I will talk with my Husband about it and see if we can make since out of it all when he gets home here.  Also I know my limits for the up coming in what I can do here.  Maybe this is why I am getting mad around here also is because that I know my limits also.  My one Niece said it best around the trailer that I was the energizer bunny on the housework before the accident and after that I needed the help totally.  When I started really walking here almost 7 months ago here it was to help me out and start thinking.  I also picked up the bottles and cans along the way around the area while I was at it.  It did help out in alot of ways for the trailer and other things that were going on at the time.