After lastnight

Now I really remember in why I left Illinois. I really haven't been back except for about 3 times in the past 17 years at all. IF and when I do go down there I will grab what I had asked for several years ago and most of the one side of the family won't have to worry about me anymore at all after that. And after coming up swinging with someone I realized of why I wasen't traveling down there. Pluss after I left I did realize I felt better and have done it on my own without help at all. As I said lastnight most of the one side of the family will not come up here for fear of catching poverty out of my place. I think it is funny becuase, I do have enough food and other things in the can. At this point I have got alot cheaper in life and I like it. I have made a promise to myself never to pay full price for anything around. I told my nefew do not look at the price tag becuase I diden't spend that on the items for the baby. All he could do was laugh about it. That is how I have made it this long without asking for money at all. Now at this point I really want to go that much cheaper around here just to be done with it all. I do not need much anyway nor want much anymore. I say this only becuase I have a place full of appliances now and other things. I am not down sizeing yet nor do I really want to on some things around here of course. Since I do use all of the stuff around here I will have a fully stocked kitchen once again if and when we move out.