Some things

Now I have left some things alone over the years PERIOD. Now I have walked out of someones life totally and feel ok with it all. I have put my food town on alot and got blamed also for it. At least I am ok for what I did and got shoved out with trying to do what was right in life. Now I am sorry for not putting my foot down earlier and makeing folks move when I should have. I still have money eather way and afew other things now is the time on what I should have done years ago. Maybe that is what is bothering some folks about me is that I am very blunt and to the point that I just do not give a rats behind anymore on things. I have moved to a me stage on things and now I am happy that I have. Other wise I would have not known some folks and happy that I have opened my place up to some family members also. And I know why some family fueds go on for years upon years now. I will make sure that one stays for the next 300 years eather way. And of why some folks come back to haunt others also in life. My Mother In Law is a blessing to me when I do see her from beyond. I know I am on track when she does show up to me and I can see her. I have said my piece and I am letting alot go now. I have no choice in the matter anymore. As long as I know I have done right in my life and tried to make things right eather way I am ok with it all. As some people who know me have said eather you love me or totally hate me it will not bother me eather way. I just can't let it all affect me eather way at all. I will wander about a spineless child who hasen't bothered to listen to the other side at all and go from there. All I was doing was makeing sure that someone was alright and went from there and now I hope that she will never know about me nor her own biological father at all. So that means that my first thru 3rd guesses were right and now I do not have to say a thing at all nor put the anouncement into the paper on squat that goes on. Now I have a reason and then some of what I have been doing and will get even cheaper/frugal in life around here. Now I will get things on sale and with coupons when I am at the store and alot of other things that some will never know at all. Some things are better left unsaid and some who gave me the advice was totally right on the mark. I have came up swinging for a reason and I will admit that I am the rock out of the family. As the saying also goes that God may shut the door on some things and He always leaves a window open for other things to come into your life. So now I will be looking at the saying in a whole new light and will count my blessings on alot of things from now on. I have not got pregnate for a reason so far and knowing the reasons of why I haven't. I will be looking into that all togeather and there is always adoption as another way also. I have had my medical problems I will not deny that. And knowing the family on the one side I will be trying like gang busters around here to have Children just for my Husband and myself. At least to carry on the family name from both sides. I am not a product from my father side at all I will admit to that much. I am my mother the person who raised me thru and thru and my work ethic may come from all sides of the family. I have worked hard for most of my life and keep proveing myself on a daily basis. After a while you need a break in life and I haven't found it as of yet. Even though good friends and family have pumped me up thru the years and I have the appreciation for that. Well now I know that several friends and family were right about some things in life as of now. You can't pick your family but, you can pick your friends a Hell of alot better. Also my Niece was also right on the situation along with someone else not my loss on the long term at all. I know who I am and someone elses loss for not knowing me at all. Ok folks that is what I have to say for now. Go on and be cheap on your own pace.