What I went thru

Ok 6 years ago here I had went down to the state of PA. to help my sister in law out totally.  I knew she had cancer and it totally sucked in what she was taking at the time.  So I went down to help out and months later I gave up totally.  Anyway before I gave up I had forgot some things here in NY State so I bought 6 towels and grocery shopped on a very tight budget to say the least since I was already down there in PA.  My sister in law put me on a no shower unless it was a week between showers at her place totally and afew other things in her household.  Knowing my limit is about 4 days either way I go without doctors appointments here my hair got really cruddy and I smelled worse than ever before after the 4 months I was down there trying to take care of her totally along with the brat that she had.  After handling the meds and handing it to Betty I had to go thru with drawls myself from the heroin that they gave her(Oxycontin) it was the worst that I had totally.  I told my poor Husband in what was about to happen and he let alot of it go because he knew that I knew what I was going thru also.  Yes I have tried everything out on the streets and knowing what I went thru before I gave him a heads up this is what will happen totally.  Others were not prepared in what was to come at all.  Well to say that I over spent while I was down there was an understatement totally.  I was also surprised that I did not bag and tag one of my supposed Nieces while I was down there also still to this day and the girl has apologized all over herself the last time I talked with her.  With the one Niece I ended up as trailer trash only because of where I lived at at the time and she does not have a clue at this point as to where I am at at all.  That is fine by me after she called me trash after all.  Well after that I knew of some things that have went on and her supposed sister moved into a trailer after all after 2 years and never owned the house that she was in.  At least the tin can was paid off and then some with some of us here before we got the house in December here.  I had got to really thinking this morning that this is why I went cheaper after my sister in law Betty passed on almost 6 years to the day here.  Maybe I went to the cheaper side of life figureing that I wanted my Husband to have the extra money and not be stuck with the total bill if I desided to kick the bucket.  With that said here I have told my Husband in where some things go around here with my Dollies and went from there.  Since there was a huge fight over some things like the payment for Betty's funeral I just paid the balance off and was done with it all.  This way I knew that the thing was paid for and could not be blamed on squat at all.  ALso some have figured out about me the way to get me down to PA is if a graduation goes down and if some are in trouble in the state totally.  After switching cars and everything I can pass thru without any problems at all even with the NY State plates on what I drive now.  It will screw with the CYS in PA State totally when I pull up to help out with some since I know the codes to things with family members.  I have blown gaskets before on the Brookville group and will do it again.  The first time I was nice about it and made some of the folks up here run in NY State.  This time I will not be as nice and some will pay for what they did.  When I have a well known family running from me here in the area and I knew right then and there that it was not good.  So that was part of what went on with my Betty also here after everything went down.  The other part is that I went cheaper in the trailer and I could afford things without realizing it all after a few months also without a spoiled brat in the trailer.  That is how I got the convection oven and the KitchenAid mixer also while I was in the trailer.  Both have moved to the house here with me and some already know in what I have done for my place here.  I am sure that my own mother and mother in law have took care of some things already here for me about some things here in what have went on.  I will not lie for anyone around me at all and others I knew what was going to go down and that is why I did not fight for them at all.  I guess I can chuck it up as seeing things that some do not know about and that is how I like it here.  It goes along with Liberty Ann putting up pictures of my dog on her sites that she uses still.  I have not seen any money out of the girl as of yet, so now the dog would have been long gone along with the cat here if I did not have them in my household.  Some do not understand this at all and that is how I like it also here.