Hatered has been done

Now I have cried over it and prayed also while I was at it all. Now I have realized who was there for me at all times and hardly my fathers side was there. So now I have gave up and said screw it for most of them along with other folks around me while I was at it. After a good day and hardly anyone could bust my bubble some one did. Sorry I will stick to a friend for over 20 years compaired to some family members that were supposadly there. Most of the Viviano's were never there for me anyway except for very few and far between like it matters anyway. Most of them are not worth the pwoder to blow thier ass up with at this point in time. Now I know I have been on my own for way to long and the one side of the family never had controle over me at all. Now I know I am an Eade or Mc Ewen Period in life. Once my licence is up I will be changing my name to plain out my married name weather some like it or not. Like my maiden name makes a diffrence around here anyway since I have a very good rep around the Niagara Falls area unlike some of my family now. Who ever wants to stand up to me lets flipping go now becuase ain't nobody gonna be there after I get done now. After all of the years of being in NY nobody has been here except for 3 people and that is it. What everyone else is scared to get poverty from a damn trailer park. Now I get to laugh becuase I am better than most of my fathers side of the family and I am finally realizeing this now. I was always broke always will be and Fuck everyone who says differantly. Now I know why my Mother in Law was shakeing her finger at me from beyond. Pluss I took care of her Children that I knew about. Most of the family better hope to God they diden't go thru what I did growing up and then some around there. I always knew I was a piece of shit just becuase of the last name PERIOD. Prove me wrong on it now. I diden't try in school for a reason and it paid off. So if Ayla if you are reading this life is always worse than yours weather you like it or not and I despize you also.