Thinking again

Well I have been thinking again around the household.  After this week when some asked me to tell them what the doctor told me here the person got mad and I ended up frustrated as normal.  All I can say is that at this time I refuse to take any money from family period and knowing that I am better off here for it, that is how it will go.  It also looks like I am faceing another surgery also and I am not ready for that part of things here.  Knowing that I do not have much help at all here and I will be on my own again without a question at all, it puts everything up in the air if I will go thru it or not.  With the last go around here I vowed never again on alot of things here in what happened.  So as I sit here and think about that part and finally have the house back on track it seems that I am on track for some things here and others not so much.  I am figuring here that I will have to stop hanging laundry also if I go with another surgery and sleep on the main floor also while I am at it all.  So now at this point in time here I am figuring out in how cheap I can go here without some hollering about in what I am trying to do here for the household again.  I may as well untill I can figure it all out around here in what is going on.  Also I got out for a walk yesterday and I did feel alittle better after I got back to the house.  I figured why bother to take the truck yesterday here when I should have to put gas in the truck.  Oh well I will have to leave abit earlier this morning to get that done and off to the next test that I have to have done here.  I will get by on about 40 dollars for the next 2 weeks here in the truck and that is if I do not have to pick up my Husband an hour out.  Oh well at least I can go that much cheaper and lest see what I can get by with here in the household.