Not looking forward to this

Well there is a very good chance that I will be thrown off of the medical that I am on at this point come Monday around here.  I also know what is going on around here with that part of things also around here to say the least.  Ok so I have not went totally postal on some folks yet and it will get there totally if and when they all show up around my place tomorrow if ever.  With alot of things around here I should have not been doing and some have made it worse on me totally and they really could care less on what has happened at all while things were going on.  Now that I can get out of here for the walks that I wanted to go on I have been taking total advantage of it in the past week here and I am liking it again without the dread of coming home with another dog here that was and still is destructive.  Now that I am in total amazement and wandering in what I did was totally undermined around here at this point.  All I can say is oh well maybe this is what I deserve around here since I am honest and truthful totally here in NY State.  This is why I am wandering of why I have stayed up here in the state totally at this point.  All I am seeing is alot of the people here totally kniveing around the area and there is not to many good folks left in the area at all.  At this point the neighbors do not question of what I do for my place at all at this point in time.  We are all doing what we have to, to make ends meet around here on what we make.  This is why I asked some of the neighbors of what their bills were like around here after I moved into the household.  I ball parked the bills and took into reason ok this is how many folks they have in their place also.  With some of the things I took into consideration was that they use the dryer at all times in their place to where I do not.  Another thing is that I am use to what I am use to by hanging laundry and other things for the household here also.  I guess this is part of of what I have to go thru around here totally in the household around here.  I guess this is why I have went even cheaper in the household here compared to the trailer now.  I have been hanging all of the laundry around here and keeping the lights off here in the trailer to say the least to save on the power bill.  The gas bill has came down on its own around here totally.  So now at this point I am wandering in what others are really saying about me and like I really care anyway in what is said.  I can not say that I have been any nastier over almost 7 months around here at all after some things even what others say about the situation on alot of it.  I know one neighbor has said that I was an old soul around here and was raised in the wrong time frame totally now.  I know what I have to do to save money around here to make both places to work around here and that is what is bothering alot of folks now.  I have done a cruddy job at it so far and will go that much cheaper to do what I have to at this point.