Knowing what is up

Well after I did talk with my Niece today I finally figured it all out besides of being homesick for 17 years. Under the stress that I have been under no wander why I had one of the epasodes that I always have. Between a friend and my niece they have pretty much pulled me out of my slump that I have been in the last 3 weeks around here. And if it was not for a rutine that I have had for years I do not know what I would have done in the past 3 weeks also while I have been at it all. So now since everything has been turned upside down in the past month or so I have been somewhat upset about the crap that I have made supposadly. The 2 out of 10 people said this and the rest have supported my toush on what I desidded to do around here. All I know is that I did try and fell flat on my face for what I wanted to do and it is up to the person to make it right at the moment eather way I go from now on. I am not to worried about the loss on my side of what is going on becuase I already know what is going on in the real world of things around here. Pluss I am not as stupid as some made me out to be over the past almost 17 years also in asking for money at the Spineless Bitches Mommies side of things. I can count and know about when and why of what the Hell happened around here. The door has been closed and what her father does is his own problem not on my end of things also. I expect some to open up thier flipping mouths to where we both are and some know who and why at this point also at this time. It has really took me untill today to realize on what was really going on and I put everything togeather eather way since I am that Damn Stupid to some folks here in NY State and wander why family battles go on over 300 years if not longer. With that being said I do have several outlets around here and one is being the dirt cheap person that I am at this point in time.