Feeling normal

Well I am feeling normal once again around my own place finally here.  Now maybe I can get the household cleaned up to where I just do not throw up my hands anymore also at this point in time also.  It will all be done on the cheap end of course and there is no excusses of why it should not be anyway.  So as I sit here and started plotting out the day yet again here it is easier on me at this point in time also.  Since I thought I lost a bird yesterday after I was cleaning out the cages here I took it as a huge sign also that my crew here at the household really needs me home at this time.  So I have alot to do here with the household before I leave here within the month of course and go from there.  Since I have been trying to get things done and others not realizing in what I have been doing or trying to do for the place here and it has been hard for me since my Husband starts hollering about what I have not got things done at all for the place while I have been at it here for the past 3 months totally.  Last weekend here may have been the worst of it when I was trying to get laundry done along with the dishes and many other things also at the time here.  So now at this point in time I will have a clean house period weather some like it or not around here totally.  With all of it around here I will say that somethings that have been going down totally here were just not cool at all so now I do not have to worry about it at all in what is going on at other places.  I have came to the point of now it is not worth me getting screamed at here in the household at all over the things that I had no controle over at all and could not get to also while I was at it.  Now that I have picked myself back up around here totally from some things I feel better about myself totally now after some yesterday reminded me that I did not need the abuse at all and that others did not want me to leave the babysitting thing totally here I knew in what I had to do and have been trying to get out of it also.  After this past weekend of trying to get things done here at the household and getting talked down at on Sunday around here also I was done totally by that point in time.  Also when I got into work Tuesday with some not feeding the girls nor dressing them propperly for the morning I knew at that point in time I could not deal with much more at all.  So now at this point I am just happy to be out of the mess in some areas and will fix mine here totally within acouple of days also.  Alot of things have been slacking here at my place since I have been just dragging my feet after fighting the kids totally also.  Now at this point in time I will be doing for myself and the household totally and others will have to learn that I can only do what I can around here and that is it pluss some have to find other means of having another sitter totally for their place.  Since I will refuse to take the B.S. anymore here at all with alot of what I was doing here I knew and just had not made up my mind here untill yesterday afternoon.  So now with that said at least I will have cleared my mind by tomarrow to really start cutting on my budget again and be done with it for at least 3 months again here.  Another thing here is that at least I can hold my head up high now and do what I have to do at least to get that much cheaper for my place.  It is sad that I had to have my eyes opened up around here totally by someone that knows me all to well along with a bird on top of it.  Some do not know that I also ate enough crud from my Husband also with oh don't quit and in the same breath that the house is a total disaster on top of it.  So now that I will be working on the house today and tomarrow this should be good around here totally.  Also at this point in time I have also been thinking of alot more of what I could have been doing either way around here to keep it clean.  As one of the gals who is over all of the time she realized that I was trying to keep up and was failing totally as of last week around here.  So now at this point it will get better around here and some do not have a choice in the matter when it comes down to my household and my health also or the kids and the loss of health and extra stress that comes with it.  That went along with being called your kicking dog that does everything by some also on top of it out of an astranged husband that ment squat to me around either place.  So now at this point in time here I will take my own needs first and go from there now on.  I knew it was to early to go back to work here and ignored the warning signs totally espesilly when the baby kept going after the scar on my neck and my neck to fight me over a dang nap.  So now I will do what I have to for the place here and myself from now on.