Coming to terms

Well I have came to terms around here about some things in the area.  Some folks are pigs and others are not around here.  I am in NY State here and I have seen folks throw out nickles like no tomorrow and afew other things around here and today with the Ink from the printer was the Icing on the Cake in my book totally here.  Some places lost my Business around here without a total problem.  I have learned over the years that some places go out of business out of stupidity around the Niagara Falls area and that is it.  After 18 years this month here in the area I have seen places come and go because of lack of either folks that want to do good and bad practices totally on other folks.  Some folks would love to have the books that I have and 90% can not read worth a dang here in the city period now.  This is what happends when the schools don't give a damn about the students that walk in the doors at all here in the city of Niagara Falls and the ones who do get fired or laid off as teachers.  Or the parents get told no you can't do that and that is abuse totally around here for the chidren.  All I can say is that NY State is totally soft on some things compaired to Illinois around here.  This is why I ended up as a housewife around here and to taking up walks here to pick up nickles in the parking lots of places and hoping I can bring in enough for food for the new place here also while I am at it all.  When I see some folks get a job that are not worth it at all around here and then some totally this is why I am sick of being dogged here and can get to Illinois and get 3 jobs at the same day be sick all of the time while I am there and still work.  I brought it up to my Husband last night around here that if we moved to Illinois we are back to square one on the seeing eachother once a month then to top it off here I work and be sick constantly except 2 days a month if at best.  Then to be streached out totally around the area on top of it all.  I know what will happen if I move back to some places and I would be done.  This is why I am tired of things that go on nomatter where I am at, at this point in time and maybe this is why I did not get back to Illinois for some things at all and it breaks me to this day since I do need some closure to some things.