Knowing why now

Well when I went to the cheap side of things at the trailer way before things exploded on my Husband it was a learning experience at the time for me there.  I have kept my mouth shut on alot of things over the years that some would figure that I would not have at that point in time at all.  That goes along with my Husband wanting to move out further than I wanted to at the time also here when we were looking for a house also once I think about it here totally.  Also that is why some offered in what they all did at the time that they did about the mountain since when I did speak my mind oh lets take her out of the situation since she grew a back bone on top of it for some things here.  At this time and it will never change of that I can only be pushed so far with some folks and that is it when I do take the stand against what is going on and down in life totally still to this day here.  So the more I thought about things the cheaper that I went in life and meant it along without eating at all hardly at the time.  I figured it was some of the things that I could control out of life and went on with not saying anything at all along with other things at the time also.  So now I am going that much cheaper for the household and do not care in what others think say nor do at this point in time here since I am here alone during the week most of the times here and on my own.  With that being said here that is when I really started cutting things down at the trailer and it has stuck here for the house also while I was at it no matter in who was living at the trailer at the time along with looking for a house.  Now I have became alot more aware of what to do since alot of things just went wrong in the trailer also over the years and struggling to keep afloat in the bills that came in and getting them paid off.  So now at this time here at least I can say that with the back stock along with many other things that I have saved money on it was well worth going that much cheaper at the trailer and in the household here while I was at it all.  Now that includes the drying racks here for the house also after I found them on the cheap and the 10% off at the time also at some places that I picked them up at in the past year here if not longer to save on the power bill.  That goes with the room A/C units while I was at it also here for the household since the power is that much cheaper here than with the trailer since the summer months with both units going here.  So now at this point in time since I am still pinching pennies and then some for the household here some will never get it in what I do nor will they ever get it at this time.  Also that goes along with not spoilling some children at all that were suppose to move in with myself and my Husband at the time over the years also.  Since some have not complained over the past 19 years here in May on what I have done nor how much penny pinching that I have done to make the trailer work along with the household here I guess I have the upper hand totally on alot of things here at this point in time.  With alot of things it took me awhile to get the commonsense back into me here since I had the head truma along with whiplash also here after the accident.  Ok so I had to write things down and remember in how to get things done on top of it here and nobody was around for that part out of either side of the family at that point in time at all.  So now since I have got my wits about me again and I am on the straight path again some do not like it at all here in what I am doing for the place.  It means clipping coupons and sales with finding the best prices on things also here so things will go down for the household along with all the bills also here at the same time.  So maybe that is why I ended up with the KitchenAid stand mixer along with other things here in the household since I did not have to put up with a bratty teenager here also while I was at it over the years here.  I will also say that I have not blown up a hand mixer after 5 years that have went by also while I was at it after I got the KitchenAid mixer along with other things also.