Pretty bad when

Well I knew around here that my Husband did not care what went on with the doctors appointments at all with me and I had to keep track of them myself and Wednesday was the test of everything.  I have hit an all time low when I have to ask a friend to take me to the hospital and back for surgery around here totally.  What some have not totally understood about me here is that I have no support from some around here period and just dump me at the door and get me in and that is all I have asked around here to say the least after the accident as of Augest 27th of 2010 here totally here.  After my Mother in Law I do not blame my Husabnd for flying on me at this point in time but a little bit of back up would be nice every so often here also while I am at it.  Maybe I am not suppose to go down to Illinois also while I am at it all here even for a funeral.  I have tried to explain this to some and they do not wanna listen at all to me so maybe one trip in after I get well somewhat to get to Illinois and never return at all after that.  I know where my place is and I should have started working way before now around here seeing in what has went on and gone from there at the time here.  Since I took the doctors and 2 of them at the same time dont even bother to work at this point in time here I knew.  At this point in time I will clean, cook, and do laundry at another persons place and email me on this if you are in the Western NY Area here I will work and give me 2 weeks off after sergury on my neck.  Since I am worth a damn in myown household why should I be anywhere else also since I am use to be treated like Shit anyway.