Knowing now

Well I have thought about some things around here and came to the thought for the past almost 36 I have been nothing but the liar and mud under some shoes here from some people totally.  As my father told me that is just your aunt and that is how she is and I had said the same for years here on the woman who thought I was a piece of crap compaired to her oldest daughter for years.  All I can say is that my parents are devorced here and that is that and I had to grow up early either way I went here and left some of my cousins totally behind in what I have been doing on my own.  It has also helped that I have not asked for a dang thing from anyone on my fathers side of the family at all since I moved to NY State nor any other time once I think of it since I am not tied to them really anymore after the one aunt has bad mouthed me for years.  Since I was taught better than my cousins here also over the years growing up and never asked for squat at all at this point in time.  Gee no wander I went to the cheap side of life here while I was at it.  It also helped out that I knew that I was on my own for the past 20 years pluss without help from anyone from the one side of the family.  At least I did not get caught having sex and turn up prego like my cousin did at 17.  I had 3 kids to raise that were not my own and married by 16 and that was done in totally by abuse.  So now at this point seeing that some had it so easy while we were growing up it makes me wander here in what they all learned besides mouching off of others.  So now when some call me a liar it does not even bother me at all since I am steps ahead of them totally still to this day on alot of things.  What I thought was funny was when my one aunt turned to me and asked if I knew how to get an over easy egg out of a pan and I said yes I learned almost 20 years ago here in how to do that and you did not know in how to do it.  I guess working in the food service buissness helped out here along with other things that I held down as a job compaired to her and her kids at this point in time in 22 years of working.  So now I did not grow up pretty at all and can curl toes in what the heck happened to me.  That is what scares people the most here with me at this time.