Shaking my head

Well at this point in time I am trying to get that much cheaper for the household here.  With that being said around here I have been turning off things at the breaker bars and have switched the T.V. out here in the main room of the household also to save money around the household.  That is part of the problem with some of the folks here in the area and with my one aunt now with me here.  Since I have been doing alot of this since I kept getting laid off from the one job that I had I have had to cut corners totally in the household without a question at all for years now.  Since alot of things have happened in the past 13 months with moving out of the trailer and into the house I had to take in what I do several steps further than just being in the trailer with being stuck with the high bills that were coming in at that point in time.  I have also been switching alot of things over here in the house in the past 7 months that are still the name brand products here that are cheaper in price also to use for the household now.  Since I try to use the least amout possible at this point anyway in laundry and dish soaps here in the household this is why I have some back stock on that part of things here and now.  Also I made sure that I had enough things on hand here in the household before I left to go down to Illinois while I was at it all.  Now with that said here I had asked some people to get out here to the household and stay also and I got told that they would tell me something about 4 days before I left to see family also.  Well the day before I got the call oh I can do this and I had asked others to come over totally here.  Then I knew that I was not totally worthy of some folks at all and I have not really talked to them at all since I have been back from Illinois also.  All I asked was for enough notice so I could cook meals for the person since he does not cook at all and to turn on another cell phone for the household here totally before I left.  Along with paying the person to stay here while I was at it all.  So now at this point in time here I knew the reason of why I had been saying no to the folks that I asked to help me when they wanted to barrow money totally in the past 18 months.  So now at this point in time here some have said it was me to the fact of getting nasty with them totally when they started complaining that they were broke all of the time and I told them in how to cut some things down for their place to have the extra money also.  I did not do it nasty at all and dropped alot of hints on the one gal that was coming over with her husband.  When I got told that I do not care in what others say about not getting the paper plates and paper towels for my place in not to get them to save money for the end of the month I knew at that point I could not deal with them anymore.  Since I have cleaning raggs for the household here I would have expected some to have used them totally out of respect for saving money also with being here.  So now that I have pretty much dropped some folks as friends totally here in the new place they have to understand that I do not take lightly in what they do for their household at all now and see why they are totally broke by the end of the month.  There were times when I made stone soup myself at the trailer to keep the place fed around there when I was totally broke at the end of the month since the complainers took the last 40 dollars that I had for food at the time.  Since niether person cared in what I had to do for the place at the time nor what I have to do for the new place now I do not see the need to keep them around at all.  That is part of the reason of why I did not call them when I got back into NY State.  And yes the couple that I am talking about bring in more than what we do at this point in time off of disability checks and food stamps also now.  I would love to have everything included for 375 dollars a month here at the house and it will not happen at all like the complainers do.  That is except the cell phones, car payments, and insurance at this time on their part.  Even my Grandmother was shocked in what I was paying out when I was down in Illinois also.  Some do not wander in why I have the tight budget at all now for the household here and others just do not care what so ever in what I have had to do.  So now I will be getting onto saving more money today here and go from there from now on here.